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I shoved the last of my clothes into my suitcase, grabbing the last of our 'savings' which honestly, was just a bundle of money hidden in our sock drawer. Gerard's never liked the idea of banks, so we kinda just kept all our money with us. I looked around our bedroom once more, making sure I grabbed everything we would need before skipping down the stairs. I looked over at Gerard who was roughly shoving cans of food into an old backpack. I sighed softly, studying each inch of him.
Fuck.
He has to be real.
I mean look at him.
He's right fucking here.
I sighed softly, walking over to him, resting my hands on his hips,

"Calm down baby. It's all going to be okay." I soothed, pulling his body closer to mine.

Gerard sighed letting himself lean into my grip, "Fine. I'm sorry. I just. I can't believe him!"
I flinched slightly at his sudden burst of anger. He groaned out, running a hand through his hair, "I'm sorry. I didn't mean to yell."

I sighed, kissing his head gently, " It's okay baby, we're gonna get through this okay?"

Gerard nodded as he pulled himself off of me so he could continue to pack up some food for us. I looked around the house, wondering where in the hell we could possibly go.

"Where are we gonna go?"

Gerard smiled softly, zipping up his backpack, "I was actually thinking Right out of town and then we could catch a bus to New York."

My eyes widened, "I've always wanted to go to New York!!"

Gerard turned towards me, a sly smirk spread across his lips, "Mm, I know."

I pulled Gerard into a tight embrace, breathing in his scent. Fuck I've missed that. I heard Gerard let out a small chuckle as he held me close to him.

"Fuck, I've missed you so much Frankie." Gerard breathed out.

I smiled wide, "I've missed you too, more than you'll ever know."

Gerard pulled away from the hug a huge smile plaster across his cheeks. I returned a smile, before walking into the living room grabbing our coats off of the couch. I sighed putting mine on after handing Gerard his. I looked around the house one last time. Fuck I'm gonna miss this place. There's so many memories engraved into these white walls.
When me and Gerard first moved in here together.
The first time we made love.
The day we got engaged.
Everything fucking happened here.

"Are you ready, baby?" Gerard spoke suddenly, breaking me out of my thoughts.

I bit my lip softly, smiling softly, "As ready as I'll ever be."

Gerard nodded, smiling gently as he grabbed his backpack along with two suitcases. I sighed softly, grabbing two suitcases as well, walking them out to the car. Gerard placed his suitcases in the trunk before piling mine on top.
I raised my eyebrow slightly as Gerard pushed the keys towards me.

"Don't you wanna drive, y'know considering you know where we're going."

Gerard shook his head quickly, "No. I really can't drive right now, but we do need to go soon who knows when Mikey's gonna show up."

I sighed taking the keys from him, knowing I didn't have time to question him. I hopped in the drivers seat, practically speeding away from the house.
We drove for about three hours before I grew the confidence to finally question Gerard.

"Why'd you leave?" I asked suddenly.

Gerard looked up at me, shocked, " I already told you." Gerard mumbled out softly.

"That's no reason to leave your fucking fiancé Gerard." I snapped back.

"I just. You're not sick, Frankie! You're perfectly fine! You don't need medicine and I didn't want to watch you just become a drugged up zombie for absolutely nothing." Gerard responded quickly.

I sighed, shaking my head gently, "I was really hurt y'know. I barely ate, barely slept, I was always crying."

"I know. And I'm sorry. Fuck, I'm so sorry, Frank." Gerard practically sobbed out.

I sighed, deciding not to say another word. I don't know how to respond.
After about five minutes of silence Gerard spoke,

"Did you sleep with Mikey?"

I chewed on my lip, keeping my eyes on the road, "Yes." I answered honestly.

I heard Gerard let out a small sigh. I felt my heart drop.

"Are you mad?" I breathed out.

"No. I don't blame you. You were in pain."

I sighed softly, the guilt still building in the back of my throat. I gasped out as Gerard screamed suddenly,

"We're here!"

I looked up slightly, seeing a big green sign that read 'welcome to Caldwell' I smiled softly to myself as I looked around the fairly small town, looking for some type of hotel. I finally found a small, run down inn. I parked the car grabbing some of the suitcases as Gerard just walked inside.
So much for help with the fucking suitcases.
I sighed grabbing as many as I could and then walked into the hotel, finding Gerard at the door.
I smiled at him softly as he held the door open for me. We then both walked up to the front desk with a very small, lanky man behind it.

I smiled sweetly, "Hello! Can we get a suite?"

The small man narrowed his eyes at me, "We?"

I scrunched my eyebrows, nodding slowly, "Yeah? Me and my fiancé would like a room." I responded, signaling towards Gerard.

The man looked at me with wild eyes, its like I just told him the secret to word peace of some shit.
"Um. Okay? H-Here." He mumbled out, finally fucking handing me a room key.

I quickly took the key, quickly walking to our room. It didn't take long for Gerard long to push past me and just collapse onto the bed. I chuckled softly, locking the door behind me. I mumbled a 'dork' just faintly before setting our things down.

"Hey! You're the dork!" Gerard shouted into the blankets.

I chuckled once more, plopping down next to him. Just as I was about to wrap my arms around Gerard I heard a faint snore. He was already asleep. I smiled gently to myself.
Fuck I'm so glad I get to marry this loser.
I turned on the tv in some attempt to distract myself from my own fucking thoughts, but of course it didn't work.
I'm so fucking scared, man.
I don't like being so far away from home.
I've only left jersey once, and that was for some fucking field trip back in high school.
But, hey, at least I'm with Gerard.
But, what if Mikeys right.
No.
He can't be.
Gerard's right next to me.
I gently leaned over placing my hand onto Gerard's back just to prove a point to myself.
He's right here.
We're gonna be okay.
We have to be.

Notes

I HAVENT UPDTED IN SO LONG and I'm very sorry!! Iv had the fucking worse case of writers block. I'm really sorry this chapter is shit, but it's the most I could get out. Once again I'm sorry and I promise I'll be updating a lot more.