Disenchanted

The phone cut out. There was nothing but silence... everything went dead. Frank sounded mad but I knew he didnt mean to come off that way, but still the voices in my head kept telling me that Frank didnt want to be with me. Frank knew I was sick but I also know that Mikey would never tell him what kind of sickness exactly. What Frank did not know was that I was actually in a psych ward back in the town where my parents live which is Salem, Oregon. I have a schizoaffective disorder which is a branch of schizophrenia but not as extreme. .......

I have been this way for as long as I can remember. Iv'e always been a strange kid, When I was 11 I was officially diagnosed.. And it broke my Family's heart... especially Mikey. We all knew There was something wrong with me. I have always liked to be alone, I would put all my feelings into art which is probably the only good thing about this because I was actually good at art. I have strange nightmares and I also hear voices but Its more of like my subconscious yelling at me not anything creepy like a possession in a horror movie.

I called my parents a few days ago and told them that the voices in my head were getting worse. I told them how I was scared I might do something to hurt myself or others around me. I hadnt mentioned anything to them about Frank. The voices in my head started to get worse the day I met Frankie... To be honest, from the first time I saw him I fell Instantly in love with him as if i had known him for a long time. I know it seems odd because we had just met recently but I felt safe around him. As amazing as that can be It can also be very dangerous and maybe even toxic to my mental health at the moment. When he told me he just wanted to be friends i felt shattered. I just have a feeling that we are meant to be, Its almost as if I had seen him in a dream or something. I'm actually not allowed to have my phone while Im at this facility but they made an exception because my mom begged them so i can keep in touch with Mikey so hes not too worries about me. I know Frankie is also worried and I hope I'm home in time to celebrate his birthday with him. He probably forgot he even told me but I want to do something special with him.

Notes

Hey lovelies I had such a busy week sorry for lack of updating.. Title is from The song Leave Out All The Rest by Linkin Park . I was so saddened to hear about the loss of Frank's Grandfather :( poor baby .. sending lots of love to Frank and the whole Iero Family. Pray for them lovelies ~xoxodesi