Bad Management

I felt like the whole world had come over to congratulate us both as the line seemed to be endless. Finally, it was coming to an end and that’s when Frank came over to us, looking nervous as hell. I breathed in sharply scared of what was going to happen. To say seeing him was a surprise would be an understatement. Since my accident I had avoided him at all costs, even though I did live next door to his best friend. My emotions for the first year had been all over the place, on the days I woke up remembering what had happened I spent crying almost all day. On the days where I couldn’t remember I was angry and that anger only grew until I was told what had happened, then it went to the crying. There were few days where I wasn’t stuck in the misery of those two emotions. Gerard, Sophia and Michael had taken it in turns to care for me and stay with me when my memory was super bad and that was something I was forever indebted to them for. Without them some days I would have forgotten I needed to eat let alone do anything else. My memory was getting better though, we’d discovered if I talked about my day before I went to bed it seemed to sink in better. Eventually, the days where I would wake up screaming at Michael that he was a stranger and needed to get out of my house became a thing of the past. Now I wake up and tell him I love him. Sure my memory was back but it still wasn’t fully there, whenever I was stressed or emotional it faltered and Michael would leave me sticky notes around the flat to remind me of certain things. Like you have to put milk on your cereals to make them taste nice. Periods were the worst.


“Congratulations.” He smiled as he stated the simple work to us both. I noticed that he was chewing on his lip ring and found that I remembered he’d do that when he was nervous.
“Thank you.” I smiled, breathing out a little as Michael smiled at him too. “It’s good to see you.” I told him as I hugged him slowly, his surprise not hidden as it took him a minute to rub my back softly. “I’ve missed you.” I told him truthfully as he smiled slightly.
“I’ve missed you too.” He smiled as we both looked at Michael when he coughed. I remember asking Michael a few months ago if he would mind if I got in touch with Frank, that I missed him and I didn’t want to have to plan around whether he would be there not when I wanted to go out with the band. I know I didn’t need Michael’s permission but I didn’t want to hurt him, I loved him and Frank’s actions affected his life just as much as mine. He told me he wouldn’t mind but that if he put one-foot wrong that he would have to step in. Something I fully agreed with.
“I’m going to go see where they are with the drinks.” Michael smiled as I nodded, “I’ll be in the corner if you need me.” He whispered in my ear masking it with a peck on the cheek. We waited until he’d gone to find one of the cinema staff before we started talking, I noticed everyone had left us alone but were all stood within hearing distance.
“How have you been?” He asked breaking the silence as I bit my lip.
“I’ve had my good days and bad days. Did you know cereal tasted better with milk?” I smiled as he laughed a little. “For about 4 months it amazed me.” I told him the truth.
“Gerard told me. I’ve been asking how you are. I didn’t want to come round unwelcomed. They said if you get worked up it can affect you? I didn’t want to make anything worse for you.” He told me truthfully, sadness coming over his face.
“Hey, it’s done.” I smiled rubbing the top of his arm gently to reassure him. “I’m sorry to hear about you and Amber. I mean that too, I’m not being bitchy.” I told him hoping he wouldn’t think I was trying to cause shit.
“I know you’re not being bitchy. Truth is she was horrible and so was I. We were both toxic for each other.” He shrugged. “I took your advice and got help. I’ve been sober for 2 years now.” He smiled when he saw the biggest smile spread on my lips.
“You have? I’m so proud.” I told him truthfully, feeling fully comfortable around him. This was the Frank I knew. We carried on talking and catching up for the majority of the night.

“Tell me about your day.” Michael said from underneath me, the echo of his voice coming from his chest as I smiled.
“I flew over from home to Leeds so that my boyfriend can play his first festival shows. We went and watched Deadpool which was totally badass. Then my boyfriend said I dropped something and it turned out to be a super cheesy marriage proposal, so now I guess my boyfriend isn’t my boyfriend but more my fiancé. He surprised me further by getting everyone from home to fly over early and he threw a mini engagement party where we all stayed in the cinema screen and drank” I reiterated my day to him, despite him being there for almost all of it. He never got tired of hearing me talk about my day, he knew what we’d done but he still always made sure we talked about it. Especially when we argued. “Thank you.” I whispered kissing his chest. “For everything.” I whispered before dozing off.

We’d agreed to meet up with MCR for breakfast the next morning. We were downstairs and I was looking at all the food that was lay out.
“Hey you.” I heard Sophia’s voice come out from the side of me. “What you thinking so hard about?” She asked leaning over to put some mushrooms on her plate.
“Whether I like that or not.” I pointed to the hash brown that was sitting on the hot plate. For some reason my memories not coming back to me this morning. Maybe it’s because I was overwhelmed yesterday, or maybe it’s because I’d come up with a plan and didn’t want to tell anyone, which when you can’t remember your own name sometimes is damn near impossible.
“You do.” Another voice from the side of me came out as I turned to notice Frank. I looked at him and smiled taking the tongs and putting one of them on my plate, trusting him. I made my way back to the table noticing everyone already sat down tucking in.
“You ok?” Michael asked as I sat down, looking over at his worried expression I just nodded smiling.
“I remembered the butter.” I told him holding my hand open to show him the little foiled packets as he laughed a little squeezing my knee under the table. Everyone was talking about what they were doing for the day given that they were both not on until tomorrow.
“I thought we could stay round the bus backstage maybe have a games day like we used to?” Mikey suggested as he looked round the table. “What you say Georgie?” He used my nickname as I blushed.
“Sounds good. We said we’d meet up with Molly though, maybe she can join us?” I looked over at Sophia who looked surprised. I noticed her look at Michael with a shocked face, who returned the look.
“You remember that?” She questioned carefully as I nodded.
“It’s in my phone.” I smiled, lying with ease.

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