You keep me sane

Frank pov


On the drive to work, I still haven't seen Gerard and I'm not sure if he's there but just invisible, or if he's actually GONE. I start to break out in a nervous sweat and think about why he could be gone, and if he's never coming back. I can't lose him again. I pull into my parking space and rub my sweaty palms on my jeans, before taking out my keys and unlocking the door to the music shop. I turn on the bright sign that's says 'open' and go into the back of the store to check and see if we have all the instruments that we need.


I jump a little when I hear the door of the store open and see Jaime walk in. "Hey Frank." He says cheerfully, before getting the front desk ready. "Hey Jaime." I say back, quietly. "What wrong with you?" He asks looking concerned. "Oh well um, I just thought back about Gerard and stuff and it's kinda put me in a sad mood I guess." I say to him realizing I can't tell him about Gerard. I've told him about Gerard dying and stuff, but I can't tell him about him actually being here. I don't even know if I can tell Mikey that. While in the middle of counting every drum set we got in, I feel a warm pair of arms embrace my waist and I tense up a little wondering why Jaime is hugging me. "Jaime what are you-" My sentence is cut off when I realize it's Gerard. I jerk back a little and he looks at me with a confused look on his face. "Sorry, it's just going to take a while to get used to this, I mean I've spent like a year without you and you're just back all of a sudden it's going to take a little time." I say before cringing, worried at what his response will be. "It's ok I understand." He says before smiling at me. I just smile back, happy that he understands.


"Frank get out here!" Jaime yells from the front of the store. "I'll be right back." I tell Gerard before walking out of the back room. "Yeah?" "I need you to help a customer." He says before pointing to a tall, lanky kid with straight brown hair. He turns around and I notice a familiar face. "Mikey!" I yell before running over to him and embracing him. "Frank! Hey!" He yells before hugging back. "I haven't seen you in forever." He says. "Yeah, so what brings you here?" I ask. "Well I was looking for a bass guitar." He says pointing to a sparkly bass sitting in the corner of the room. Up we both walk towards it and he picks it up. "Can I try it out?" "Sure." I respond before he picks up the bass and begins playing, his fingers moving up and down perfectly on the wooden fretboard. "Wow you're really good." I say and he blushes. "Nah, I'm okay." He says still blushing.


Mikey looks back at me and leans forward his lips touching mine. I jerk back and I see Gerard in the corner of my eye. He has a disappointed look on his face and then walks into the back room. Then I look back at Mikey who has a confused look on his face. "Sorry- I, uh I just can't. I mean with Gerard and all.." He just looks at me disappointment clear on his face. "I have to go back to work, um I'll have Jaime help you instead." I say before backing away. I inform Jaime that he needs to help Mikey before rushing back into the room set on explaining exactly what happened to Gerard.


When I walk into the room Gerard looks at me, a sad look on his face. "When you said you needed time I didn't know that you meant that you couldn't love me because you were with my brother." He says looking at the ground. "Gerard! I can't believe you would even think that? Do you know how much we've been through together? He kissed me and I backed away. It was nothing else, I promise." I say and he just nods slowly. "I can't wait until you're ready to have me back though." He says smiling. "Me too." I say, giving him a hug.

Notes

hello new update! Sorry it's not really that long I have school tomorrow and I had a band practice like all day so I was busy

Title comes from falling in reverses "the drug in me is you"

hm I've been listening to a lot of fir lately. Don't judge me.


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