You keep me sane

Frank pov



"Gerard?" I look up at him and realize, this must be a hallucination. Of course it is. There's no way he actually HERE. It's insane. I start laughing hysterically. "It's all a trick. My whole life is a trick. My mind is against me. Everything, even my own fucking mind is against me." I throw my body down on my bed and start pulling at my hair. "Why is my life like this?" Then out of nowhere I start to cry. I look up and 'Gerard' is gone. Good at least my mind knows when to stop. I look back up and realize he's back. Great. He slowly walks towards me, apparently afraid that if he gets too close I'll break down again. Too late. My heart starts racing again, and he backs off a little before making his way towards me again. He sits next to me on the bed and puts his hand on my shoulder. I shiver under his touch, longing for it to be real, for him to be back.


"Frankie." He whispers softly. That's when I lose it. I start to sob uncontrollably and he wraps his arms hesitantly around me. "H-how are you even touching me?" "Im not a hallucination Frankie, I'm more of a...spirit I guess I'm not sure how to put it though. I have unfinished business here I was supposed to survive, to have a life with you, but it never happened. I'll have to wait until you're gone too until I can fully..die I guess." He finishes looking at me straight in the eyes. I'm not sure exactly how to take this so I just sit silently. "Frank?" Gerard questions. "Are you ok?" I just nod and he sighs. "Are you actually..here?" I ask quietly. "We'll sort of..it's like I'm a ghost but we can still like touch each other without me going through you." I nod slowly, trying to take in everything.


At that moment I jumped into Gerard's arms and he jumped in surprise. I felt tears running down my cheeks, as I cried happily. I had Gerard back. Well sort of, he still was here though and that's all that matters. "So you've been here this whole time?" He nods. "I just made sure to unseen, you know. I've been waiting for the right time to show myself, I couldn't see you this broken anymore so I just decided that now was the right time. It hurt me seeing you this broken." I smiled at him and snuggled further into his cold body.


We just lay there staring at the ceiling, while we hold hands. I'm just enjoying being next to Gerard again. It's nice, to have the one you love back after they've been gone. Even though he's back, I know it's going to be a while before I can learn to love him like I did before he died. I've been through too much to just go back to loving him again, but I know I will after time.


"Gerard?" "Yes Frankie?" He asks. "I have work in like 3 hours it's 3 in the morning." I say chuckling softly. "You need sleep" he says chuckling back. I roll over on my side and drift off into a deep sleep.


I wake up smelling coffee and that immediately kwakes me up. I slowly walk out of my room to my living room and see Gerard in the kitchen making coffee. I walk up behind him and wrap my arms around his torso. He jumps a little in surprise and then relaxes. I take a cup of coffee and then tell him "im going to work!" He just laughs and I look at him confused. "You know I'm coming too right?" He says. "I've been away from you for too long, im not leaving you." I sigh and hold his hand. "Alright but you can't be seen." I sigh acting like its a problem when really I'm happy he's coming. "Not a problem." He says and then disappears suddenly.

Notes

Hello! New chapter! So he's finally met Gerard


title comes from pierce the veils "hell above"

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