You keep me sane

Frank pov


I wake up the next morning to the sound of my alarm. "Beep! Beep! Beep!" It screams at me, causing me to suddenly wake up from my haunting nightmare. I've been having lots of nightmares recently. It's like they're all connected somehow though. It's all the same thing, im trapped in a small room and I have to choose between a knife and a mirror. I always choose the mirror though, because I'm afraid that if I choose the knife I'll just end up using it on myself and the dream will end like that, my gruesome death. Though that would be a nice way to go, in a dream, never waking up after that. I'd also get to see Gerard again. All my problems would be solved. 'Snap out of it Frank' I tell myself. Sometimes I lose all sense of reality and that's when I start thinking about my self destruction, it's like the thought is always in the back of my head, coming out whenever something's wrong.


Well, back to my dream. When I choose the mirror, I always immediately look straight into it. It shows my face, though a little distorted, and it then changes into Gerard's face. It's like he's trying to tell me something, because each time I have the dream it's different. Maybe he's trying to communicate with me? 'Ugh. Don't get your hopes up Frank.' I think to myself trying to calm myself down as I feel a rush of nausea come through me, causing me to rush to the bathroom and empty the very few contents of my stomach into the white bowl. I wipe my mouth with my sleeve and get up slowly, walking wobbly to my bedroom where I text my boss that I won't be at work today. I lay my head back on my pillow and slowly drift back into sleep, suddenly feeling exhausted after vomiting.


I'm awoken suddenly again, expecting to hear my alarm, when I realize it wasn't my alarm that woke me. It was my lamp crashing. I look around the room expecting to see Mikey, but I don't see anyone. Slowly getting up, I grab a sweatshirt because I'm only in my shorts, and sneak out of the room ready to punch any intruder (or Mikey) in the face. I turn around the corner and hear a knock at my door. I open it to find Mikey standing out of my apartment, shivering because of the snow. "Mikes?" I ask. "Were you just here?" "Um no I just got here, and if you wouldn't mind, I'd like to come in because I'm freezing my ass off out here." He says barging in and chuckling. "Oh yeah sorry, I just got kinda creeped out because my lamp randomly fell off my table." I say rubbing the back of my neck. "Dude it's ok. Do you wanna order pizza?" He says picking up the phone. "Sure." He dials the number and orders a pepperoni and a cheese, remembering that I'm a vegetarian and within half an hour the pizza is delivered and we're scarfing down each pizza. "So what do you wanna do?" He asks. "We could watch a movie" I suggest. "Ooh yeah let's watch a horror movie." I walk over to my DVDs and pick out 'Texas Chainsaw Massacre.' We hop on the couch getting settled, with all of our blankets and soon become invested in the movie.



Halfway through the movie we've both fallen asleep, with my head in Mikey's lap. It's nothing special though, he's like a brother to me, so it's not like that. We continue to sleep peacefully, well until I get a nightmare. "I'm stuck in the dark room, it's enclosed and it feels as if it's closing in on me. Two platforms rise. One with a knife and one with a mirror. I pick up the knife. Weird, I've never picked up the knife before. I look at my reflection in it and see words engraved into it. "If you never sleep, you never die" I read it aloud, and then black clouds swirl around me, closing me in further. I scream and the clouds fade, forming into a face. A familiar face with hazel eyes and raven black hair. I reach out to him, but whenever I try to get closer he just goes farther. I stop trying and he starts to talk, only with no sound coming out from his mouth. I them try to get closer, and it actually lets me this time. I get closer and hear that he's saying 'Don't forget anything. If you do you'll regret it. Remember when we were younger and when we were older. Everything. Just never forget.' I back away as his face fades away. What does that mean? I ponder about it before my eyes open and I wake up." I look over and realize that I'm in my bed AND Mikey's gone. I don't remember falling asleep in here. Maybe Mikey brought me in here? I hear footsteps and expect to see Mikey, but instead I hear a voice. "It wasn't Mikey" I look up and see a face with hazel eyes and raven black hair smirking at me.

Notes

Hey! So I'll still try to update everyday, though it may get a little hard since I just started school today.


Sorry try about any mistakes on last chapter, I didn't have time to proofread, since I was getting ready for school since it was the night before the first day

title comes from falling in reverse's "the drug in me is you


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