I hate that I love you

I see Frankie lying on the nurses bed, still flat out. She had let me stay after I basically begged her. It was the middle of second period. I was worried as he has been like this for about an 45 minutes now. He looks almost completely lifeless, like a zombie, he's just so pale and you can hardly see the rise and fall of his chest. God I was so worried about him. I don't know what was going on with me. It's like I feel more towards him than just wanting to be a friend, I've never been attracted to guys so that can't be it. Although, I've never been attracted to girls either. I was so confused right now, what is he doing to me? I stare at him for a little longer taking in all of his perfect features. I swear this boy only had one flaw, and that was being flawless. I mean I hardly know anything about him but I just can't help but want to fucking kiss him! I'm so confused... Maybe I'm just feeling sorry for him. I mean I can't like boys... I shouldn't... Maybe I do though... What is going on... I hear the bell ring signalling morning break. The door to the nurses room opens and I find my little brother, Mikey, standing there. "I was wondering where you were and I seen you in here, are you okay?" "physically, yes I am but to be honest I'm really confused... Look, Mikes, you know how I can trust you with anything?" "Yea... What's going on Gee?" Mikey walks forward sitting on the chair next to me. I need to tell him about this. I know I can trust him and while all the thoughts are all fresh in my mind I want to sort them out. "I'm confused... I keep getting these thoughts. They aren't normal for a boy. I don't know what to do. I mean it might just be a fluke or-" "Gee, spit it out. C'mon it can't that 'un-normal' can it?" "But it is..." I looked over at Frank who was still out. Mikey looked over to following my gaze and a look of shock came across his face. "I didn't realise there was anyone else in here..." "Yeah, that's Frankie, he's the one causing these thoughts..." I let out a sigh. "Oh Gee," He said sounding sympathetic "Are your trying to tell me you like Frank? you know more than a friend?" I pursed my lips and nodded slowly feeling ashamed. "Being attracted to him isn't 'un-normal' actually it's perfectly normal, you are just either gay or bi-sexual, its no big deal. I promise you it won't make a difference and if someone doesn't like you for it then you don't need them. Oh and I won't tell mom and dad if you want, we both know what their like..." "Thank you Mikey, I'm just scared that all. I mean I've never really felt attracted to girls, I just dated them because every other guy did. There's just something about him. And ugh it's so annoying! Like I don't even know if he likes me back!" "Gerard, you sound like a 13 year old girl! Seriously, calm the fuck down!" Mikey laughed, making me laugh to. God he was right... "Oh and by the way, you two would be cute as fuck together, just saying." I gave Mikey a playful glare then looked at Frank. "What happened to him?" Mikey said after a moment. "He just kind of passed out. He was hyperventilating and then he went all wobbly then fell... I don't know what happened. The nurse left me here, I had to beg her to let me stay and she did, after a while, but left me on my own with him instead." "To me it sounds like he had a panic attack. I get them too, so don't worry he will be perfectly fine." I smiled at Mikey. I knew he would be, I was just so worried. "I think I might take him home after he wakes up. He must be feeling awful," Mikey raised his eyebrows and winked at me. "Oh fuck off, not like that," I laughed "I was hoping you could cover for me, you know with mom and dad and the school. I know you have your ways..." "Yea, I'll make it look like both of you have been here, in class, all day. Although this work needs some pay..." Mikey grinned and I glared at him. Frank suddenly sits up looking confused, startling me and Mikey. Before he can get out a word I pull him into a huge hug. I held him tightly not wanting to let go. "Gee... hey... where am I?" Frank said as he pulled away. I sat on the side of the bed next to him. "You passed out or something and I brought you here." "Oh... What time is it?" "It's during morning break. Oh by the way this is my younger brother Mikey." Frank looks over to Mikey "hey..." He said simply. "Well hello," Mikey says crossing his legs looking a bit sassy, to be honest I think he gets that from me, oops. I know what he's trying to do, god I hate him, he's trying to wind me up and he's doing a good job. I glare at him and he giggles. Frank looks between us confused. "So, Frank, how did you meet my brother?" Mikey said raising his eyebrows. "Erm, we met at a book store in town, I bought some CDs and comic books..." Frank said still looking a little confused. "Ah, Gerard's little get away... Have you been in his studio yet?" "Mikey, I've know him for 2 days." I interrupt. "Awh love at first site then..." THAT LITTLE BITCH. IM GOING TO KILL HIM. Mikey bust out laughing as I glared at him. "W-what?" Frank stutters. "Oh nothing..." Mikey said laughing. "I think I'm going to go." "Yea, I think that's a good idea..." I snarl at Mikey. He laughs again and gets up to leave. "By the way Frank, you might want to kiss him before someone else gets in. He's a very popular guy you know. Oh and Gee? I feel like I've got my pay." And with that Mikey basically runs out the room so I don't fucking kill him. He's going to fucking die. "W-what?" Frank Stuttered again. "It's nothing, sorry about him. He's a little shit that's going to die tonight. Look I think we should get you home. You still don't look well, I think you should get some rest." "I can't, my mums out and I don't have my keys. Plus she will see I've not been in from the school." "You can come round mine for a bit then. And Mikeys sorting the whole school thing, don't worry." "Oh, okay." Frank says still looking confused. I sigh, God Mikeys going to die tonight. We wait for the halls to clear up from break and we head to my car. As we are walking towards it I unlock my car hear the familiar beep. "Woah, is that your car?!" Frank said staring at it in awe. My parents had quite a lot of money to say the least, so for my 16th birthday they bought me a Lamborghini. It was a beautiful car, I adored it. "Uh yea, you coming?" I said still walking as Frank had stopped dead in his track, still not believing its was my car. He starts walking again picking up his pace to catch up with me. We get in, Frank still looking bewildered by my car. I just look at him and laugh at his utter amazement. "What?" Frank said laughing. I shake my head and laugh. He playfully glared at me, then pouted. "I'm sorry, I've never been in a nice car before." He said in a five year olds huffy tone and crossed his arms playfully, sinking down in his seat. I burst out laughing, god he was so cute! I turned on the car engine and pulled out of the school parking lot, hoping no teachers noticed. My house was about 20 minutes away so I turned on my mix cd. "Smashing Pumpkins on my god!" Frank said humming along to the tune. By the time the chorus came we were both sing ping loudly along to the song. We did that for the rest of the drive. It was perfect. He was perfect. All of this is just perfect. We pull in through the gate to my house and it automatically closes behind us. "I've seen this house before... Oh my god I knew I recognised your last name! Your thee Gerard Way. You are like the most know about person in this town! There was like 20 different articles on you and your family. I found them when searching the area." Frank said looking at my house in awe. Ugh, I hate when people bring up how much money my parents own, it really annoys me. We go into the house and I lead him up to my room...

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