I hate that I love you

I slammed my alarm clock and looked at the time, ugh 7:00 am so early! I hate school, especially the first day of school... I replayed yesterday's events in my head. Oh god. I really wasn't looking forward to school. I need to avoid him at all costs, plus with my big mouth I'll probably get beaten up, it's like my skill. I threw on a Black Flag t-shirt and some skinny jeans not really caring what I wore. I didn't really need to impress anyone, or did I? No frank. You are not to go anywhere near Gerard. Ugh. I put in my lip ring and messed about with my hair. I decided to put on a smidge of eyeliner, don't judge me, it looks cool okay? I went downstairs shouted good bye to my mum and left the house. I was not looking forward to this. I just wanted to get there go through the day and to let it be over.

The school started to come into sight. Gerard was right it did look like a shit hole. Ugh. I made my way in and to the office to get my schedule and locker combo. I looked on the map and tried to find my locker. I turned down into the main hallway which was packed with students. I had already got a few weird looks but I just shrugged it off. I saw where my locker was supposed to be and started to walk towards it, until I seen Gerard. I put my head down headed towards my locker bumping into a few people but hoping he didn't notice me. I walked straight into someone but quickly said sorry and kept on walking, still hoping not to be noticed. I suddenly felt a tight grip on my shoulder. I turned around the hand still tight on my shoulder making it throb.

"Well well, looks like we have another punk prick on our hands." He laughed his mates joining in behind him. They were obviously on a sports team by the jerseys they were wearing.

"I don't think I'm the prick here." I retaliated
He came closer to my face. "You should watch your mouth pretty boy"

"Make me"
The whole corridor went silent. Everyone was watching us including Gerard. Before I knew it my jaw was in allot of pain. I felt it and my lip was bleeding. Wow punched on my first day well done frank.

"Well that was nice of you, thanks for the new look!" I said sarcastically. Everyone was watching us. Suddenly the bell rang and students started filing out of the halls. He glared at me for a few moments then let go of my shoulder pushing me into the lockers behind m then he continued to walk away barging into my shoulder as they walked past. I rolled my eyes and went to unlock my locker. I felt a warm hand grab my opposite shoulder. It was soft and calming in a way, which means I didn't tense up, which was weird for me. I turned around to see Gerard looking at me with concern, so much for avoiding him, and not being seen.

"Frankie, are you ok?"

"Yeah, I'm fine and dandy!" I said sarcastically.

"Sorry, stupid question I guess. Ignore Dahvie he's such a dick." Gerard said. I smiled and turned back to my locker his hand still on my shoulder, trying to be strong but my face fucking killed.

I was in the bathroom with Gerard cleaning up my lip. He had insisted on cleaning it himself, he just wanted me to take it easy. All around my lip was black and bruised, with a huge cut on my lip. Thank god he hit that side and not the side of my lip ring, that would have fucking killed! Why couldn't I have just kept my huge mouth shut in the first place. Right now I'm standing here with Gerard inches away from my face as he inspects my lip. He's so close, I just have this urge to kiss him, to just bring his body towards me and pull him to my lips. I need to stop this, I'm crushing on , basically, a fucking stranger, oh but how this stranger was gorgeous!

"Frankie," Gerard said, flicking his eyes up from the side of my mouth to meet mine "Are you sure you're okay?"
I didn't know what to say...

"I'm not going to lie to you, I'm not okay, I promise... and that's one promise I can keep..."
Suddenly the door burst open and Dahvie came in. Oh for fuck sake.

"What's going on in here then? Begging for blow jobs again, ay Way?" Dahvie snarled. What?!

"I don't think you really want another episode do we, Dahvie, you remember what happened last time..." Gerard said walking over to Dahvie glaring at him. What the hell is going on right now?

"I - I-I..."

"Exactly what I thought, next time I'd watch who you are talking to, hm?"

"Ye-yes I'm s-sorry..."

"Good, now fuck off!" Gerard shouted. Dahvie ran out of the bathroom as I just stared. What the fuck just happened? "Sorry about that Frankie," Gerard said sighing. "Just stick with me and that arse hole wont lay a finger on you." I can't stick with him, I just can't. Things just won't go well, at all. I can't get close to people again. That can't happen again. I shuddered at the thought of that. Never fucking again! I was so young, I had just moved again. My dad had only just died and I was really letting anyone close. I needed a comfort from a friend. I got close to someone. I told them my problems. I was really confused about myself. I told him I was gay. Then he... my breathing started picking up, images were ruching through my head. My legs started shaking and I felt dizzy. My vision started to go. I couldn't hear anything. I felt myself fall over as I lost consciousness.

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