All a bunch of animals

Hey...uh long time no see? Well... I kinda just wanted to give a reason as to why I just abandoned this I guess. Obviously it was my first fic so it's complete crap. Like it's cringe worthy now. I think I have improved my writing quite a bit which is kind of relieving in a way because honestly this is just embarrassing to look back on. Almost everyday I contemplate whether or not I should delete this but I always decide not to because even though this story deserves to burn in the depths of hell, it has a lot of meaning to me. This was my first time ever writing a story that I (At the time) was actually content with. This story gave me the courage to actually learn more and more about proper writing and good writing techniques. And although i'm far from perfect writing, I think not only myself, but you guys can also see the big improvement I have made. This story had made me start to actually give a shit in the things I do because even though it was seven months ago, I just didn't care about anything I said or did. Writing this made me start being a better person to myself, and other people around me. In case you think what i'm saying is a bunch of shit, I'll just say that I wouldn't have taken the time out of my life to write this. I would've gone through with just deleting this so I don't have to worry about people reading the embarrassment that is this story.
The most important thing that this story helped me improve with is keeping a time schedule. I am not the type of person to really care if I show up somewhere too late or too early- but with my writing, I always try to make my updates on at a certain time. Either in the middle of the week or on the weekends. Now I know that I still am kinda shitty at keeping that set timing, but I really try my best. Sometimes I just need a break or i'm in a funky mood. It happens to everyone. Nobody's perfect, right?
So I kinda just gave up on this because I guess I ran out of ideas. That's rare for me. I didn't want to continue writing something I lost motivation in because not only would it be a dreadful experience for me, but I didn't want to let any of you down either. I got a lot of positive feedback from this and i'm extremely grateful for that because if I hadn't, I wouldn't be writing the two stories that I am right now. All of you were my motivation and you all helped me gain my confidence and I love you guys for that.
Now, I have some good news though. I have thought of ideas for this story but they are pretty drastic. Meaning like a whole new concept that's way better than this. Yes, it has to do with high school but it's not exactly going to be bullying or anything. It will be Frerard of course.
I guess all I can say without giving it all away is that Frank is pretty fucked up and Gerard has his issues too. I'm not exactly sure how they become friends or anything yet, but it will come to me. I also want to try doing it in a different POV. Whether that means it's in Gerard's or in 3rd person. I try to make each story better than the last so i'm really hoping this will be great.
This also means that I'll probably delete all the chapters and summary (not before saving them in a file first lol)
The thing is that I probably won't start re-writing this story until one of my others finish or are coming to an end. It's a lot of pressure already to write two and like I said, I want this to be the best it can possibly be. But, if I do decide to start writing this beforehand, the earliest you guys would get it is in the start of summer. School gets out in two months so I will be able to have a lot of time on my hands.
I'm not going to write this if you guys don't want it, though. So leaving a comment on if this is a good idea or not would be extremely helpful. I'm sure ya'll will love it but I just need to know for sure. I don't want to waste my time stressing on something that no one wants to read. It's not worth it lol.
So i'm sorry that this was really long, but I had a lot to say about this. I have even more but it's not that important. Thanks if you read it all the way to the end lol. Again, getting some feedback on this would make me very grateful.
If you guys don't like it, then this will probably be the last chapter that's ever posted on this story. I won't delete it though because like I said, this has to much meaning to me for it to just be gone.

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