crooked like the rest of me

" so Gerard you interested in hanging out with me and the other this afternoon I think we need to introduce you to something"
Frank asked whilst walking out of the school gates
" I uh sure… what do you uh exactly want to introduce me to?"
We were heading towards the group outside the school a little bit down the street
"that my dear Gerard is something you will find out if you wish to tag along but by all means if you wish to go home it's fine by me but I swear you can feel like a young god by tonight. Up to you"
Everything inside me is telling me to go home and just be alone forget about this and stay away but something about franks description of what I could feel had me feeling intrigued scared but intrigued.
"yeah ok I'll come"
"good choice"
Stopping at the group I was met with neutral lyn-z and chris they all seemed to have this mysterious vibe about them clothed all in black hoodies which they weren't wearing before. they all stared at me making feel like climbing inside myself in disappearing.
"so you decide you want to join?"
Spoke up lyn-z
"I uh don't exactly know what im joining but sure"
Frank stepped up beside me passing me a black hooding whilst he slipped his own on.
Once my hoodie was on I was grabbed by frank on the upper arm forced into a run as the others ran ahead. It was safe to say I was really questioning everything right now and why I decided to do this running is not my thing for starters I can basically only fastly pace.
Frank was pulling me along trying to get me to keep up with everyone
We ran across the train bridge over to the older side of town as we got to the end they stopped and I saw neutral just go down hanging of the edge then disappear
I froze in heart attack mode as I just saw someone jump of the side of a bridge…
"gerard chill she's not dead man just follow us ok"
I don't think they got the whole loner kid vibe that doesn't exercise bit so it was safe to say I was worried.
All of a sudden it was just me and frank standing there as the rest has just gone down walking to the edge with frank he turned and smiled at me then dropped..
Standing their completely shocked I saw lyn-z bop her head up with a cheezy grin pointed my way
" come on ge-tard there is a ladder just turn around and edge yourself down at the side. Everyone just likes to show of and make it look like we are jumping off she laughed"
Taking a deep breath I got down on the bridge edge and felt the ladder bar under my feet slowly edging down until I made it all the way down to the bottom and I was met with a small dirt rocky area covered in graffiti and rubbish.
" nice to see you made it"
Chris spoke and out of nowhere tossed me a spray can
Fumbling but catching it I started at everyone wondering what I was ment to do
"come on gee bear spray somethin"
Neutral spoke in a seductive tone
"I uh i-I don't k-know what to spray"
" you could just paint what you feel gee do what you want go on you seem like one of them artist who are all intense and shit just create something"
Frank stepped out from behind the rocks lighting a smoke.
Gulping I turned around to the side of the built bridge and started to spray
Getting lost in what I was doing I finished up and stepped back from my work.
Realizing it was a cloudy background with the words do you feel like a young god?
Something frank had said just before.
Bushing I turned around to the shocked faces of everyone
"holy fuck shit man that amazing"
Lyn-z spoke in awe
Frank stood their smirking at me making me going a even darker shade of pink
"nice to see I was the center of your master piece"
Scratching the back of my neck looking down at my feet I kinda felt ashamed I don't think frank liked it at all..
"come here gee sit down with me he spoke in a different softer tone than I have ever heard him speak in..?
He climbed up some rock with me looking out at the view of the river under the bridge
" well then do you feel like a young god?"
" I don’t know what I feel"
I laughed.
"well what do you think of this place?"
He gently asked
" I only thought places like this existed in movies" '
"trust me sugar, this place is the closest I've felt to religion"
" religion?"
"yeah religion. You know people talk about how religion is so heavenly a masterpiece only fit for the perfect the ones who don't sin?"
I just simply nodded my head edging him to go on
"well I find this place heavenly I found it here when I was young and i later introduced the others to it. For me this place feels like how others describe religion and their faith."
"that’s a deep way to look at it"
I spoke softly really wondering where all this is coming from
" if you insane like me with your throat open begging for a fist around it you'd get it."
"I think I get it frank but I'm a different kind of poetry to you I think"
"fair enough"
He spoke taking a drag of his smoke.
" are you suppose to be down here and like paint all over everything?"
His smirk suddenly made a return
" where's the fun in doing what your told?"
all of a sudden frank got up and walked away climbing back up the ladder and onto the bridge
"time to go everyone"
I heard lyn-z scream out as they all headed to the ladder.

Notes

sorry if this is short and shitty but i just wanted to get something up and off my chest this was inspired by the place me and my friends go after school to hang out which is across town and over under our train bridge and recently was painted with young god on the rock walls along with years of graffiti and shit everywhere. it's is a place of religion for me as i really dont belive in a religion but i believe that places is religious to me.

but hope you enjoy this anyway sorry if its horrible :( xx