Rapunzul

What have I done? I embarrassed myself in front of Frank, the love of my life. It may have been a week ago, but it feels like it’s only been a day. He must think I’m crazy. I stop thinking when I hear a knock at the door. Frank! It must be Frank; I knew he wouldn’t just leave me! Take that girl! I can hear my mama and him talking, but he sounds different.
Suddenly my mama calls me and tells me to stand by the living room window. Instead of Frank standing there, it’s someone else. It takes me a while but I finally remember that he is one of Frank’s friends. Aww Frank must have sent him. He asks me if I can go out I ask my mama even though I know she’s going say no. As soon as I say that my mama shoves me away mouths the words ‘room now’ and continues to talk to Mikey. After Mikey left my mama seemed…different, like sad but not her usual sad.
I think something’s wrong with me, Mikey left about 3 hours ago, but I can’t stop thinking about him. I feel like we belong together, but does this mean I’m betraying Frank? Well Frank has a girlfriend so maybe I was wrong about him being ‘the one’ maybe it was supposed to be Mikey all along. I feel so confused; I mean I loved Frank for so long, but if I feel a strong connection with Mikey then what does that mean? Well maybe Frank will never love me back and this is the universe telling me in the nicest way possible, by helping me replace him.
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I can’t help but feel like my papa wants me out of the house. I don’t know if it’s his leniency, his waiting for Frank to come back, or even the fact that he came into my room and said “I can’t wait for the day that you finally leave.” It’s okay because I know that he loves me. I think I’m the cause of problems in their marriage. Either way that means that the one that is really serious about keeping me inside is my mama. So she’s the one I need to convince. Oh but how? I am going to need help.
Later That Night
It’s 10 o’clock and I still haven’t thought of anything. I don’t think I’ll ever get out of here. Also my mama hasn’t looked at me once, if I do have to be locked up in here I at least want my mama to give me attention. Here I am lying in bed, thinking about ways to get out when suddenly my door opens.
“Gerard baby,” it’s mama she sits on the edge of my bed “are you happy here?”
Why is she asking this? If I say no will she get mad? But if I say yes will she think it means that I never want to leave? “Sometimes.”
“What do you mean sometimes? You're supposed to be happy all the time. Why aren't you happy all the time?” oh I've upset her.
“I don't know, maybe because I would like to go outsi-”
“Gerard stop! Sorry. Tell me why do you want to leave us?”
“I don't want to leave you I just want to go out for a bit and then come back. But momma, why do you want me to be locked up?”
“Well because it's what your father wants.”
“No it's not, momma why are you lying to me?”
“Fine, Gerard I don't want you out there because there's a lot of bad people that would hurt such a sweet and innocent boy like you”
“Do you mean pollute my mind?”
“No I mean they'll make you sad and hurt physically. Not only that, but ever since I had you people have been trying to take you away from me.”
“But why would they do that?”
“Because they're bad people that like to make others sad. Gerard, have I changed you're mind yet?”
“N-no” I said hesitantly “i-if there really are bad people out there I want to figure it out for myself. Momma can I just go out for a while tomorrow” I may have started weak, but I'm pretty sure I got through to her
“Oh Gerard, why do you hate mommy?” she said almost crying and leaving the room.
“Maybe, I should just wait and let it happen naturally rather than having the same story repeat every 2 days, but she started it this time.” I say to myself

Notes

There you go my lovelies, hope you enjoy it. I know the romance is moving very slowly and I'm sorry for that, but I just don't want to rush it.