Hospital Bed

Gerard and Mikey followed Ray into another checkup room.

“All right, I’m going to go get the swabs, just wait here,” he said as he walked back out the door. They quickly turned to each other and observed one another.

“I guess there is a bit of a resemblance?” Mikey question. Gerard gave a slight nod.

“So what happened today, Gee?” He asked him as he grabbed his hand. Gerard squeezed in return.

“I thought I heard him say my name, Mikey. I really thought he was waking up, but my mind tricked me. I wanted it to happen so badly that I imagined it. What if- what if he never wakes up?” Gerard confessed. With Mikey, he didn’t have to hold back on what he said, because Mikey understood him.

“You’d still have me, okay? I’ll make sure you’re never lonely,” he tells him in response. Mikey would never tell Gerard, but he seemed to find himself oddly attracted to him. Maybe not him specifically, but more what he was doing for Frank. It was romantic and he was a hopeless romantic. He admired the way he went back and forth from each job and still found time to visit Frank. It probably cut into his sleep schedule, but he knew Gerard could care less. He would certainly do anything to keep his fiancé happy, even if he wasn’t awake.

“Thanks,” he whispered hoarsely. Ray came back in and glanced at their hands intertwined before looking at them both.

“Are you guys a thing?” He blurted out. “Sorry. That’s none of my business. I’m just a curious individual.” Gerard laughed, causing Ray to lighten up.

“We aren’t, dude. We’re just really close friends,” he said as he glanced at Mikey and smile softly. Mikey felt a slight pang in his chest at his words but ignored it and returned the smile.

Ray started putting his gloves on, making that creepy, stretchy sound just to freak out Gerard.

“Ew, stop it, Ray!” Gerard said as he cringed.

“What ever do you mean, Gee? I’m just putting on my gloves,” he responded innocently. Mikey laughed which cause Ray to break his straight face and chuckle alongside him.

“All right! Enough horseplay, men! Open your mouth so I may deliver these swabs and retreat with a sample of your saliva,” Ray announced as if he were a warrior.

“Are you a doctor or a ten year old?” Gerard asked him as he tried holding in a laugh.

“I don’t see why I can’t be a ten year old doctor,” he defended. They all laughed before Mikey and Gerard got serious and opened their mouths for Ray to take a swab.

“All right, the result should be in by tomorrow.” They nodded in response just as Ray’s pager went off and he rushed out of the room yelling a ‘see you’.

“I would hate to be a doctor,” Mikey told Gerard on their walk back to Frank’s room. Gerard nodded in response as he feels the same.

“Imagine the crushing feeling of not being able to save someone despite trying your best…” Gerard thought about Mikey’s words and felt a shiver run through his body. He thought back to the time Ray asked him out for a drink late at night, waking him up from one of the rare times he was able to sleep peaceably. He agreed because he’d never heard Ray’s voice sound that monotonous, and he was worried. That whole night, he watched as Ray down drink after drink after drink, barely speaking any words to him.

“I killed someone today, Gerard. A little girl. She was 10 and I took away her life at such a young age.” Was the first words he’d spoken to him that night. Gerard quietly waited for him to explain.

“She was caught in the crossfire of a shootout in a bad neighborhood. She died here without her parents because they were working, they told me. I should’ve been able to save her, but I just couldn’t. Her BP kept dropping, and there wasn’t anything I could do to raise it up and keep it balanced. I should’ve been able to do that, Gerard. I went to many, many years of school learning this shit. I should be able to save everyone who comes to me for help,” he explained. Gerard gave him a soft look and set his hand down on Ray’s shoulder, squeezing lightly.

“You can’t save everyone, Ray. Sure, you’re a doctor, but you aren’t able to preform magic. Understand that there will be times where people aren’t meant to be saved. Don’t do this to yourself. You’re a great doctor despite what you believe or what just happened.” Gerard soothed. Ray look him in the eyes and Gerard gasped because there was absolutely no light
in his eyes. Gerard hugged Ray and held him.

“Gerard, would you still think so if Frank never woke up?” He asked him. Gerard froze, and then slowly pulled away, looking at him.

“Frank will wake up whenever he’s ready, you know this. As a doctor, you know that he’ll wake up on his own time. If he never does, I would have no reason to blame you. You’re a great doctor, Ray. Really. You’ve stuck by me and Frank’s side and took the time to get to know me enough that you also know my fiancé. Not many doctors will do that. Yes, what happened today was a very sad thing, but I know you tried your best,” he told him. Ray smiled a little and then finished his last beer for that night. Gerard drove him home and made sure he was tucked in all nice before going to Ray’s living room, falling exhausted on the
couch, and finally falling asleep.

Mikey and Gerard walked back into Frank’s room and sat down. They continued talking for the rest of the night as Gerard held Frank’s hand, a little looser than before. Gerard loved Mikey’s company and it was safe to say that Mikey felt the same way. As night approached, Mikey asked Gerard for a ride home because he was actually afraid of walking alone at night. Gerard kissed Frank on the forehead and then left with Mikey. Gerard didn’t noticed the look of envy in Mikey’s eyes the entire time. Mikey scolded himself for have such feelings. Gerard was in love and it was too late for him to go anywhere with him, besides he only loved the romantic side of Gerard. Which, when he thought about it, was him all the time. Every breathe he’d breath was for the sake of Frank.

“Mikey? You getting in?” Mikey snapped out of his thoughts and laughed at himself, getting inside Gerard’s car. Gerard gave him a confused look as he started his car and they drove off.

“So, thanks for coming by today. I really appreciate it,” Gerard told him.

“Thanks for calling me. It makes me happy to know that you trust me enough with these things.”

“Well, you may be my brother, so why not?” They laughed at the absurd thought.

“Did you want to stay the night?” Gerard asked him. “It gets tiring being alone in that apartment.”

“Sure,” Mikey spoke without hesitation. Spending time with Gerard was his escape. His parents weren’t exactly the best and weren’t ever really around, so he was all alone. He knew other kids would kill for his life, but he would gladly switch them if it meant he had an actual family.

The rest of the night, they watched a bunch of movies, including the Wizard of Oz. Mikey laughed as he watched Gerard reenact the musical numbers. When they were getting sleepy, they fell asleep on Gerard’s bed, back to back.

The next morning, they attended work together at the theater. They had to deal with three sold out movies in their theater which happened to be the biggest one. Thankfully, they were both good at talking with their customers and they received big tips. When Gerard was able to take a break, he checked his phone and saw that he had a missed call from Ray and a voicemail.

“Probably the results,” he mumbled to himself as he called his voicemail. He waited until the phone was done reading the number.
“Holy shit, Gee! The results came back a 100% match! He’s your brother! Oh, my God! Call me back when you have time, I’m, like, freaking out!- Oh, yes, miss, um, I was just getting those results from my office right now. I’ll be right back. Yes. Anyways, Gee! Jeez! This is so crazy! All right, now I’m rambling! Love you, byyyyeeee!”

End of the voicemail.

Ray must’ve had a bunch of caffeine this morning. He shut his phone and started running back to the theater Mikey was in.

Mikey was his brother!

“Mikey! Mikey!” He yelled as he ran into the theater. Mikey was currently folding napkins before, turning to Gerard who slammed him into a hug bear hug.

“What is it?” Mikey said as he chuckled at how childish Gerard was being.

“Results came back! We’re brothers! I love you so fucking much, Mikey!” Gerard yelled excitedly as he kissed Mikey’s cheek.

“Really? That’s awesome!” Mikey yelled happily. But Mikey would be lying if he said he wasn’t a little sad, but this was a good thing. Mikey wouldn’t grow anymore feelings for him now. Mikey shared in Gerard’s happiness as he talked about all the things he wanted to do with Mikey. Which included going to a zoo, taking him to school, going to parks, picking him up from school, meeting his parents, discussing this with their parents, amusements parks, going to watch movies with him, and just being together all the time.

“Yeah, let’s do all that,” Mikey said. Gerard gave him the happiest smile he’d ever seen come from Gerard.

“Yes! Thanks, my adorable little brother!” A shot of pain went through Mikey’s heart, but he just smiled and hugged Gerard back when he’d hugged him.

This really hurts, he thought to himself.

Notes

I really shouldn't write when I'm depressed. But I realized it'd been 14 days since I'd updated and I felt like a jerk, haha.
Enjoy.

-OAIF </3