Please Don't Take This Out On Me

"Wh-what is it?" I sobbed; clinging onto Mikey's neck like a monkey. "Alright so what we have to do is-" He was cut off when the two nurses in the room grabbed onto both of his arms and pulled him away. "Hey!" Mikey yelled. "I'm his friend!" He tried to jerk free but the nurses were stronger. "M-Mikey!" I whimpered; trying to grab onto him as my panic rose but the nurse closest to me pushed him back. "We're sorry," she said. "You need to be kept alone for a bit until your anxiety calms down."
With that, she dragged poor Mikey away and two more nurses came in to I assume, grab Gerard. "No thanks," he smirked; leaning against the wall and crossing one leg over the other. "Sir," one of the nurses calmly said. "I'm going to ask you to come quietly."
Gerard bit his lip and my heart rate increased; sending the machine off again. I blushed and curled up. Oh my god this fucking machine!
"Like what you see, pretty boy?" Gerard's famillar voice called and I whimpered and shook my head as I curled up into a tight ball with my head in my knees. For the next five minutes I heard a ton of swearing and screaming and then just like that - silence.
Five minutes of Gerard fighting the nurses. Five. Just so he could stay in the room with me.
Finally when I looked up Gerard was standing near my bed with his arms crossed and the nurses looking upset. "What h-happened?" I stammered quickly. Pissed off looking nurses weren't exactly the best kind to be around. From experience, they were very bitchy and rude so I decided it was all Gerard's fault.
One of the nurses stepped forward; looking very strict and annoyed. Probably because the bun on top of her head was so tight it was pulling all her hair out.
"Mr Way gets one minute with you," she announced like it was the last thing she wanted to say. "One minute starting now."
Immedietely Gerard rushed over to me and grabbed my hand. "Sweetheart, I know I'm awful. I'm the worst. But you're mine. You have to listen to me. I'm not letting you go that easy." I tried to squirm away, and push him off, and tell him he wasn't mine and I wasn't his but I knew he wouldn't listen.
He spent twenty seconds just saying "you're mine" and "I'm yours" and I finally said "no you're not! We're not a couple. We are not together." Gerard looked really angry and sad, and that look broke my heart. I really wanted to be his. But I couldn't. He was bad. He would continue to hurt me no matter what.
"Frankie?" I looked up; biting my lip. "Can I hold you for a minute? Please?" He looked so sad, so innocent I wanted to just cry and hug him forever. But his hazel eyes weren't always kind and soft.
I ignored the nasty looks the nurses gave us and moved over so Gerard could crawl into bed beside me and wrap his arms around me. He let out a quiet sigh and I rested my head against his chest and closed my eyes.
I could hear his strong heartbeat in my ear that was on his chest. He was so gentle at times like these. Right after he abused me.
After our minute, the nurses dragged a screaming Gerard out of my room and I just sat there in a daze; not really paying attention. I did it. I told him he wasn't mine and I wasn't his. But something tells me I'd come crawling back for more.

Notes

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