Please Don't Take This Out On Me

I went down to breakfast; still rubbing my head in a daze. Gerard was so gentle... what happened to him that made him change his mood? It's like he has a soft side he's too scared to show his friends. But I loved that side of him. I loved when he was playing with my hair. I could have sat there forever and never have gotten bored - ever. I really really wish I could hug him. Or kiss him. I bet those bright pink lips would be so soft-
I got so caught up in my daydream I missed a step and went tumbling down a flight of stairs. I landed with an 'oomf!' and moaned quietly as I felt the impact on my butt. "Ow, fuck!" I hissed; biting my lip and trying not to scream in pain.
"Language, Iero." I looked up to see Gerard standing there with an eyebrow raised and I blushed nervously. "S-sorry." "I guess I'd better take you to the nurse?" It was more of a question than a statement so I shrugged. "N-no I'm o-okay I just fell on my butt." Gerard snorted. "Fucking freak. Try not to be as clumsy next time, eh?" He smirked and strutted off into the dining room.
Wincing, I followed him in and dashed over to Mikey's table. "Hey man how are you? Did Mrs Skybalt give you hell for throwing up on her?" I sighed and shushed Mikey as I sat across from him. "Shh, haven't s-seen her yet," I muttered. "She's right behind you," Mikey whispered and I gasped and spun around. "Got you!"
"You little f-fucker." I rolled my eyes and clutched my chest. "You n-nearly gave me a h-heart attack!" Mikey stuck his tongue out at me and started laughing. "Oh man you should've seen your face."
I rolled my eyes and turned around again to make sure she really wasn't there. She wasn't. Thank god. I allowed myself one glance at Gerard's table, and was surprised to see him looking back at me with clenched fists. Oh no that's not a good thing. My look of pure terror must have been obvious because he gave me his usual smirk and turned back to talk to his friends. Phew.
"Iero!" "Hmm?" I was so distracted in 'Gerard watching' that I didn't notice Mrs Skybalt come up behind me. "Something you'd like to say to me?" My heart started pounding nervously and I could feel sweat appear on my back despite the cool room. I was in trouble.
I bit my lip and looked down. "I'm so so so s-so sorry m-ma'am." Mrs Skybalt let out an awkward laugh that sounded more like a cackle. "Silly boy. Not just to me."
I squeaked as she grabbed onto my shirt collar again and shoved me over to the front of the dining hall. "Appologize to everyone for spoiling their appetites," she hissed in my ear; letting go of my shirt. I swallowed nervously and felt my knees grow weak and my head feel faint. "P-please n-no I c-can't. Anxiety-" "APPOLOGIZE!" Mrs Skybalt roared and the entire dining hall stopped talking and turned their heads to look at me. "S-sorry," I squeaked before feeling the familliar pain in my chest and I dashed out of the dining hall. I sprinted over to the staircase and grabbed onto it as I fell to the floor; sobbing. Shit shit shit I didn't need a panic attack right now!
The clinking of Mrs Skybalt's heels echoed as she walked out of the dining hall and over to me with pure anger in her stride. Tears streamed down my face as I tried to get my breathing back to normal and stay calm but it was nearly impossible. Mrs Skybalt then started screaming at me and I got so nervous I thought I was going to faint.
"YOU FUCKING FAG!" she hollered. "FIRST YOU THROW UP ON ME, THEN YOU RUN OUT OF THE DINING ROOM LIKE YOU OWN THIS PLACE. YOU DON'T OWN THIS PLACE YOU PATHETIC PIECE OF -" I was almost completely blacked out when I heard another voice. The voice of an angel.
And then a pair of large hands scooped me up and carried me somewhere but I didn't know where. My vision was all spotty and it still hurt to breathe. "Wh-where?" I managed to choke out but a low growl was the only answer I got.
Finally I felt myself being lowered down and I forced my eyes to open all the way to see where I was. Someone's room, but not mine because my bed was way messier. I sat up and clutched my chest; still feeling tremendous pain in my tummy and heart.
I started sobbing into my hands and started to feel homesick all over again. I miss my mother. I wish I could be with her again. Or anywhere else would be better then this hellhole.
I closed my eyes and forced myself to take deep breaths. I couldn't do anything about leaving now. I had to focus on what I could do, and that was calm down. When I finally opened my eyes I jumped about a mile and felt panic rise all over again.
Gerard was sitting right beside me; looking at me with a calm expression as I continued to breathe heavily and sob. Only when I turned to look at him again did he move. And he did something surprising.
He slowly opened his arms and pulled me into a tight hug; pushing my head gently down onto his chest and shushing me quietly. I sobbed into his shirt and clutched onto him like my life depended on it. Hugging Gerard was just as amazing as I thought it would be. He was so skinny but still very cuddly and warm. His hair tickled my forehead as he bent his head to rest it on mine and I didn't dare move. His arms were my shield and I didn't care if he never spoke to me again after this. This was what I needed. I needed him.
"Frankie?" His voice startled me slightly and I jumped a bit. Gerard raised his head to look me in the eyes. "You okay?" I whimpered and shook my head; tears spilling out from my eyes. This is the part where he's going to punch me. I can sense it. I shut my eyes and waited for the impact of his fist against my swolen face along with a string of awful names but they never came.
Instead I felt something warm and soft press against my forehead and I almost melted. I was about 300% my heart grew wings and was flying away. I was so happy I thought I was going to die. I was right here in the most beautiful guy in the world's arms and he had his lips pressed against my damp forehead. Nothing could ever feel better than this.

Notes

so my wifi was down for a day :( that's why I posted a longer chapter. Enjoy :3 I really hope you guys like this story.