I sat on the couch in my room, tears streaming down my face; and I made no effort to stop them. I had just gotten back from being the best man at Gerard's wedding.

If only he knew. If only he understood, how much I loved him! I pulled the damn tie from around my neck and threw it on the ground. I ran my hand through my hair and grabbed the gun from the table. I positioned it at my forehead, tears still falling as I placed my finger on the cold metal trigger.

"Gerard I love you..."

I'm getting ahead of myself, let me explain what brought me to this. I, Frank Iero, am In love with the lead singer Gerard Way. I have been for 7 years now, and he has never once noticed.

"Gerard! Hurry up! We have a show in like, three minutes!" I yelled as I waited for Gerard so we could walk onstage together. He was currently re-outlining his eyes in black eyeliner.

"I'm going as fast as I can! What you want me to stab my eye out?" he growled as he finished his lower eyelid.

"If it means your done faster then yes." I smirked, I would never want one of his beautiful brown eyes to be hurt or ruined. But he was just beautiful in general, perfect cheekbones, his torso was beautiful and unscarred by tattoos or piercings. I could go on and on about Gerard because well...i was desperately in love with him.

"Frank!" I'm jolted out of my thoughts by a slightly irritated Gerard yelling.

"What!?" I accidentally spat back.

"Were going on, let's go." Gerard said patiently. I smiled sheepishly and followed Gerard out to the stage. The roar of the fans made my pulse pick up, this was always like an adrenalin rush for us.

"We are My Chemical Romance!" Gerard started off with 'I'm Not Okay', God he always looked so sexy in the stage lights. I was about halfway through the song when I saw something that made my lower region twitch. Gerard had thrown his head back and was singing, I thought 'god damn it, why do you have to be so hot!'

I finally walked over there as he sang. "I mean this! I'm okay!"

I said, "Trust me." and i grabbed his neck and smashed our lips together.

Its not like that wasn't normal for us to do that, I just wanted to kiss his soft lips. At least I could do that. I smiled at him and he smiled back, if only he knew how much I loved him.

~~~~~XTime LapseX~~~~~~

"Me and Lyn-Z are going to get married!" Gerard said one day on the tour bus, I was getting a glass from the cuboard when he said that. I froze and I thought I heard my heart shatter, turns out it was just the cup I was holding to get a drink but i dropped it in the shock and it fell to the ground.

"Woah Frank! Are you alright?" Gerard said rushing over to me, I couldn't move though. "Hello Frank?" I felt his hand on my bare shoulder (since I hadn't put a shirt on yet) it made butterflies go crazy in my tummy.

"y-yeah, just a little dizzy. Congrats Gee." I Said faking a smile, he bought it and hugged me.

"Thanks Frankie, it means alot that you approve. Could you be my best man at my wedding?" he said looking at me with his big hazel eyes. Every fiber of my being was screaming no, no dont do it! It will only break your heart more! But strangely enough I heard myself say yes.

"Thanks Frankie, it means a lot, really." he hugged me again as I tried desperately not to cry.

So here we are, back in my house as I held the gun to my head, tears streaming down my face as I said the last words I knew I would say. "I love you Gerard." "Frankie NO!" was all I head before I pulled the trigger.

Notes

First chapter! Hope you guys like it on here ^^

Chapter Title_ Black Veil Brides- Savior
(I know the lyrics dont go exactly like that but yeah, it worked)

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