If only I knew he was going to visit the hanging tree.

after talking for what seemed like hours frank offered to drive me home. i agreed and that is what's going on now. me and frank sat in silence just watching the cars drive along side us. "Maggie?" he asked "yes" i looked over at him "when we kissed...what did that mean?" i didn't hesitate to answer because i knew why we did it. "we are just sad right now and we are looking every where for something that will take our mind off Gerard. anything that would take our mind off Gerard, drinking smoking,kissing...maybe even sex i don't know how far we will go to forget...but if we go so far as to a relation ship i thin we messed up" i wouldn't look at frank, i don't know why i just didn't want too. "why have we messed up if we got into a relationship?" he asked "we are only in that relationship for one thing" i brushed my raven hair behind my ears "And what is that?" he said raising his eyebrows at me "forgetting" i sighed "i think all you want to do is forget Maggie" he said pulling a cigarette from his pocket. "i think that's all anyone wants to do right now" i took a sip of my coffee "yeah but Gerard didn't want to be forgotten... he wanted to be remembers in all the good things" frank smiled "frank...i don't think it matters what Gerard wants anymore" i gave him a sad look. as soon as i said this his expression changed to sadness "what are you talking about?!" he almost yelled. what i was about to say made the most sense no matter what frank said. "frank were not going to forget about him this year, or next year but the he will be put at the back of our mind and then we are going to go off to collage and then be married with kids and we are going to look back on Gerard as our best friend or maybe even lover and we are going to say 'i miss him' but it wont matter how much we miss him because we are going to be far ahead in the future not thinking about him but about our husband or wife and our kids and our jobs...what i'm trying to say is he is our high school memory and we look back on those" i sighed just thinking about what i said. frank started to tear up "d-do you still even love him" he said with a hint of venom in his voice. i gasped and looked at him "yes!" i yelled. "i'm never going to forget him! i will promise to him that i will think about him every day and never forget him ever! i'm going to get married and tell her about my best friend Gerard the most amazing man in the world and how he was a great artist and could sing like an angle! i'm going to tell the story to my kids about there uncle Gerard who was going to spoil them if he had made it past 17 i will tell them how in love he was with his beautiful girlfriend Maggie! i will tell them you wanted to forget so you stopped loving him altogether!" he yelled and cried at the same time. "shut up" i yelled back at him "don't call me again and you can go to the doctors on you own tomorrow!" i yelled getting out of the car. i slammed the door shut and speed walked to my front door. "if your getting up and leaving now just make sure you tell mikey you bitch!" frank yelled out his car window. i turned around and flipped him off as he drove away. i stomped up the stairs and opened the door to see my brother Dan standing there with a supersized look on his face. "Maggie are you okay?" he asked in a sympathetic tone. "NO GODDAMMIT" i screamed falling to my knees crying. he wrapped his arms around me and cradled me "i know your going through hard times right now maggie...i just want you to be strong for us" he rubbed my back. the last thing i remeber is my brother caring me to the couch and falling asleep.

Notes

hey killjoys hows it going? good i hope :D I hope you enjoyed this chapter. i kinda got sad writing this.