The Only Hope For Me Is You

The cubicle door opened and there stood a crying Mikey, i instantly pulled him towards me in a tight hug.
" What's going on?" i said almost in a whisper.
" I hate life, i hate it " he pulled away and looked at me.
" Why though?" he shook his head.
" Mikey you have to tell me the truth, please." he thought about it.
" Lee, he's a jerk, i've been skipping classes. " i pulled at his long sleeve rolling it up to find bruises.
" What's this?" he gave up and let me trace the bruises with my fingers.
" This is what a deserve, it's from where i've been kicked and punched" tears formed in his eyes and spilled out, i just pulled him into a hug again.
" I'll sort it, don't worry, take a few days off huh? " he looked at me with fear.
" and be at home alone with Dad? No thanks "
" We'll find something else then, get you moved up into my year or something okay? i won't let this happen to you " he fell into me dumping his weight on me.
" Okay, what were you doing in here?"
" Just drawing, you know how it is " i decided to pick him up, i lifted him close to me and carried him over to where i was sitting and i sat him down next to me.
" Can i see " i sighed knowing he'd only keep asking.
" i guess so " i lifted up the sketch pad i drew in and showed him the drawing, it was of someone crying leaning against the wall with bandages and someone offering them their hand.
" is this you?" i had to think because i wasn't sure.
" i guess, i'm just trying to draw my feelings " i took the pad back and he stopped me from closing it.
" What's the writing on the other side?" he tried to look but i took the pad away.
" N-nothing "
" I saw it, there's writing, were you writing poetry or something?" he tried again but i pushed him a little bit.
" It's just something i do, but no it isn't poetry " i was getting slightly annoyed.
" please show me, i won't judge you, we can tell eachother anything"
" Mikey, i've never shown anyone this stuff before "
" and now you can "
"NO" I raised my voice and i felt bad because it made me sound like dad, i saw Mikey wince at my tome.
" i'm sorry "
" it's fine i get it " he got up and walked back to the cubicle.
" please come out " he shut the door and i walked to it trying to open it.
" No, you obviously can't share something with me" i realised it had to tell him.
" we could be perfect one last night " i said softly.
" what?" i could tell he was confused.
" and die like star-crossed lovers when we fight " he came out of the cubicle.
" i repeat myself, what?" i went and sat down and he did the same.
" they're lyrics.. i write lyrics with my drawings sometimes " i gave him the pad.
" you'll let me read them?" he took the pad.
" yes " i guess it was good if someone read them. He flicked to the page that the drawing was on and read the lyrics on the back of it.

We could be perfect one last night
And die like star-crossed lovers when we fight
And we can settle this affair
If you would shed your yellow take my hand
And then we'll solve this mystery of laceration gravity
The riddle of revenge please understand it has to be this way

Stand up fucking tall
Don't let them see your back
And take my fucking hand
And never be afraid again

We've only got one chance to put this at an end
and cross the patron saint of switchblade fights
You said we're not celebrities, we spark and fade, they die by threes
I'll make you understand and you can trade me for an apparition

Stand up fucking tall
Don't let them see your back
And take my fucking hand
And never

Trust, you said
Who put the words in your head
Oh how wrong we were to think
That immortality meant never dying

Stand
Take my fucking hand
Take my fucking...

Stand up fucking tall
Don't let them see your back
And take my fucking hand
And never be afraid again

Just because my hands around your throat!

" Gerard you're fucking incredible at writing songs!" his comment took me by suprise.
" really?" i was quite pleased with what i wrote.
" yes! These could be actual songs! And you can sing! I've heard you before " Mikey was really excited about this.
" I can't but thanks, i just like writing how i feel to go with my drawings " i took the pad back.
" so who's the song about?" i had no idea how to answer that.
" i don't know, it's about anyone i guess " Finally the bell rang, about time too
" we better go " Mikey got up and helped me off the floor.
" yeh, oh and i'm going out tonight with Frank, maybe you should invite some of your friends to go out " i didn't know if he had any so this could be awkward.
" Alright, i have this one friend, Ray, i guess i could go out with him " Ray's name rung a bell.
" isn't Ray in my year?"
" Yeh, do you know him? He's new too, he was sitting on his own at lunch and he's quite shy so i sat with him " i thought i'd seen him.
" He's the one with the afro right?"
" Yep "
" I have seen him, never spoken to him, i'm glad you have a friend anyway, maybe it is best if you move up a year then "
We walked out the toilets and to the front of school my phonebuzzed with a text from Frank.

See you later, meet me at starbucks at 7? xx

Great, see you then X

I loved Starbucks, i love coffee actually, i genuinly thought it was one of the best things invented.

" So you're going out with Frank tonight?" I forgot Mikey was walking with me.
" Yep " I smiled at the thought of Frank.
" Like a date?"
" I think so " Mikey smiled.
" I'm so happy for you, and Ray said that he could come over, i think Dad's away isn't he?" I had no interest in Dad.
" I don't know, he's not there most of the time, stumbles in the door drunk at 3am, has to get up for work at 6am " Mikey knew how much i hated Dad.
" I miss Mum " Mikey still always talked about Mum, i liked that because it meant that we never forgot about her.
" Me too " Just as our conversation had finished we walked up to the door of our house and i turned the keys and walked in, there was a note stuck on the wall.

Had to go a buisness trip, won't be back for a week, hope you faggots don't destroy the place.
Love Dad x

Occasionly Dad tried to be nice, he couldn't really help being horrible beacause half the time he was drunk anyway.
" Mikes, Dad's away for the week so feel free to do what you want " Mikey smiled.
" Well i'm not going to school all of next week then " i smirked.
" Me neither, that should give us enough time to get you sorted out to move up a year " Whenever Dad was away we'd have our friends over and wouldn't go to school. It was great really then when we went back we caught up on work.

Later that evening there was a knock at the door, i came downstairs and opened it. I was greeted by a boy with an afro.
" Hi, i'm Ray. Mikey invited me over " i smiled kindly at him to try and make him feel less nervous.
" Hey, i'm Gerard, Mikey's older brother, come in " i welcomed him in and noticed he had a bag with clothes in it, Mikdy probably invited him to stay the night.
" I hope it's okay if i stay over? Mikey said something about your Dad being away so i could " he obviously saw me looking at the bag.
" Of course it is" i felt bad that i'd never talked to this nice guy before and he was in my year and new like me " hey i'm sorry that i hadn't talked to you but i hope we can be friends as well as with Mikey, he really needs a friend like you so i appreciate it " he smiled in appreciation of my apology.
" Hey don't worry about it, i'm not about much anyway and Mikey is a really good person " his afro bobbed up and down as he followed me upstairs and i knocked on Mikey's door.
" Mikes, Ray's here " i opened the door and Mikey was just putting a top on.
" Okay, thanks " i smiled and shut the door as Ray went in, i was happy that Mikey wasn't on his own tonight.

I had a shower and washed my hair trying to make myself look presentable and walked to Mikey's room, he wasn't there and then i heard them in the living room, i walked into it to find Ray and Mikey playing video games.
" Alright i'm about to go out, stay up as late as you want, help yourself to any food and i've left some money for you to get a pizza " i felt responsible for them because Dad wasn't here.
" Okay thanks, have a good time " Mikey smiled and winked at me.
" Shut up " i laughed and walked out the house heading for starbucks. I text Frank to let him know i was on my way.

Just left. On my way to Starbucks x
I didn't expect a reply but i got one back almost instantly.

Okay, i've just got here xx

He was already waiting so i picked up my speed and got there quicker than i expected. Before entering i took a deep breath and moved my hair to one side before going in and looking for Frank.

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