The Only Way

I hugged him in the most platonic way ever but he insisted on being intimate. Mikey kissed my hand and brushed my cheek, totally controlled by his desire.

"Hum…" I said as he kissed my lips in front of Gerard. I couldn't believe he had done that.
I thought he was gonna explode but he stared at Mike sliding his tongue down my throat without even looking mad. He bit his lips and caressed his inner tights.

"I love you too and I'm sorry ." Mikey said as he pulled my head towards him to kiss me with his tongue again. I felt electric shocks in my belly and I was hard as rock.

"Hummm touch his dick." Gerard suggested as Mikey slid a hand in my boxers and pants.

"Humm you like it when Mike caresses your dick. Don't you Frank?" Gerard asked me.

He hugged me from behind and I felt his erection against my ass.

"Yeahh.." I answered, my eyes looking in the distance, my attention completely focused on Mikey's strokes on my dick.

"Harder now. Make him moan." Gerard ordered Mike.

I whined instantly, shouted a couple fucks and almost came in my boxers.

"Yeah I forgot how much he enjoys twisted sex. He's so into it. Let's strip him down." Gerard suggestedcaressinghis own dick.

Gerard took off my lower half and Mikey took off my shirt while kissing and caressing me, bringing me close to the edge every time.

I wasgonnahave sex with my two favorite people in the world.

"I'mgonnafuck his tight ass, you could suck his dick." Gerard said, slapping my ass softly.

Mikey went down on me while Gerard pushed his dick inside of me, and started trusting like he hadn't fuck in months. I watched Mikey lick my dick, caressing his hair and reassure him that he was doing a good job.

"Ohhh…Mike…fuck."

He suddently stopped and kiss my stomach till he reached my mouth.

"Hummm…I love you too Frank" he said.

I was moaning in his mouth as he started stroking my dick.

"I justwannamake out with you for hours after this…" He said, his eyes staring deeply into mine as Gerard faded in the background.

"So do I." I said, licking his lips.

"Hey Frank. I'm here too. You know that, right?" he said, getting up the bed.

"Babe don't be mad…I'm just really horny." I said as an excuse but he had already left the room. Mikey slid his tongue into my mouth and caressed my ass.

"Too bad for him. I'll take care of you Frank. I'll make you so horny you'll beg me to fuck you." he said, smiling onto my lips.

"Hummm. It feels so good." I said as he caressed my skin. At every stroke of his tongue I would arch my back and shiver. His touch was overwhelming.

"Frank you came all over the sheets…fuck..wakeup." Gerard said, two inches from my face.

"Wha…attt?" I answered,realisingthat whole time I was dreaming.

"I wanted to cuddle so I turned around andyou..youcame all over yourself." he said, scratching his head.

"That's not...I'm sorry." I said, getting up to clean myself up and searching for clean sheets.

"What were you dreaming about?" He asked me from far.

"Humm..what?" I said, faking I didn't hear him.All I could think about was Mikey, our tongues tangling together. After exploring that thought I looked down and saw I still had an erection.

"Fuck..getdown." I said to myself.

I went back to the room, put another pair of boxers on and threw the clean sheets on the bed.

"You're still hard..wooah. What were you dreaming about?" said Gerard feeling me up as I laid down next to him.

"I don't really remember." I said unconvincingly.

"Come on..tell me." He said kissing my lips.

"I..you…" I started to explain.

"So you and me? " he asked.

"And Mikey.." I added, not really sure I would tell him the whole story.

"So a threesome with Mike?" He asked.

"Yeah kinda…Ijust..I'm not..Iwouldn't really want that for real, like in real life " I said, trying to explain myself.

"Yeah..tell that to your dick." he said, squeezing it instead of stroking it. It hurt a little.

"I'm sorry..I know Mikey is..I know you wish he wasn't in love with me." I said, head down.

"That's an understatement!" He said, crossing his arms over his head.

"It's just..it makes ..things awkward. I love him really much but our friendship is kinda weird. He says stuff that makes me uncomfortable bit I know he means well..likeI just can't hate him..I just can't." I said, defending myself.

"I know. He's an adorable motherfucker. And if you do end up falling in love with him, I'll let it happen, I'll just disappear and leave you be." He said, raising his shoulders. I wasn't sure whether to believe him or not.

"I'd prefer if you'd to be a part of my life no matter what." I said, annoyed.

"Well that's impossible.Cause..Frank..I really do think you're it. If it's not you than I just..I'll give up."

"…babe I love you and you know it. I have no intention of leaving you. And I feel the same about Vincent than you feel about Mikey. But I won't approve and I'll fight for you." I said, taking his hand.

"I'm getting tired of fighting, Frank. I'll let fate decide." He said,sighing.

"Alright..but I hope you understand how I feel that your ex that drugged me and tried to rape me 2 times now, was sleeping next door." I said.

Right after Christmas, Gerard had kicked Vincent out. It had been horrible. Vincent had try to take Alice away and Gerard had to call the police. Me and Mike had went to his place while Gerard was dealing with all the crap alone, his idea, indeed.

I was angry at him for his lack of trust, lack of respect and love. He had just thrown me to the wolves and watched them eat me alive. Only for his own selfish reasons. I was the perfect bait and Vincent fell into his trap. I was mad and I felt used, once again.

"I know.I'm..I'm sorry I let that go that far.." He said, caressing my hand.

"I love you. Let's go back to sleep." He said, kissing my forehead and my lips.

"I.." I said, hesitating.

"What's that?" Gerard asked.

"Never mind." I said, turning over.

I woke up the next morning and Gee was already gone. He had insisted for me to see another psychiatrist, a woman, one of his oldest friends. I was shaky and felt like I was gonna puke. Lately I hadn't been able to leave the house. Dereck offered me a job again but on my first day I had freaked out and had left at lunch without telling him. I hadn't been able to go back and he fired me. I couldn't handle life lately and that had to change.

"Frank?" a voice asked from the hallway.

"Yup, the one." I said, shouting from the couch.

"Oh, hi. I'm Amy. Gerard said you'd be laying down on the couch and I could come in so.." She said, looking around.

She had short hair and I was a bit taller than her. She was thin and kinda cute. Well for a girl.

"I'm gonna be straight up with you Frank." She said as she took off her purple coat.

"O...kay." I said.

"I've known Gerard for a really long time now and I won't give any details to you about his past life unless I ask him to beforehand and he accepts to discuss it in a therapy session with you. Is that okay with you?"

"Yes. I wanna know things because Gee shared them with me, not through another person." I said, like a robot. The truth was that I didn't cared one bit about Gerard's past. I had to deal with much bigger things like breathing and trying not to freak out on Amy.

"Glad we both agree on that." she said, shaking my hand and sat down in front of me.

"How are you feeling." she said taking a pad and a pen, then putting on her black glasses. It reminded me of the first time I had been in Gee's office. I felt a little better.

"Can I ask where you met Gee before I answer?" I asked trying to avoid answering that simple yet reallynervewreckingquestion for me at that moment.

"He was my boyfriend inhighschool. We graduated and he came out and I was cool with it and helped him through it so we remained best friends." She explained.

"How come I had never heard of you before?" I asked suspicious of the fact that they were still really close.

"I was out of town for a couple years and I just came back. We were talking through emails most of the time." She said.

"So..why am I here, Frank?" She asked, softly.

"I don't know exactly what's wrong but I have problems dealing with life." I said, closing my eyes.

"What aspect of your life in particular?" She asked.

"Humm basic stuff like breathing and getting up in the morning, feeling something else than I'm gonna die, right now." I said, putting a hand on my heart. I could feel it beating so hard I thought it was gonna explode.

"Well it sounds like you're having anxiety and you prolly a panic disorder." She said, writing it down on her pad.

"Ok." I said, not knowing what to add. I knew that already but maybe she would know how to make my life at least tolerable.

"What's going on in your life lately? Like..what have been the most memorable moments starting last year till now." She asked. I opened my eyes staring at her.

"Oh hell.. My mom died, I met Gerard, moved in with him cause my dad who used to beat me threw me out, dropped school, got almost raped by Gerard's ex and…oh..Mikey fell in love with me." I said,realizing that my life had changed a lot but not for the best.

"Mikey..? Gerard's brother?" She asked surprised.

"Mikey fucking Way" I answered, sighing.

"OhhI..didn't think he was gay..that's such a shame." She said, thinking out loud.

"A shame?" I asked.

"Well..I'm guilty of having a massive crush on him since..college I think..well..it's been a while since I saw him." She said blushing.

"Well I think he might be bisexual in fact but that's just a theory." I said, trying to make her feel better.

"Anyhow that doesn't matter. You told me he was in love with you. How do you feel about him?" She asked, tilting her head.

"I don't know."

"You don't know or you won't tell me?" She asked.

"I'm afraid of the answer. Things aren't so great with Gee." I said and instantly regretted to have pronounce those words.

"Don't you wanna find out? That'skindaa sign you should cause you already are afraid of the answer." She said, smiling.

"Yeah…I guess Mikey is alright. He's kind and he cares about me. He always makes me smile when I'm down. He tries not to hurt me even tho sometimes he does but when we fight it doesn't take long before we start talking again..so he's a good friend."

"But nothing more?" she asked.

"I keep…on having those dreams and they scare me...it's embarrassing." I said, head down.

"What are they about?" she asked.

"Me having sex with Mike." I said as I felt the blood rushing to my cheeks.

"Okay. I see. How do they make you feel?" she asked.

"Very horny." I said, laughing at her reaction.

"I..yes..of course I should've seen this one coming." She said giggling.

I apologized and she said she would rather have me tell me the truth and possibly embarrass her then to lie.

"Gee said you were smart and witty. I'm glad that's true." She said winking.

"Yeah..I am in love with Gee. That's all I know. But things aren't really great. This shit with his ex..he got arrested and..it was all too fucked up..and it stressed me out."

"What happened exactly with his ex?" she asked, curious.

He got arrested because he was trying to get away with his daughter and tried to take her away from Gee. And …he ..abused me sexually twice and beat me up twice too. He scares the shit out of me. There really is something wrong with him." I said, creeped out.

"In which circumstances have you met him?" she asked intrigued.

"I think...he was Mike's best friend and I saw him when Mike was my therapist. Then I met him again at Gerard's house every time he would drop out his daughter. Then I saw him in front of Gerard's house when he learned that Gee and I were dating and that night he beat me up. And again when he tried to rape me on the street and beat me up for the second time. Then the last time I saw him, it was at Gee's. He had picked him up and brought him home and he touched me twice and drugged me.So..yeahI don't like when he's in Gerard's life." I explained. It felt good to get it off my chest finally. I felt half less stressed already.

"Okay so euhm Vincent. Will he come bothering you again?" she asked.

"Nah. He has a restriction order from court and Gerard is getting custody till he goes to court for that thing." I said.

"Great. So let's focus on the people that can make you feel better in your life right now okay?" she said.

"Okay.Euhm. Gerard could but he's often pissed off at me. Mike is chill, I got two friends from high school who will still talk to me.." I explained.

"Have you met with Gerard's daughter?" She asked.

"Yeah. I have. She's a sweetheart, she likes me a lot." I answered smiling.

"That's good." She said excited.

"Gerard told me about your father." She said, suddenly serious.

"Oh humm..yeah." I said, hesitant.

"You don't wanna talk about it. I get it. But you'll have to at some point."

"It's..it's just it's hard to talk about it. I can still feel the pain of his punch all over my ribs even tho the bruises faded."

"Years of abuse can't fade away in a snap of a finger…it leaves emotional scars." she said, brushing my shoulder.

"I would rather forget that he once existed. I wanna start over."

"And how do you wanna accomplish that?"

"I should go back to school eventhoughI rather not." I said, as surprised as her by my answer.

"Gerard said you wanted to get a job. Why did you changed your mind?"

"Cause it's the right thing to do and cause it scares me and it's always a good sign that I'm on the right path."

"Change doesn't have to be stressful and negative." she said, smiling about what she was hearing.

"It's the way it always been. It has to hurt, that's just a part of life." I said, convinced.

"That's a bit gloomy, don't you think?" she said, tapping my shoulder.

"Yeah, I know."

We talked about how to accomplish that new goal of mine and what I had to do in the next following weeks.

"Okay so, it was nice to meet you, Frank. I look forward to our appointments. I'm sure we'll accomplish great things together." Amy said as she hugged me.

"I'm sure too." I said smiling.

Half an hour after she had left, Gerard came back home.

"Honey, I'm home" he said as soon as he opened the door.

"Hey" I said, sliding my slipperson the floor, my mug of coffee in the right hand.

"Were you wearing your pjs while Amy was there?" he asked looking at me from head to toes, a disgusted look on his face.

"Yeah…I slept all morning and..I" I said trying to explain.

"Well at least this one won't try to rape you. You look like hell." he said, sarcasm in his voice.

"Fuck you. Insensible bastard." I said under my breath.

"What was that?"

"Nothing."

"Frank, come on..tell me or I'll get mad." he told me two inches from my face.

Gerard was acting strange lately, always angry and even had threaten me for the second time now.

" You're insensitive…Gee. Did you hear what you just said? It was really hurtful." I told him, eyes filling with tears.

"I'm sorry, I love you." he said hugging me tightly, all trace of anger fading away.

"Was it good? Was she nice? What do you think about her? Do you like her?" he asked, enthusiastic.

"Yeah. I like her. She is genuine, just like you said. Your description of her was accurate."

"I'm so glad you're gonna get help, Frank. This situation is eating me alive. I hate seeing you suffering all the time."

"Yeah, I feel hopeful. I'm feeling better already."

"What did you talked about? Leave out the parts where you talked about me."

"About Mikey and my dad and the major chain of events that brought me to this place where I can't breathe properly anymore."

"Okay, that's a good start. It doesn't mean you can't talk to me now and then. We can still share our ups and downs." he said,caressing my head.

Half the time Gerard was incredibly romantic and the other half he scared the shit out of me and made me almost hate him.

"I want you to share your ups, not only your downs." I said, softly.

"I know. Things haven't been great lately, babe. I'm really stressed out because of you. It scares me…I just want you to get better but..it makes me mad. I'm trying hard not to lose my temper, Frank. I love you so much." he said, tearing up.

"I love you too, Gee. I know it's a rough patch but I need your help to get better. You can't treat me the way you are treating me now."

"I'll keep on trying my best, babe. I don't wanna lose you." he said kissing my lips like the first time we kissed.

Notes

It's been a while!! I've been busy like a bee.

Hope you like this one.