The Only Way

I stared at Gerard asleep, eyes closed, the rythm of his deep breaths were soothing. I knew at this moment that we were safe. I took his hand in mine and burried my face in his neck, holding him tightly.

"Humm hey babe." Gerard said, kissing my lips. I looked at him, scratching his eyes, smiling at me with a crooked smile. I loved him like I had never loved someone before. He made me feel a mix of anxiety, joy and complete madness.

"Why are you staring at me like this?" he asked, blushing. His cheek were peach.

"I contemplate." I said, biting my lips, caressing his ivory skin.

"Stop it, I'm blushing." He said, smiling and sliding his palm on his cheek to feel if his face had turned red.

"I feel so good right here, I could just die and it would be alright" I said, staring fondly into his eyes.

"But you could also live and have sex with me." He said, smiling my favorite smile.

"Yeah it's true that I could.." I said, laughing and giggling. He put his hands around my waist and started making out with me. Half through our sex session , we heard a knock on the door.

"Gee…?" A voice asked. Mikey opened the door and sat down on the bed, ignoring the fact that Gerard's pants were on his ankles.

"Vincent drugged you both yesterday. He's out of control." he said whispering even tho he had closed the door.

"Yeah..." Gerard answered head down.

"Something happened when you left me alone with him." I said, scratching my forehead.

"You were so wasted I didn't think once second that you were drunk. You don't act that way usually.

" Mikey said. "Yeah I should've stayed…fuck. Why did we leave you alone with him!?" Gerard said realising he had let me down.

"Yeah..I asked myself the same question when he pushed me on our bed." I said, trying to make them feel guilthy, perhaps. Hell yeah they deserved to know all the pain I felt in my stomach.

"On our bed, here?" Gerard asked.

"Yeah, he dragged me upstairs."

"That's awesome!!" Gerard said, jumping till he reached the bookcase in where he had hidden a small camera.

"Well, fuck you Gee." I said, pissed off. "I had put a camera right there in front of the bed." He said.

"Do you think the angle was right? Oh we could watch it on fast forward to see." He said, completely absorbed.

"Don't you wanna know what happened?" I asked, madder than ever.

"Yeah of course. I am sorry. I'm just stocked this will finally end." Gerard said, sighing.

"He just..he made me do stuff.." I said, unable to continue.

"Babe…ohh come here. Hug me babe. I am sorry. I should have been there. I am ashamed of myself." He said, taking me in his arms. Mikey joined us in this group hug and finally let go after way too much time not to let everyone feel uncomfortable.

"Should we watch it?" Gerard asked, looking at Mikey.

"I can't. Personnally, I would prefer Frank to tell me instead of watching it. That's a bit too intense for me." Mikey said, grimacant.

"Yeah. I'll do it. Someone has to. This is our chance to catch him." Gerard said. He left the room with the camera and went to his office, closing the door behind him.

"Is he doing this for Alice or for me?" I asked to Mike who was silent.

"What if I tell you both? Can't he do it for both? That's just a plus, right? Another motivation?" Mikey said, obviously uncomfortable that his brother was watching his boyfriend being abused by his ex in the next room.

"Yeah…huh." I said, crossing my arms. "I couldn't watch it…..you know. Vincent abusing you…it's killing me inside." Mikey said.

"I don't wanna know that someone made you suffer and touched you." Mikey said, taking my hand.

"I know, Mikey…" I told him. My eyes filling up with tears.

"I love you..Frank." Mikey said, taking me in his arms.

"I…" I hesitaded.

"You don't have to say it back." he told me caressing the top of my head. Gerard came back in the room. He sat down on the bed and looked at both of us.

"We got the whole thing on tape but..there's no sound." he said. "Do we really need sound?"

"Yeah…Mikey. Frank doesn't look like he isn't enjoying it." he said, troubled.

"What?" I said, shocked. "I'm not saying that to hurt or piss you off but.." Gerard said, turning his face away.

"I…wow. I don't…" I said, shaking.

"Shhh.." Mikey said to me, staring at Gerard. "Why did you have to say that in front of him…? I mean…Gee..do you even understand how you're not helping?" Mikey said, pissed off.

My head was spinning and I could only focus on my heart pounding in my chest.

"Yeah Mikey…I do understand but….we can't use that." Gerard answered.

"I wasn't …I swear..I didn't enjoy any minute of it…Gerard, please believe me." I said to Gerard who was acting colder by the minute.

"The video can't be used. That's all I'm saying Frank. See for yourself if you want." Gerard said, throwing me an usb key. I started hyperventilating and I ran to lock myself in the closet.

"Get the fuck out…please. Gerard. You are hurting him. I won't let you do that again. Can't you give him a break?!" Mikey yelled at his brother.

"You think you're best suited to take care of him huh?" Gerard answered back.

"Right now, yeah. Fuck yeah. You hurt him. You're accusing him of atrocities like if he fucking begged to be raped while we were supposed to protect him from that happening in the first place." Mikey added.

"You always find the right words, don't you Mikey? You're a fucking genius, you should write a book on how to take care of Frank Iero since you're the fucking expert " Gerard said.

"Stoppppp!!!" I yelled completely panicked. I just wanted peace.

"You are a selfish cunt, Gerard Way, a fucking jelous and selfish complaining little bitch." Mikey yelled over my voice.

"Ohh come here and say that to my face, Mikey. I fucking dare you." Gerard said.

"You are a fucking jealous cunt, Gerard Way, and I'm not scared of you." Mikey said. I heard a couple punches being thrown and both of them yelling on top of each other till I heard a loud stomp. Then complete silence. I got out of the closet to see what had happened. Gerard was sitting on the floor next to an unconscious Mike. His knuckles were bleeding and his face was scratched all over.

"Fuck…" Gerard said, getting up and kicking Mikey in the ribs.

"Stop hitting him, Gee. He passed out…we should bring him to the hospital.

"No one's going anywhere." he said, his eyes darker than usual.

"What's wrong with you?" I asked Gerard who looked completely possessed by anger.

" You're fucking flirting with everyone. You think I don't see it Frank? The way you look at Mikey. You don't think I'm that fucking dumb? Do you?" Gerard asked two inches from my face.

"I don't flirt. You're the only one I want."

"You don't think it broke my heart to see you with my ex? You looked into it for fuck sake, how am I supposed to believe you?" he said, clenching fists. "

You are all I want, Gerard. I never asked Mikey to fall in love with me like I never asked for Vincent to abuse me. It just sorta happened." I said, trying to call him down because he was about to lose it.

"Stop lying, Frank. I'll fuck you up. You know you'll bring me to that place I can't come back from, honey." he said, biting down his lips till they bled.

" I am sorry." I said, feeling completely overwhelmed by fear.

"Sorry for ?" Gerard asked.

"Sorry that those things happened." I said, head down.

"You were into it, Frank. You can't fool me, fuck. I saw you." Gerard said.

"We should bring him to the hospital." I said, looking at Mikey who was still unconcious.

"Don't change the subject." he said, grabbing my shirt. "I…Gerard…please." I said, terrorised.

"I know you cheated on me, say it." he added taking me in a headlock. "Gerard…canoodle…canoodle for fuck's sake!!!" I yelled. He was about to hit me when he saw his own reflection in the mirror. He let go of me instantly.

" Oh fuck….I'm losing it, Frank. I'm so tired of being jealous it's eating me alive." He said, sitting on the floor next to Mikey, verifying if he was still breathing. Mikey woke up instantly, panicked.

"Fuck…that hurt." Mikey said, whinning.

"You're a fucking psycho, Gerard Way, fuck!!" he added.

"I'm sorry I lost it." Gerard said, head down.

"You lost it..! I mean, come on, you had been doing so great with your anger and now you're going back to your old habits since Vincent is back. Just throw him the fuck out." Mickey answered. He didn't seem mad at all, only disappointed.

"I am sorry." Gerard said like a broken record.

"Yeah..fuck Gee. Can't you see it's screwing you up. You hit me, you became paranoid and jealous, threatened Frank and even did coke. you had let go of those destructive behaviors. He's dragging you down. Let go." Mikey said, getting up.

"Ask for costudy and start trusting Frank. He loves you dearly. We don't need a tape, we just need to have a better lawyer than Vincent. You should confront him." Mikey added.

"Catching him in the act will destroy Frank. I can't let him be bait again." Mikey continued sitting down on the bed next to me.

"Yeah I know. Vincent is brutal and vicious." Gerard answered, scratching his head like if he had just woke up. Gerard stared at me. He was trying to say sorry, while not exactly saying it. He got up from the floor and sat down on the opposite side of Mikey.

"I love you. Will you forgive me? I will get better, our life is gonna get better." he said, tearing up and staring at his fingers carressing my hand.

"I forgive you." I answered whispering in his ear. He could've hit me and I would have forgave him because that's how much I loved him.

Notes

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