The Only Way

‘’Come on babe, dance with me.’’ I heard Vincent yell from the kitchen. Christmas music was blasting off the tv in the livingroom.

I entered the room only to see Gerard, hand in hand with my abuser,dancing around the table like he had not a care in the world.

‘’Having fun?’’ Mikey yelled over the music. Gerard jumped two feet from the ground and gently pushed Vincent away.

‘’Yeah, we were.’’ Vincent answered arrogantly.

‘’Is that your pjs Gee? Next thing you know he joins you and Frank in your bedroom right?’’ He yelled again.

Gee ran through the kitchen and turned down the music.

‘’Come on, Mike, don’t make this into something that it’s not.’’ Gerard said, coming back.

‘’It’s almost Christmas, girls, put a smile on your faces.’’ Vincent said, lifting up Mikey’s mouth with his fingers.

‘’Where’s Alice?’’ Mikey asked, looking at both of them.

‘’She’s at my mom’s.’’ Vincent answered, pouring himself another coffee like he owned the fucking place.

‘’Where did you go?’’ Gerard asked me, trying to give me a kiss but I pushed him away.

‘’None of your concern, not that you really had notice that I was gone, it seems.’’ I said, harshly.

‘’Frank, I need to talk to you, right now. This can’t go on.’’ He said, taking my hand and dragging me upstairs.

‘’Good timing Gee, I needed some time alone with my friend here.’’ Mikey yelled back.

Dammit. I wish Mikey would keep his promise. Gerard closed the bedroom door behind us.

‘’Frank, jealousy isn’t attractive at all.’’ He told me, serious.

‘’Being clueless isn’t either, Gee.’’ I told him.

‘’For the first time in two freaking years, Vincent is ready to talk to me about the divorce. He told me he would let Alice live here with us but you keep acting like a child and I can’t have that. I just need a few days of calm to convince him it’s a good environment.’’ He told me, his eyes full of hope. And Vincent had striked again.

‘’He said he would rape me, Gee.’’ I simply said.

‘’What the fuck?’’ He answered.

‘’The other night, he’s the one who jumped on me and beat me up. He said he would rape me if I didn’t get the fuck out of your life.’’

‘’It’s a nice story you got there but I don’t believe you.’’ He said, frowning.

‘’I’m not really surprised.’’

‘’How convienient it is for you..now that Vincent decieded to come back into my life. You won’t get my attention by inventing this horror, Frank. That’s unnacceptable.’’

‘’I’m telling you the truth, Gee. How could I make this up?’’ I said, lifting my shirt.

‘’Vincent was with me the other night.’’ He said, putting my shirt down.

‘’Yeah but he was beating me up before he came running in your arms at your office.’’

‘’Your jealousy really has no limits, Frank? It was cute at first but now it’s just pathetic.’’ He told me, disgust all over his face.

‘’I don’t know how you got those bruises, nor who tried to ‘’rape’’ you but you won’t pin that on Vincent. Not now. I need this, Frank. I need to see my baby girl more often. It’s a chance I’m not ready to miss, not even for you.’’ He said.

‘’Got it.’’ I simply answered. I knew he wouldn't believe me before I even told him. I don't know what else I was expecting but I felt deeply hurt.

‘’Don’t be like that, Frank. I don’t know why you made that up but you got bad taste. Rape is a serious topic.’’ He said, schooling me.

‘’He said he would. Gee…come on. Look at me. I would never…He..’’ I said, desperate.

‘’You’re running out of excuses, Frank. I’ll be there when you’re ready to tell me the truth. Now you need to suck it up. Vincent and Alice are spending the holidays with us. If you keep on behaving the way you do, I will have to ask you to leave.’’ He answered, pointing the door.

‘’Alright, mister.’’

‘’Don’t….ahh..I’m done, Frank. Really..you disappoint me.’’

‘’You’re done?!? I’m done with your stupidity Gerard. Fuck you and long live the rapist. You two will be very happy together.’’ I said, overreacting. This is what I got for telling the truth, being called a liar.

‘’I’ll talk to you when you’re ready to apologize …this is just ridiculous. I don’t wanna see you downstairs till you’re ready to have a better attitude’’ He said, closing the door.

‘’And now I gotta discipline my boyfriend.Unfuckingbelievable!’’ He yelled from the hall.

I crawled on the bed. Vincent’s plan had worked perfectly. I cried till the darkness invaded the room, leaving a bitter taste in my mouth. I had spent the day overthinking this nightmare. What could I have done different? Maybe attacking Vincent directly wasn't a good plan. I had to find a way to fix this despite the hatred I felt towards Gerard who had decieded to trust his ex husband instead of me.

I was lost in my thoughts when I heard Mikey come upstairs. He knocked on the door and opened it only to find me burried in the covers.

''Gerard forbid me to come see you..but he changed his mind when he saw you weren't coming back anytime soon. Are you hungry?'' He asked, entering the room.

‘’I’m so mad….I can’t stop crying, fuck!’’ I said, as Mikey sat on the bed next to me.

‘’What happened? What did you tell him?’’ He asked.

‘’I ..told him everything and he wouldn’t believe me.’’ I said, choking back tears.

‘’Well…what happened to your plan of not telling Gerard?’’ He asked, surprised.

‘’I..don’t know..He’s fucking clueless. Completely blinded by this asshole..’’ I answered tears falling down my cheeks.

‘’Well, you should’ve told me. I knew he was gonna react that way. Vincent is turning his love for Alice in his favor. It’s an advantage you’ll never get.’’ He said, shrugging.

‘’Wow. Thanks Mike. I feel so much better now.’’ I said, looking in the distance.

‘’Unless you prove he is a total psycho.’’ He said, smiling.

‘’And how would I do that?’’ I answered.

‘’Well…I got a few tricks up my sleeve but it would mean you’d have to trust me.’’ He said.

‘’Explain….’’ I pleaded.

‘’Well, acting like you are now is not gonna help you achieve anything. Gerard thinks you’re a crybaby lately, not to be harsh but you’ve been acting kinda crazy.’’

‘’If I needed critism, I would have asked Gerard directly.’’ I said, burrying my head in the pillow.

‘’I know you have your reasons, I mean, I would’ve killed Vincent in the spot if I were Gerard, even if he’s…well was my best friend.’’ He said, looking down.

‘’Was? You’re turning down his friendship?..for real?’’ I asked, skeptic.

‘’After what he has done to you! Of course…I mean…I’ve never been into abusive freaks. By hitting you again he crossed the line and there’s no going back.’’ He said, caressing my hand.

‘’Mike..sometimes I wonder..why I give a damn about Gerard after all…’’ I said, thinking out loud.

‘’Oh jeez, I wonder too.’’ He said, laughing.

‘’But you do, and I’m gonna help the man of your dreams see through the cowebs of lies Vincent has so carefully crafted.’’ He said, like if defeat wasn't an option.

‘’OHH..so deep..’’ I said, referring to what he had said.

‘’You want me to go deeper?’’ He said, licking his lips, a machiavellian smile on his face.

‘’Shut up…!’’ I said, blushing.

‘’I’m glad we became friends again, I’ve missed you.’’ He said, softly while caressing the side of my face.

‘’Yeah..try to act more like a friend tho..’’ I said, taking his hand in mine, contradicting myself.

‘’You just have to ask and I’ll be as cold as Vincent’s heart.’’ He said, crossing his heart.

And I remained silent because it was the last thing I wanted.

''What did you tell Vincent?'' I asked after a few minutes of silence where Mike was caressing my back to comfort me.

''That I see right through him and that he should back off before I get involved.'' Mikey answered.

''And how did he react?'' I asked, curious.

''Like he didn't know what I was talking about.'' He said, raising his shoulders.

''Ahh..'' I simply answered. This was getting us nowhere.

''I wanna trust you, Frank. In fact I already believe what you told me but if you wanna add anything else now is the time. I don't wanna learn afterwards that you manipulated me to get Vincent out of Gerard's life. That would be the end of our friendship.'' He told me, choosing his words with care.

''I have nothing else to add. I already told you everything. I got no hidden agenda. I was tolerating Vincent but he went too far and he really scares me now.'' I answered.

''Would you consider...spending the holidays at my house?'' He asked, biting his lips, hoping my answer would be positive.

''Nope. Vincent will get what he wants. A chance to show Gerard how much he falsely changed is all he's waiting for.'' I answered.

''Would you mind if I stayed here then?''

''That would reassure me..if Gerard agrees.'' I told him, squeezing his hand.

''Of course he will. He would let his ex spend the holidays here but not his brother? I don't think so.'' He said, getting up and dragging me downstairs. Mikey called dibs on the sofa and Gerard was stocked that we would all be reunited for Christmas.

''You decided to have a better attitude?'' Gerard asked me as we were watching Mikey fixing dinner with Vincent.

''Yeah. Let's try to all get along.'' I lied.

''Thank you so much my love.'' He said, kissing me on the forehead as Vincent sent me a dirty look.

How could I beat Vincent at his own game? Would I have to be the perfect boyfriend, accept anything and everything just to be sure Gerard wouldn't leave me for him? Was it at all worth it? I looked at Mike winking at me as if we were sharing a secret. His bleached blond hair,now dark brown at the roots were giving him a laid-back look that I liked. Mikey was truly gorgeous, and he was the sweatest thing lately, the complete opposite of Gerard.

I shook my head, not wanting to go down that road.I loved Gerard. The way he made me feel was exhilarating, like if everything was so much more interesting when I was by his side. But he also made me feel unsafe..

'' Outch'' I said under my breath as I felt pain. I had bitten my lips till they bled.

''Frank? Are you still here with us?'' Mikey asked me as Gerard caught me staring at him intensly.

''Yeah I am..sorry. I just spaced out.'' I answered.

'' Damn you were gone far..'' He said as he put my plate in front of me. Everyone else was already eating when I laid eyes on my fork, untempted by any of the food that was in front of me. I couldn't eat with that psycho right across the table, sitting next to Gee. He kept staring at me mouting that he would make me his bitch when no one was looking. I took a bite or two that threatened to go back where they come from and set my plate aside, disgusted by the taste in my mouth.

''Are you alright, my love?''Gerard asked me.

''Yeah,I'm just tired.'' I said, I was sure he wouldn't believe me but he didn't say anything. Being tired was my number one excuse for everything. He didn't argue tho and let me leave the kitchen to lie down on the sofa.

How could I spend the holidays with Vincent nagging me every chance he got? What if I ended up alone in the same room then him? Fuck, all this thinking was getting exhausting.

A few minutes later they all sat down in the living room,Gerard on the sofa beside me and Mikey in the armchair across it.

''Aren't you the cutest couple I've ever seen.'' Vincent said, squeezing himself beside me and Gerard. What a jerk.

''Sarcasm is a second language for you.'' said Mikey, kicking Vincent's foot.

''I mean it, look at them,so in love and happy together, not a sign of any arguments between the two.'' He said, laughing and caressing both our legs.

''Shut up, Vincent,it ain't funny.''Gerard said, pushing him so he would sit beside me.

''Alright,alright. I wanna make peace with Frank.'' He said, pushing Gerard back to where he was. He took my hand and looked me directly in the eyes.

''I know we had our differences but I would be happy to move on, Frank. I'm ready to accept that you are a part of Gerard's life now. I wanna be part of his future, for Alice's sake and I don't want my presence here to be a problem for you.Would you put all this animosity behind us and be my friend?'' He asked, softly, brushing the back of my hand.

I was about to tell to go fuck himself but Mikey made me a sign to accept his proposition.
''There's nothing I would love more.'' I answered with the biggest smile I could fake. It was pretty convincing despite the choice of words I had made.

''Then it's settled.'' He said, putting his hand on my back, his fucking dirty hand that was about to drive me crazy.

''That's a great Christmas gift you're both giving me now.'' Gerard said,smiling like an idiot.

I couldn't believe he was buying it.

''Yeah, yeah, it's gonna be the best Christmas ever everyone, now can we watch the show I brought?'' Mikey said, rolling his eyes like he was watching an episode of Days of our lives.

''I'm gonna treat you right, Frankie.I'll be the best friend you'll ever have.'' He said, whispering in my ear and carressing my inner tights while Gerard was closing the lights.

''Can I sit beside you,Gerard? I would love to cuddle.'' I said, knowing he would probably accept.

''Hum..I'm still his ex tho. I would prefer if you wouldn't show off and makeout in front of me.'' Vincent said, right after Gerard had sat down beside me, taking me away from Vincent's grip.

''Of course. I can handle myself in front of you. Just knock on the door next time when you come upstairs and you won't have any bad surprises.'' I answered, kissing Gerard on the cheek the most sensual way I could.

I saw Vincent clenching his fists and mumbling something under his breath. 1 -0 for Frank.

''Come on, guys.You started off so great. Don't ruin it with uncesserary comments.''Gerard pleaded.

''Yeah, alright, sorry Vincent. It wasn't my intention to hurt your feelings.'' I said, smiling to him in the most annoying way.

We watched t.v. and talked till everyone fell asleep. When Mikey decided he wanted to sleep, Gee and me went upstairs followed by Vincent. I was giggling and kissing Gerard's neck in front of our bedroom door. I pushed Gee on it and sucked his skin while caressing his tights. It had been a while since we had sex so Gee was trying to be subtle but his muffled moans caught Vincent's attention. I pushed him inside the room, taking my shirt off, and making out with him.

''Fuck..yeah..'' Gerard said as I slammed the door behind us.

''I want you, now. Take off your clothes.'' I ordered him.

''Make me'' he said biting his lips.

I pushed him on the bed, got on top of him and almost tear his shirt off.

I undid his belt and took off his pants slowly while kissing his skin on the way down. He then pushed me away gently faking he didn't want to be undressed.

''You're my little slut and if you dont do as I say, I'll fuck you up.'' I said, fire in my eyes.

''You'll hurt me, babe? Cause I've been really really bad lately. I deserve to be punished.'' He said, exposing his bare ass. I took his belt and started slapping him hard enough that he would feel pain. I didn't really wanted to hurt him but the way he was looking everytime I would hit him just made me wanna slap his ass harder.

''Hummm…Frank..I'm yours, all yours. I wanna please you, let you fuck me like I'm your bitch, make me feel like a whore.'' He said, completely gone.

I threw the belt on the bed got him to turn on his belly and started riding him hard, making the head-board slam on the wall.

I fucked him long enough to lose any concept of time, completely in awe of how good it felt to be inside him.

My first goal was to make him scream so loud that the neighboors would hear us but I was enjoying this more than I thought I would.

I let him fuck me as his turn, but he decided to be gentle and sweet. He made me lie on my back, rising up my legs on both side of his waist. He pushed his dick inside me, making me moan loudly. He kissed my hands and my chest while trusting slowly but deeper.

''Gee…you're so good. So glad that you're mine.'' I said, almost drooling on my chest.

He answered by fucking me harder till he had no choice but to come. Once he was done he crashed his head on my chest. I could feel his heart beating in unison with mine. We remained silent, completely out of breath.

''I wanted you so bad those past few weeks.'' He said, kissing my lips.

''I've missed you''. I answered burrying my face in his hair.

''I love it when you're kinky like that babe, it was nice to be bottom for once.'' He said, kissing my neck.

We made out for a while and talked about what we enjoyed the best in bed. He liked it a bit rougher than me, maybe that was because I had traumatic experiences, maybe it was because I preferred respectful sex than be called a slut but I was getting used to his way of making love to me. It was brutal and soft, a bit like his personnality.

Notes

Back from the holidays :)
Hope you all had a blast
and happy new year to you all !!
xoox