I Can't Begin To Let You Know Just What I'm Feeling

Song of the chapter: Exit wounds by Placebo

Frank’s P.O.V
INTRODUCTION
It was 3:00 am and I was at my friend, Gerard’s house. Now you may be thinking “4:00 am??? Dude aren’t you tired??” well that’s the thing. Both me, and Gerard are vampires, and vampires don’t sleep. In the world that we live in there are vampires and humans, and best part is that humans know about vampires and we aren’t just some scary Halloween myth.
In the race of vampires, there is a shortage on the female gender. In this case, there are doms, and fertiles. Doms are like ‘the stereotypical boy’, tough and rude. While fertiles are like ‘the stereotypical girl’ weak, and shy. Doms love fertiles, fertiles love doms. That’s the way it’s supposed to be. This story is just a little… different.

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I watched Gerard as he ‘rested’ he was so fragile, he could pass for a fertiles, but he wasn’t. He was a dom, like me. His parents, who were both fertiles had influenced him so much that he practically was one. His parents protected him from everything that was unsafe, and they made sure he never broke any rules. Me on the other hand… I don’t even have parents. Somehow I still manage. I have an apartment about three blocks away from Gerard’s house. Though I technically live with Gerard so I don’t even need it.
Gerard shifted “up from your ‘nap’?” I asked. He laughed. “I don’t know Frankie; I just like to close my eyes sometimes. It relaxes me.”
“I swear, if I didn’t know you were a dom…”
“what? You’d automatically assume I was a fertile?” I nodded “well I’m not.” He defended. “I don’t know why you get so angry when I say that… I’m just letting you know.”
“I know…”
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It was now 12:00 pm. Gerard and I were in the forest hunting for our next meal. I’m grateful for the time we have in the forest because it’s the only time that we are ever truly alone. It is the only time when I can tell him how I feel. The only time where I won’t have to fear rejection because there will be no one to witness it. But still, I won’t tell him. Maybe Gerard Arthur Way will never know that I love him. And that’s okay, because I’m a dom and dom’s are strong… right? Sometimes it seems like doms are the ones who should be given an easier time, not fertiles. Nobody cares about our emotions, because they aren’t important.
“Frank? You kinda zoned out.” Gerard said with a little giggle. I looked up at him and smiled. “Sorry, Gee.”
I looked at the streets from the behind a tree. “there.” I said, pointing to a homeless man. -Us vampires always struck on the weak/sick, and the homeless. I guess this was why humans didn’t really fear us. There were some hospitals that even donated dead bodies to us, though the blood of a dead human is stale, but sometimes we are desperate. –
Gerard nodded and we walked onto the streets. The man was asleep. I pushed the hood of his jacket off of this head and slid the cloth away from his throat. I lowered my head to his neck and seeped my teeth into the warm skin. I drank the warm, metallic liquid until I had drained him half. The other half was for Gerard. I stood up and motioned for Gerard to drink. He nodded and copied my actions.
Once we had finished our meal we headed back to my apartment. Gerard’s parents agreed for Gerard to sleep over, and I had a feeling this would be a great night.
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Gerard and I were watching a horror movie, called “The Human Centipede.” The idea was sort of fucked up, but at the same time amusing.
Once we were done the movie Gerard decided he wanted to listen to music, since the music he likes has swearing, and his parents don’t allow him to listen to it. I put on a play list of: Nirvana, The Smashing Pumpkins, Placebo, and Misfits. Of course, the first song that had to come on was “Fuck You” by Placebo. Gerard and I danced around my kitchen like the psychopaths we were.
And that’s when I decided I would say it. I would tell Gerard I loved him.
“Hey, Gee?” he looked up at me. “yeah?”
I took a shaky breath. “I-i- i lik-“ I stopped myself. I just couldn’t say it. -It was like being what the humans called ‘gay’ and Gerard’s parents are the only vampires that have been gay. Don’t believe me? It’s true though… -
“never mind.” Gerard looked at me with puppy eyes. “please tell me, Frankie.” I sighed
“it’s not important. You’ll know someday.”

Notes

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