Fight, My Love

"POV Gerard"

The same day I first saw Frank I talked to him after school. Sadly, I had just thought of him all day and didn't actually plan what I was going to say. Luckily, I had caught him looking at me a few times during class and at lunch, so I could use that to start a conversation. When school ended I walked outside and let the sun rays hit my skin as I closed my eyes and leaned against the wall. There was a light breeze that rustled the Autumn leaves. I sighed as I heard the crowd of teenagers storm out of the building. I thought I could never find Frank in this crowd, yet a caught a glimpse of a relatively short boy with jet black hair hanging loosely by his ears. I reached him within a few steps and tapped his shoulder. He turned around and looked awfully shocked. I'm shy, just not around people I know I want to talk to. As in, I'll be the most awkward shit until I decide to talk to you, if that makes sense. I grinned at him even though my mind went blank as his eyes met mine. I was terrified I would scare him if I even talked to him, and even more scared people around us would start associating us as a couple and make bullying worse. I pulled him aside, behind the school courtyard, by the side of the school. I asked him why he had been staring at me throughout the day, since that was the only thing I could think of. The question seemed to shock him, as if he thought I didn't realize. His cheeks suddenly got really red. I grinned again at this thought. I notice almost everything around me, whether it's a couple whispering about breaking up, or if someone is about to trip me. I wanted to know about him. So I decided to ask about his life before this school, I asked him some questions about why he moved, where he moved from, if he had siblings, simple stuff like that. He kept looking confused as I fired questions at him, but he answered. I was glad he did, I really did want to know him. He opened his mouth when there was a silence, as if he was planning to ask something himself. I didn't want to answer any questions, so I just kind of turned around thinking. I someone trusted him, he seemed to trust me, I mean otherwise you don't tell someone about your family and past life in such detail without walking away. I felt my arm sting from a fresh cut I had made just a few days ago. I stared at the ground for a moment thinking if I was really going to do what I was thinking. Nobody but my family and my closest friends know I cut. I'm not absolutely certain I can trust him. I get turned on by almost everyone, one extra person wouldn't matter, would it? I mumbled just loud enough for him to hear about the fact I was going to regret showing him my scars. I then sighed deeply, and pulled up my sleeves of my Ramones sweater. His first reaction was confusion, but just a second after it hit him and it was silence. Just dead silence and terrified look in his eyes. I apologized and quickly walked off, I didn't want him to see me crying. The next few days were treacherous. I had quite smoking a while back, and tossed most of my blades. Luckily I still had 2 so whenever I really needed it, I could take them out and use them, to then see the crimson red blood dripping down my arms, along with a feeling of rest, knowing the demons are leaving my mind. For a while. I tried not looking at Frank much, it was difficult, the slightly smaller boy was so attractive I couldn't handle not to look once in a while. I also noticed he barely looked at me. I longed for him but I knew I'd never get him after what I showed him. I should've known he couldn't handle it. I didn't really concentrate in class, I couldn't think straight, my mind always drifted towards Frank. If we'd ever talk again, what he thought of me now, simply his beautiful features. There was always something to think about. One day when I was having lunch with my friends, Bob, Ray, and my brother, Mikey. I know, it's sad one of my best friends is my brother, but he's one of the only ones that even wants to talk to me and he's always there for me so I can count on him whenever. I was having a conversation with Ray, I'm not even sure about what anymore, when I got a tap on my shoulder. Immediately assuming it was a jock wanting to push me around, I turned around, pissed. Just for once I wanted to be left alone. Then I saw him, it took me a while to realize it was him, but I quickly saw it was Frank. He stood behind me awkwardly, suddenly shocked, probably because I seemed so pissed. He stuttered a bit as he said, "C..can I talk to you, p..please.. G..gerard?" I sighed because it was probably going to be a conversation telling me I'm a freaky emo but I got up and walked with him. He led me to the bathrooms and checked all the stalls. He wanted us to be alone. He started talking to me about how it was okay and he had been willing to talk to me ever since that day. Then out of the blue I realized how much I cared for him and how thankful I was about the fact he wouldn't turn on me, not yet at least. I smiled and kissed him. I don't know why, it just happened. As his soft lips met mine, I closed my eyes hoping he was gay and thought I was at least a bit attractive and wouldn't push me away like I'm a complete freak. Which is actually exactly what I expected. Instead, I felt a little smile on his lips and him then quickly returning the kiss. His arms making his way down to my slim waist and mine working mine up to his chin, to push lips up against mine. We stood kissing for a while, I don't know how long it was, it become more intimate as we slowly walked towards the wall and when I pushed him up again it. His leg snaking around mine and our lips working forcefully as to get the most as possible. Stopping only to take quick breaks for breathing I ended up kissing his neck and smiling like a fool as it was exactly as I hoped it'd be in my dreams. The bell rang and I realized we were late. I told him I loved him and that truthfully, that's what I'd been wanting to do since he walked into first period that first day. He smiled and told me then it had to be done sometime. I grinned as he grabbed my hand and pulled my to class. As we entered I noticed Frank was really flustered buy before I could explain why we were late he said he was lost and luckily, I had found him and showed him the way to class. I was struggling not to laugh at his reason. We sat down next to each other at the back of the class, talking. I had showed him my sketchbook. He seemed amazed at my drawings, even the ones I was unsure about. Finally, noticing I was completely flustered, not knowing if I should show him this one, I turned the page slowly. I had drawn his yesterday during math. He smiled and flustered a light pink. He told me it was amazing and I felt my cheeks grow even hotter, if possible. I then put my sketchbook back in my backpack. I laced my fingers through his and looked at the front of the room, I didn't really pay attention though, especially because the clock showed we had 10 minutes left of class. I noticed Frank's small hand doing something next to me. He tapped my arm lightly as he slid a small piece of paper over to me. I felt my lips tugging into a smile as I read it a few times. I knew what I said the first time, I just couldn't believe it. Eventually, I looked around the class to make sure nobody was looking, and kissed his cheek. Then I whispered "of course". The beautiful man that is Frank had asked me to be his boyfriend, and delighted as I was, I said yes. Frank and I, wow. Maybe things really do get better. At the end of class I realized I didn't hear a single word the teacher had said that lesson, but I didn't mind. I'll get the notes from Mikey or Ray later. I thought before walking out the door as I laced my fingers around Frank's.

Notes

sorry I haven't uploaded in a while! It's just that I've been gone and busy and recently I haven't really wanted to write anything so I took a little break.
I will still be really busy up till the new year, so I won't be uploading frequently, or at all. But I promise I will try and to upload more when the new year begins :)
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