I'm Not OK (I Promise)

Helena opened her heavy eyes and her vision was foggy and she realised she was lying on a camp bed in a large white tent. Her eyes grew wide as her vision cleared revealing a slender boy with glasses sat cross legged by her bed drumming on his knees and humming a tune.

“Mikey?!” Helena gasped sitting up slightly in the bed, her head spinning slightly.

“You’re awake!” He smiled at her. “Here drink this.” He insisted passing her a can. At her suspicious look he added. “Don’t worry it’s just water, it’ll make you feel better.” Helena took the can and brought it to her lips.

“Wwhat am I doing here?” She stuttered.

“Gerard found you in the alley...” Began Mikey quietly. “He brought you back to our tent and he explained what happened with you and that creep. Don’t worry you are safe here.”

“Thank you.” Helena mumbled, then it crossed her mind that she was in My Chemical Romance’s tent and she was with Mikey fucking Way. “I’m like you biggest fan!” She burst out. “I love you guys so much!”

“Aww you’re really cute. I’m going to go get the other guys.”

Mikey left and Helena pulled out her phone. Her eyes went wide as she saw the time, it was 2am; John would be going mad. She began to dial his number when all the guys entered the room.

“Hey, how are you feeling?” Gerard asked softly, crouching to her height.

“Okay, I guess.”

“Can you tell us your name?” Frank asked, stepping forward.

“Helena.” She answered. “I need to call my-“

“Your parents?” Ray stepped in.

“Mmy guardian.” Helena corrected.

“Guy’s let’s let her talk alone.” Bob said and they all left, Mikey gave a quick wave at Helena then disappeared into the night. Helena took a deep breath then finished dialling John’s number. He picked up on the first ring making a wave of guilt pass over her.

“HELENA!?” John shouted down the line.

“John.” Helena whispered.

“Helena Mulgan where the hell are you?” He demanded.

“I’m sorry I just…I fainted then the band I came to see brought me to their tent and looked after me and I’ve only just woken up and...” She was forced to stop because tears had made their way into her throat.

John softened hearing her sadness. “its okay hells, you must be very overwhelmed right now. Just you stay there I’ll come get you.”

“Okay.” She mumbled.

“See you soon-“John began.

“Wait...John...I’ve been seeing Ashton again.”

She heard John mutter under his breath then he quickly said. “Just hang in there okay? I’ll be there soon.”

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“Thank you so much for helping her.” John thanked the guys as Helena was freshening herself up in the nearby toilet.

“It’s the least we could do.” Frank insisted.

“Is Helena...okay?” Gerard asked and John saw genuine concern in his eyes. “Because when I found her she was harming herself and I don’t think she’s okay.”

“Not again.” John mumbled to himself making all the guys do a double take.

“Again?” Ray asked.

“Helena lost her Mother and Sister a few years back, I’m her therapist and she’s been diagnosed with schizophrenia.”

The guys all looked at each other sadly, why did things like this happen to good people?

“So you’re her guardian?” Bob asked.

“Yeah, I work with her and a few other patients but she’s the only one I live with because you see she doesn’t have anyone else.”

The boys all looked gravely to the floor and John added. “I better go take Helena home now.” As he turned to leave Gerard stated clearly.

“She has us.”

John stopped in his tracks and a thought occurred to him. Would they though? No…it was a dumb idea. Although they seem serious. He cleared his throat and began to ask them…

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