Home Is Where The Heart Is

Gerard's P.O.V "Yes." Kat said, shyly. I smiled as I pulled her in for a hug. I don't understand what's happening to me. I've known her less than a day and now she's my girlfriend. My first girlfriend. My first kiss. I refuse to rush things with her. She obviously needs that. So I won't make the first move to...well...ya know. She will have to be the first to make a move. Although I would rather we waited till we were both a little older. I know, I know. I'm a little old fashioned with that. "Are you sure, Gerard?" Kat interrupted my thoughts as she pulled away to look at me. I smile as I cup her face in my hands. "Yes, Kat." I placed a brief kiss on her lips. "But I need to be upfront with you now. Your my...err...first girlfriend. Actually your kinda my first kiss too. So I really need to take things slow. We can go on date's and hang out." She smiled. "I'd like that." I stroked her cheek. "It's seven thirty now." I stated. "We could go out to a movie then sit on the beach and watch the stars for a while. What do you think?" She smiled wider. "I'd like that." I led her downstairs. I picked up my wallet and keys then led her to my trans am. Of course I told everyone we were going out. Mikey had just grinned. Smug little sod. He knew we were going to get together. I opened the car door for her and closed it when she was in. We arrived at the cinema ten minutes before a bad horror movie. We sat in the back row. There was only about five other people here. But I was okay with that. I reached my hand out to grab Kat's. I threaded my fingers with hers and rested them on the armrest between us. I saw her smile and blush. "So the emo faggot has a girlfriend." A familiar voice behind me said. Jake fucking Aston. Because I didn't like fighting, he used me as his human punch bag at school. I tried to ignore him. "I'm talking to you, faggot." He snapped, grabbing my black hair and pulling hard. I dropped Kat's hand as he leaned over to get in my face. "Don't fucking ignore me." I could feel the anger rising in me. I have to control it. "Leave him alone." I heard Kat cry out. I looked over at her to see Ben Saunders and Vincent Forester holding her back. My blood began to boil. Oh god. I need Mikey. Kat squealed as Ben licked her cheek. I snapped. I twisted round and pushed Jake backwards. Then I pushed Ben and Vincent away from Kat and grabbed her arm, running out and to the car. We managed to get in the car and pull away. But it was too late. I was too far gone. I somehow managed to get us home in one piece. As soon as I stopped the car I closed my eyes. "Mikey." I said, shaking. Kat jumped out the car and ran towards the house, shouting Mikey. I'm way too far gone. I locked the doors before Mikey could open. He froze and looked at me. He shook his head, a pleading look in his eyes. I looked down. I tried to calm down, my breathing becoming ragged. Oh fuck. It's too late. I looked back at Mikey. His eyes widened with understanding and fear. "NO." He shouted as I stuck the car in reverse and backed out fast. I swung the car round in one fluid movement then sped away. A look in the rear view mirror showed Kat in tears and Mikey shouting Dad. I stopped the car by a old abandoned warehouse. I got out and entered the building. I walked towards a metal door and punched it, hard. I kept punching it over and over again, alternating hands. Blood poured from all my knuckles. The door turning red. A picture of what happened in the cinema earlier just fuelled me to hit harder. Doing to the door what I wanted to do to them. But my mind won't let me. I can't hurt anyone. Not again. I punched the door one more time, hearing my bones break. Then I dropped to my knees and threw my head back and screamed. Memories of what I did to my classmate, Joshua Harkness, flooded my mind as I laid down and curled into the fetal position. Flashback~~~~~~~~~~ "Oh look, it's that faggot, Gerard and his wife." Joshua teased as I walked in the school with Mikey. I was thirteen. Mikey was eleven. We ignored him. Then he grabbed Mikey by the throat, smashing his back against the wall. Mikey was turning blue. He couldn't breathe. So I lost it. I launched myself at Joshua, knocking him to the ground. I straddled his legs and pounded my fists into his face. It took four teachers to get me off. Joshua had to go to hospital. Twenty stitches to his nose. The students and teachers said it was because I was protecting my brother. Joshua said the same thing. So I was let off with a caution. But I didn't like what I'd done. So we moved to new Jersey. End flashback~~~~~~~~~~ I can't ever hurt someone again. Even if I have to break every bone in my body. "Gerard?" I didn't move as Mikey shouted me. I heard four lots of footsteps running my way. I just closed my eyes. "Oh god." Kat sounded so worried. "Mikey." Dad said. "Get the blanket out of the car. Donna, take Kat to sit in the car. Mikey will drive Gerard's car home. I'll sit Gerard in the back of my car with Kat." I felt a blanket being wrapped around me. Then I was lifted up. I was soon laid in the backseat with my head on Kat's lap. She stroked my hair. "Will he be okay?" She asked. Dad started the car. "Donna will clean him up at home." He said. "He'll be okay." "I don't understand why he'd do this." Mum sighed. "Gerard hates fighting because he had a really bad experience." She said. "But when someone he loves or cares about is hurt or upset, he gets angry. But he refuses to hurt anyone. So he hurts himself. We found a way to control it. But I guess he was too far gone. The kids at the cinema bully Gerard really bad. But if it's not aimed at a loved one, he can handle it. He's not got this bad in a long time." Kat must have told them about what happened. "Why isn't he awake?" Kat asked, tearfully. "He is awake." Dad said. "He just needs Mikey to talk him round. He's always protected his little brother. So he's the only one who can get a response out of him. You'd think they were twins sometimes." Once at home, Dad carried me in and laid me on my bed. Mum dressed my wounds while Mikey sat by me, talking. "One day we will get our dream." He stated. "The bright lights shining down on us as I play my bass and you sing. Side by side, as always. Because no one will ever pull us apart. Brothers and best friends forever. No matter where life takes us, we'll still have each other." I smiled. "Always." I whispered, smiling up at him. "Forever." Mikey added. "Bound..." "....By blood." Mikey smiled. "Welcome back."

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