What doesn't destroy you, leaves you broken instead.

Today is the first day of my 'deit'. I decided to make a blog for my journey, so others can gain inspiration and I can keep track of my thoughts. I create a brand new blog on tumblr and name it 'gsjourney' that way I am anonymous but with my description and posts, people will know what my blog is all about. Obviously it's not pro ana I'm just... It's for me okay? No one else. I make the color theme white and ice blue going with the snowflake theme. For my description i write :

Gee.
Goal weight: 105
Current weight : 122
Currently following the Snowflake Ana Diet
Follow to see my journey.

Gee can be unisex so i don't worry about anyone knowing who I am. I decide to skip breakfast since I can only have 300 calories today. I will just eat a small dinner so my mom doesn't flip out. I hear frank and Mikey downstairs so I guess he either slept over or just came over. I look at the time and realize its already 1:30. I sigh and roll out of my bed, knowing if I don't make an appearance my family (my mom rather) will be angry with me.
I tip-toe down the stairs and go into the living room where Mikey and Frank are.

"Hi, Gerard." Says Frank. What? Frank? Saying hi? To me? What is this?

"Uh, hey?" I say slash ask. I'm pretty confused seeing as frank rarely acknowledges me.

"Yeah um Mikey? Where's mom?" I ask to make things maybe less awkward. Well, for me. Everything is awkward to me.

"She had to go into work. Couldn't you have just texted her?" He retorts in a snobbish tone.

"Yeah i mean I guess I could have I just thought, ya know it would be easier," i ramble in embarrassment. I'm so stupid im so stupid im so stupid. I need to get out of here.

"Hey chill man." Frank says to Mikey.

What is this? Frank talking to me then frank semi sticking up for me? Are the hunger pains making me hallucinate? Who knows.i All I know is my head hurts and I want to sleep.
I walk to the kitchen and get some Advil from the cupboard. I take 3 then place the bottle where it was and walk back upstairs. I go in my room and as soon as I sit down, I realize I do not want to sleep. I want to be by Frank.

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