Gerard's P.O.V

Driving down the road I feel the tears forming in my eyes, I blink a million times trying not to let them fall. My face gets really blotchy and red when I cry, not the most attractive thing in the world. I can't think right now, because if I think I'll do more than cry. I'll force it out of her, make her tell me. Then I'd find him, them, her whoever the fuck hurt her like that and I'd kill them. I hear her scream between every thought I have. My knuckles turn pale white as I tighten my grip on the steering wheel.

"Okay Gee, you can do this." I give myself a little pep talk as I park the car in the shopping center parking lot. I breath and step out the car. It feels as if everyone knows where I'm going. I walk around the center looking for the shop. I finally find it, thank god I was just giving up hope.
I take a deep breath and walk in. I try not to look around at all the naughty underwear, the sex toys, the handcuffs and restraints. I'm not here for that. I'm not going to tie her up and force her to do something she wouldn't want to do. I've come looking for a game, I heard Frank talk about it before. It gives you all different intimate things to do without actually having sex. I think it's what we need right now. To pressure on us to have sex, just getting to know each other.

A shop assistant comes over and asks if I need any help with anything. I explain to her what I'm looking for, she points me in the right direction and I thank her for the help. "Well done Gee." I say as I walk out the shop, "You survived your first sex shop"

I walk back to the car with a huge grin on my face. I hope Jasmine will agree to play, I hope it'll bring us closer to each other. Closer to what we want together. I love her, and want to be with her forever.

I stop off at a pizza shop, hell why not. I'm in a happy mood, so while not share the love. Well just as long as they know that it's a one off thing. I get three large pizzas, garlic bread, wedges the full works.

"Babies, I'm home." I call as I open the door, "I have pizza."

"In here." I hear Mikey call. I poke my head around the door and see him, Frank and Ray sitting watching some rubbish on the tv.

"You'll get square eyes." I say, throwing pizza down onto the coffee table. "Start without us, we'll be down in a minute."

I practically run up the stairs to Jasmine's room. I can't wait to show her.

"Jasmine" I sing, pushing her door open. "Jasmine?"

I see my DVD standing up against her pillow with a note next to it.

Gee,
I'm sorry. I have to go, for a little why.
I can't explain right now, but know that I will always love you.
You'll be the first thing I think of when I wake and the last before
I sleep.
Yours forever,
Jasmine xoxo

Notes

Sorry about the short chapter, the next will be amazing. I promise! :)
xoxo