Jasmine's P.O.V

Well the fucking hell did I just do that? I start to clean up the room, I can't look at him. I'll cry. Why won't he take me away from all this. I feel him watching me, I know he hasn't left because I haven't heard the door open or close yet. Just leave, please don't make this hard. It's like my brain doesn't even think before it sends the words to my mouth. I want to be with him, but I keep messing everything up, I feel a silent tear fall down my cheek, and an arm wrap around my waist. He doesn't hate me. I turn around and place my head on his shoulder.

"I'm so sorry." I cry, "Everything is just hard."

"Shh." he kisses the top of my head and pulls me harder against him, "One day, I'll take you away from everything, I just want to know you better. I want to make you happy. One day we will have our own place, a dog, children. I see that kind of future with you, we just need to take it one step at a time."

"I'm a mess right now, Gee. I wish I could tell you." I sigh and look down at the floor.

His hand pulls my face up, his eyes staring into mine, "You can tell me anything. Anything, when you're ready." He pushed his lips against mine, I wrap my arms around his neck and kiss him back, his tongue runs along the bottom of my lip and I let him in, our tongues dance against each other fighting for dominance. My whole body feels numb, apart from my stomach, which feels like it's going to explode from all the excitement. I pull away from him and smile.

"Sorry" he says "I had to, you drive me crazy."

I sit back down on the pillows and pat the one next to me, Gee sits down, moving closer to me until our arms are touching.

"I want to make love to you." I whisper and kiss the side of this cheek.

He turns his head so we are kissing again, he slowly lays me down, and his body is on top of mine. I feel safe, not like before. The image of Mikey and the kitchen suddenly in the front of my mind. I don't know what to do. Should I make him stop? I want him too, but I'm so scared what if he leaves me for all these mixed signals.

I lay there, as his hands explore my body, moving down the side of my body, while this tongue still explores mine. Forget him, enjoy this moment, this is how your first time should have been. I pull my self away from the horrible thoughts and run my hands through Gee's hair, it feels so soft, I pull at it lightly and bite the bottom of his lip. I have pretty much no idea what to do, just going with what feels natural. I run my fingernails down his back, and arch my back as he slides his hand under my bra, I want him to feel my breasts, all of them, he takes his fingers and slowly pinches one before rolling it in between them, I let out a moan, and feel him smile into our kiss. He pulls away from my lips and starts kissing my neck, my collar bone, he tugs at the bottom of my top, I sit up on my elbows and help him to take it off.

He kisses the top of my breasts before pulling the cup underneath them, pushing them up higher, he runs his tongue along one, while playing and pulling at the other. I can't help but let out a moan, I reach down to try and reach him, when he notices what I'm trying to do, he helps moving himself up. I take off his belt and unbutton the top of his jeans, I run my fingernails about the top of his boxers before putting my hand in and pulling him out, his cock feeling huge in my tiny hands. I panic a little, how the hell is it going to fit?! I start running my hand up and down his length, his hands move to my skirt, he doesn't bother to take it off, he just pulls it up and my underwear down, he starts running his fingers against my clit. I call out his name, before biting my lips down. Gee pushes his fingers inside me, stroking my insides slowly, before speeding up.

"I need you." I moan, "Gee, I need you."

He kissed my lips before positioning him self on top of me. I can feel his cock pushing against my entrance, "Are you sure? You're ready?" I nod and pull his face to mine, kissing him as passionately as I could before he entered me.

I scream. I don't even know why. I panic all I can see is Mikey's face, his hands holding me down. Fuck I'm going to be sick. "Stop," I shout out, "Please, stop." I start sobbing, Gerard pulls out of me as quick as he can and scoops me into his arms.

"I'm so sorry." He cradles me against his naked body, "Tell me, what is it?"

The door to my bedroom opens and he's standing there, looking at us, Gerard holding me tight while we are both naked. This isn't good. He's going to kill me. "Mikey" I gasp before I pick up the sheet and wrap it around us.

Notes

Sorry It's taken me a while to update, I've just been so busy lately, but I PROMISE a new chapter will be up Thursday xoxo