Maybe i am?

Gerard's P.O.V.

i opened my eyes. i was still at frank's house. I stood up and saw my phone. Fuck! It was 10 o' clock and i had a million messages. it was oliver. i didn't want to think of that at the moment. i left my phone there and went to see where frank was. He was in the kitchen.

-Good morning dude!

-Good morning Frank!- he was shirtless and i blushed when i saw him. he was like perfect right? i stared at his body and he noticed it because smiled and went to his bedroom and i was at the top of all shame. She came back with a t-shirt.

- mm... frank, i'm leaving!

-B-but, breakfast?

-I'd love but i have to go, thanks a lot! really!

-okay! so we going out today still?

-sure, at 4? - i thought of oli... we would be alone i had to escape from him, yeah i know, i was the worst person ever! but i didn't know how to handle that.

-At 4- he replied

i left and walked home. When i got there mom was cookking breakfast.

-Good morning mom!

-Good morning gee, how was your night with oli?

-Okay....- i said doubtfully- And where's mikey?

-Still sleeping! - i saw him like ..... never! i wasn't that close to my brother.

I went to my bedroom and started reading oliver's messages.

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I'm sorry gee! i just.... fuck!

Gee.... please why did you leave? I'm worried where did you go?

Gerard! I didn't mean to scare you.... you my bro and i don't want you to leave me

34 more messages...

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I didn't want to keep reading that.... that was breaking my ehart. My bud was suffering and i didn't fucking know what to do in this case! i had to take all that pain away from me even if that meant hurting myself.

-mom, i forgot something at oli's home

-Okay come back soon! breakfast's almost ready!

-right!

I walked to his house and his mother opened the door.

-Hey hun! How are you?

-I'm good mrs sykes what about you? - i smiled at her, he looked like oliver

-I'm fine, thanks, hun! come in, oli's in his bedroom!- he was a really kind woman

-Thanks mrs. sykes- i went upstairs and opened oliver's bedroom door. He had a white t- shirt and pijama pants and was laying in bed.

-Hey oli! - he hid something fastly and i could notice it

-Wh-what the hell are you doing you idiot?! - i yelled at him.... he was cutting. He stood up and looked at me i looked away

-I just... i just thought you'd never talk to me again...- he looked down

-look up- he did slowly, i kissed him. I didn't want him to feel rejected, i know how that felt. I would learn how to love him surely, even if i didn't know what i was doing. He was like... what the hell is happening? at first but then he kissed me back taking my waist and pushing me hear him, i was kind of nervous, liying oli made me not to enjoy the kiss. I felt like the worst person in the world and that was not everything, i had to keep on what i started. i stopped the kiss, he smiled, i did too.

-U still comig to day with me to the park?

-Sure! -he kissed me again smiling, and closed the door...

Notes

what did you imagine when you saw "the kiss"? lol i'm sorry uwu