Maybe i am?

Gerard's P.O.V.

I was talkin to oli who was still really sad, we were watching tv while eating pizza. But he didnt really seem to pay attention to the cartoons i frequently watched. His look lokoed lost. He was thoughtful and his eyes looked empty .

-oli, what's wrong?

-i'm just... Nevermind! -i kissed his cheek-

oli! I know youre not okay! That's why im here!

-i was just thinking about stupid stuff... Its like just bad things happen.

-Dont you dare saying that again!- he missed a little bit of optimism- you'll see things will get better!

-yeah...- he said lookin down. I became sad. I was gonna be one of the reasons of his sadness when he found out i liked someone else.

-o-Oli... Im going to take a walk. Ill be back soon!

-gerard, its 1 am!

-dont worry! I'll take a a few minutes!

-k, just dont come too late, its dangerous - left and walked down the street putting my hands in the pocket of my hoodie. It was really cold. I felt kind of empty and a lot of things were confusing me and making me feel bad and lost. I looked down until i saw this dark alley. There was a guy there. I was a little scared... I steped back slowly and the guy looked at me. It was frank. What the hell was he doing there? He stared at me.

-f-frank?- he smiled and i looked up.

-geraard!- he said excited and i frowned

-what are u doing here? I sat next to him -he giggled

- u know? Nights pretty beautiful right? He was acting weird

-what are you doing here at 1 am?- i askeed serious

-just... Calm down gee... Goo with the floow- he giggled. I stared at his face and i could notice how red his eyes were

-hoooly crap frank! You smoking weed!?- he noded slowly and laughed

-fraank! I took the cigarette in his hands, he wresteld weakly but he wasnt strong enough to take it from me-

w-why you do this- i asked slowly

-the world... Is a lot more beautiful! I can see colorful stuff... And my mind is so calm and...- he giggled, then he smiled sadly looking down -and what are you doing here gee?- i loved how he pronounced my name in that way just he could do

-just... Think? Dont change the topic!

-i dont want to talk about it gee! I know im a crappy guy, son, friend, boyfriend, student and anything you want. Im a crappy everything! But theres nothing i can do! Please let me enjoy this while it lasts. Judge me if you want!

-frank- i said really softly touching his cheek, he blushed lightly, he was so fucking adorable- im not going to judge you! Youre not crappy... Youre great! Just... We all have deffects... Thats what makes us us, and youre perfect just the way you are... Even with that defects. Please dont do this... This damages you! he thought a little opening his mouth slowly and closed it snappy. Then he seemed like he was gonna say something

- thanks gee...-he looked down- you dont know how much better you make me feel. But... What if it damages me? Who cares about me? Who fuckin cares!?-the effect of the weed seemed to end because his voice was becoming louder- and, thats the only way i can be happy though

-I care about you frank! I-i thought a lot of what i was going to say- i l-love you frank- i could see how his eyes turned shiny and his cheels blushy- aaand that's a lie, there are a loooot of permanent and damageless ways you can be happy! - he kissed me. i think he didnt even hear the last thing i kissed him back. It felt great! Like... Heaven! His lips gave me peace... I couldnt think of anything else, there we were. He, a badass. Me, a shy guy, kissing at 1 am in the darkness ofan alley. What a weird scene uh? It was magic

-Frank- i said softly breaking the kiss and coming back to reality

-gee?- he said opening his beautiful big bright eyes

-would you be my... Boyfriend? - i said scared. I didnt want to ruin it all. I looked down, he didnt say anything Gee...- he bit his lip -its okay, nevermind! Im so stupid!- i blushed ashamed

- sure! I want to be your boyfriend gee! - i smiled big and kissed him

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