still hiding

who is Alex? i think to myself. How did he hurt Frankie? i wish we where still in school so i could ask him. Frankie was sobbing, he looked so hurt. his eyes looked empty and they help no hope inside them. Who knew someone could be so fragile. When i tapped his shoulder it was like holding an injured rabbit. When i help hm in my arms i could feel him shivering, he was crying and i could feel his heart pumping rapidly in his chest. He was so innocent. How could someone hurt him so badly? He was a wreck, he needed help desperately. Except couldn’t give it to him. Maybe he might be the person who i could finally talk to.
my entire life i have been silent, hiding behind a stone wall. lies i lived by. Everyone was always so happy. I couldn’t be the killjoy. i put a zipper on my mouth and locked it shut and melted the key. I hid my cut up legs from everyone. I would wear a mask so no one could see my pain. No one knows i am depressed, not even veronica. Everyone thinks am so happy. Maybe i am a good actor. He is obviously depressed and... oh my god i am terrible person for being excited about this. Its just that if he is , I will finally have someone to talk to who will understand. That what i have always needed. We can help eachother through this miserable place called life! I might finally be happy and not need to fake a smile!!! This could be the best thing to ever happen to me!

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4-2-15