still hiding

gerards pov
I linger around the school serching all the nooks and crannies of this god damn place. He only had a few seconds to hide so he cant be that far. Does he really think he can hide from me? I have been going here for several years, I know this place like i know the back of my hand. I also am Very worried so of course i will do anything to find him. I push open the heavy gym door. As i open it the door makes rusty squeaky noises. He is inn here some where i just know it. I wonder off to the storage locker. I dont want to barge in on him if he is in there. i pull my hand nto a fist shape and lightly tap on the door "Frankie, sweetie i know you are in there. Please let me explain" i say with a soothing voice that might make him feel safer and increase my chances of being let in. i press my ear against the door and i hear his breathing getting heavier. Suddenly i heart faint whimpers and cries. "Gerard you dont understand" i tell him. "YES I DO, YOU ARE JUST LIKE ALL THE REST" he says in a loud shouty pitchy voice . Thats it, i place my hand on the handle and yank the door open revealing frank curled up with fear and tears invading his eyes. "P-PL-please dont hurt me, I'm sorry" he says in a voice that is so sad. H sounds and looks terrafied of me. i bite my lip and shut the door behind me. I stare down at his small fragile body as he sits on the floor propped up by gym mats. I sit down on my knees so that i'm leval to him. I look him deep in the eyes and place my hands onto his thin thighs. I lean intohis so that our faces our close and our breathing is heavy and his is warm against me. I take my thumb and wipe it under his eyes to remove the tears he has covering his face. after i let my hand cup his face and i lean into him and softly place my lips against his. I just stay there for a few seconds before frank pushes me over and lies on top of me without breaking the kiss. i bring my arms down and wrap them around his waist as he holds my neck. he pulls away from me with our faces only a few inches apart "Gerard i don’t want to get hurt again. Does this kiss mean anything to you? You are going to end up leaving like everyone else. Please don’t use me" he says sounding rather serious. "frank you don’t understand, you don’t know why pushed you or why i regretted this and felt guilty" i pause trying to prepare myself for what i have to say."Frank i pushed you because i felt like i was taking advantage of you. As i kissed you i forgot about all the pain you where in. I forgot how vulnerable you are. I had to stop myself but i didn’t know how so i pushed you. I didn’t mean to be so forceful. I regretted taking advantage of you. I also felt guilty because well um i have a girlfriend. Kissing you is cheating on her. I do want to leave her. I'm not straight and i needed her to cover everything up. But then i found you and i became comfortable with whom i am. But I’m still with her but i need to leave her so i could be happy with you if you would let me. But until i mange to leave her we can not do anything like kissing okay frank. I'm sorry, I'm sorry I'm sorry and once again I'm sorry and any way i can make it up to you i will" Frank looks at me with tears filling his hazel eyes. "I'm sorry gerard, I wish i knew you had a girlfriend, if i did i would not have done any of this. I understand. But gerard i didnt mind the kiss. I wanted it . I would take one form you any time. Don't feel bad about it. Thats the last thing i want. " He says sounding mature and understandng of everything i just told him.

Notes

Sorry killjoys it takes so long to update. I tried to make this chapter long to make t up to you guys. Please dont hate me!
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