Sugar, You'll Be Okay (Frerard)

"Bert McCracken." Were the first words Gerard spoke as they all stumbled into his house. They huddled together on the living room floor, Frank trying to hold onto every word Gerard spoke.
"Gee, you don't have to-" Mikey was cut off by Gerard shaking his head.
"He was my first boyfriend. Three years ago." Frank was confused, but he let his boyfriend continue, scooting onto his lap and cuddling close to him. "He, erm, was also my drug dealer." Frank said nothing to this, a little shocked at most. "I really did love him, but uhm he ruined my life." Gerard's voice was breaking.
"Baby-"
"I was going to be an artist." Gerard cut him off. "And fuck if I cared. The only thing that mattered was getting high with Bert, it made me feel like I was on top of my world and the center of his. when I got the letter telling me to clean up my act or find a better job, I did the latter. My job was going on runs for Bert and uhm I'd be rewarded." Gerard scratched the back of his neck, a blush forming in his cheeks. Frank hugged him, but he was barely aware of his boyfriend. "My reward was always the same: I got to snort coke and make out with Bert. Fun, hmm? But one night he took it too far. I'd been bad, he said. I needed to be punished. So he uhm he beat me and then uh r-raped me and I ran away...I told Mikey..." Gerard was almost hyperventilating now, holding onto Frank like his life depended on it. Perhaps it did. "But that only made things worse. He found us and him abusing me lasted for a whole year and I-I'm sorry Frank...so sorry. If you want to leave me that's okay, because I would leave me room I'm broken and dirty and who'd want that?" Gerard was sobbing now, his words barely eligible.
"Me." Frank whispered into his chest. "I'd want that. you're so perfect, Gee, so beautiful."
"I don't deserve you." Gerard murmured, hanging his head.
"You deserve more than me. I mean, I couldn't even get out of the fucking ties you put on me."
"Shit." Gerard breathed, laughing a little. "I forgot about that. Did Mikey?"
"You bet. I never ever want to see that again, clear?" He warned Gerard playfully.
"Ooh, Frankie." Gerard whispered in his boyfriend's ear. "Letting someone else see you naked. Such a bad boy." Gerard breathed in his ear.
"You guys are sick." Mikey muttered, clearly disgusted as he stood up.

Notes

Hey a new chapter!
I'd say, "School's letting out soon, I'll be updating more often"
But let's be real; that's bullshit.
Love you <3