“Shelly, look.”

The young girl followed her friend’s gaze. “What?”

“Over by the DVD’s. That guy. Doesn’t he look like Gerard Way?”

Her friend laughed, “Are you serious?”

“I saw the same guy in here a few weeks ago.” Carla said softly while ducking behind a display of CD’s when the man in question started pushing his cart in their direction.

Shelly giggled hiding along with her friend, “This is ridiculous. You can’t really believe that’s Gerard Way. What the hell would he be doing here?”

Carla watched the man closely, “I don’t know but damn, it really looks like him.” She was a huge My Chemical Romance fan so spotting someone who looked like the lead singer was exciting.

“You’re being weird.” Shelly sighed, “You know that’s not him.”

“Hey, walk by and see if he’s wearing a wedding ring.”

Shelly stared at her, “What?”

“Gerard is married, he always wears his ring.” Carla said watching the man as he moved towards the grocery area of the store.

“This is stupid.” Shelly said rolling her blue eyes."

“Please.” Carla begged.

“Why don’t you walk by him?”

“I’m afraid I’ll start giggling if he looks at me.” Carla explained. “Come on, do this for me.”

Shelly sighed, “Fine but we have to be going soon. My mom is picking us up in front and she’ll be pissed if we’re not out there.”

Carla nodded. As she watched her friend walking in the direction the man had headed she remembered what she’d read on the Net this morning. There were some ugly rumors going around about Gerard and the woman who was once his daughter’s nanny. She didn’t believe them, in her mind Gerard was happily married to Lindsey, another of her idols.

Gerard chose several cans of soup then placed them in his cart. He had just turned the cart around when a young girl almost ran into him. “Sorry.” He muttered.

The girl smiled, “My bad.” She continued walking down the aisle.

“Well?” Carla whispered as her friend rejoined her.

“Shit, I almost ran into the guy.” She laughed.

“Was he wearing a wedding ring?”

Shelly shook her head, “Nope. So see it’s not him.”

Carla sighed, “Maybe he and Lindsey are broke up.”

“What?” Shelly rolled her eyes, “Man, you don’t give up. First you say it can’t be him if he’s not wearing a wedding ring now you think it might be because he and his wife are broke up.”

“Well I told you what’s been going around on the Net.” Carla said sadly.

“Oh give it a rest.” Shelly glanced at her watch. “It ain’t him and we have to go.”

The girls started towards the store but as they neared the check out area Carla spotted the man again. Quickly she pulled out her camera and took a picture while he was thumbing through a magazine.

“Carla” Shelly grabbed her hand, “Come on. That’s creepy, taking some guys picture.”

Carla pocketed her phone. “I think it’s cool he looks so much like Gerard.” She said defending her actions.

“You’re insane.” Her friend laughed as the girls ran towards the front entrance of the store.

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Gerard arrived back at the motel feeling slightly anxious. This was the longest time he’d been away from Lucy since meeting her. First he’d had to wait at the feed store for the chicken food to be brought out from the back and then he’d had to wait in a long line to pay at Wal-Mart.

He parked the truck in the shade then got out moving quickly towards the motel. He had the key already in his hand as he reached the door.

Lucy was pulled out of the dream by the sound of the door being opened. Her eyes flew open and her heart started racing.

Gerard closed the door then quickly crossed over to the bed. When he saw her face he was immediately alarmed, “Lucy, what’s wrong? Are you sick?”

She blinked trying to dispel the remainder of the dream from her mind.

He gently placed his hand on her forehead noting with relief she didn’t reel warm. “Honey, are you sick?”

She shook her head slowly, “No”

“Oh” He said believing he understood why she looked upset. “Another dream?”

“Yes, a dream.” She whispered looking down.

Gerard sighed believing she’d been dreaming about Rafe again. “Oh”

Lucy looked up to see the sadness covering his face. “I wasn’t dreaming about Rafe” she whispered.

He looked up and their eyes locked, “What then?”

Lucy suddenly looked down, “Nothing.”

Gerard was confused by her words and her actions. “Nothing? Come on Lucy, you were obviously dreaming about something that upset you.”

“I wasn’t upset.” She said softly. “No, definitely not upset.”

“Please explain.” He said reaching out to stoke her cheek. “I really wanna understand.”

“I…” She snapped her mouth shut. “Oh hell.” She muttered. Gerard was surprised when she grabbed his hand. Moving it under the covers she sighed, “See?”

A huge grin covered his face as his fingers felt the wetness between her legs. “Was I in this dream?”

“Of course you were.” Lucy felt her cheeks blush.

“Tell me.” He urged not moving his hand but instead brushing his fingertips against her heat.

“Can’t.” She started to get up. “You’ve got groceries in the car.”

“Oh shit.” He whispered, “You’re embarrassed.”

“Well yeah.” She refused to look at him.

“Come on Lucy, you’re talking to a guy who you caught jerking off last night because he had to keep his hands off you. If I can get over being embarrassed about that you can get over having an erotic dream, right?”

She sighed, “I guess but it’s never happened before.”

“Makes me pretty fuckin’ proud I was in it.” He grinned, “So you gonna tell me?” His fingers were still rubbing, teasing her so much that she was squirming.

“But the groceries.”

Gerard smiled, “No problem. Truck is parked in the shade. I’ll just run and get the bags that have the perishables. I’ll set them right over there on the air conditioner.”

Lucy suddenly grinned, “Suppose that would be okay.”

He leaned forward to brush his lips against hers, “Then you’ll tell me?”

“I’d rather show you.” She giggled.

That was the answer he was waiting for. Reluctantly he removed his hand then stood. “Be right back.”

“Uh, Gerard?”

He turned with is hand on the door knob waiting.

“I’m not sure if you’ll be okay with it.”

“Why?”

“Well because….because I get to be in charge.”

He gave her a surprised look “You really think that might bother me?”

She shrugged.

“Lucy, it more than alright with me. You can do anything you want and I’m good with it.”

She smiled slightly, “Really?”

“Yeah” He said softly, “Really. Matter of fact the idea excites the fuck out of me.”

Lucy’s body was on fire again, “Hurry and get the groceries.”

“As you wish” He smiled then pulled open the door.

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Slowly Mike opened the box that had just been delivered. Alicia stood nearby watching, her heart heavy when she saw her husband’s hands were shaking. They had been waiting all morning for the delivery and while Mikey had tried to hide his fear she’d seen it in his eyes.

“Oh fuck.” Mikey whispered as he lifted Gerard’s duffle bag out of the box to place it on the kitchen table. The bag was ripped and covered with dried mud. Mikey took a deep breath then unzipped it.

Alicia moved to stand beside him.

As Mikey began to slowly lift the contents out of the bag he tried to remain calm. However when he lifted out one particular tee his breath caught. “This was one of his favorites.” Mikey said holding the piece of clothing tightly in his hand.

“It IS one of his favorites.” Alicia said knowing she needed to remain positive for her husband. “You see, he packed for a trip. He took clothes he likes.”

Mikey set the tee down then removed the rest of the clothing. Near the bottom he found Gerard’s passport and the bundle of money the police had placed in a plastic bag. However as he lifted it out that bag he was shocked to see something else. “Oh fuck” Mikey pulled open the bag, “Look.”

“His wedding ring.” Alicia whispered.

“Gee never took it off.” Mikey’s voice was shaking. “Never.”

She placed her hand on his shoulder, “Mikey, we both know his marriage was over. I’m sure Gee knew it too when he took off the ring. That’s why it was in the bag. Don’t read anything into this.”

“How can I not read anything into this?” Mikey asked his eyes full of tears. “My brother is missing. Yeah, obviously he knew his marriage was over and he was distraught.”

“I’m sure he was upset when he took the ring off.” Alicia said slowly, “But the fact that he packed clothes he liked, took cash with him, just points to the fact that he wanted to get away from things. Shit, he probably has no idea his bag has been found, he has no idea how upset we all are.”

Mikey sat down, his eyes still on the bag. “It looks like it’s been through a tornado, doesn’t it?”

She pulled out the chair next to him and sat. “Yeah, the way the handles are twisted, the mud…”

“So if the bag was taken by a tornado…” He couldn’t go on.

Alicia placed her hand on his arm. “Honey, the police told you, there was no sign of his car.” She tried to smile, “And you gotta admit it’s a pretty sweet vehicle, I’m sure it wouldn’t go unnoticed.”

Mikey suddenly turned to look at her, “I want to hire a private investigator. I’ve been thinking that’s the best thing to do. I don’t want the fact that Gee is missing to go public.”

Alicia nodded slowly, “Yeah, that’s probably the best thing to do right now. They can track him down…”

Mikey spoke quickly having given this a lot of thought. “I just want him found. Once I know where he is I’ll handle it.”

“You’re afraid he won’t want to come back?”

“Fuck I’m afraid they won’t find him or if they do…” He shook his head unable to voice his fears. “But I need to know, this can’t go on. I’m gonna give McCray a call. He’ll know who I should hire. This has to be handled discreetly.”

“You don’t want the record company to know.”

“Fuck no. They’re already pissed. And I sure as shit don’t want this to hit the Net. I can just imagine what would happen if fans caught wind of this. I’ve been checking and so far the news of Lindsey divorcing him hasn’t even been mentioned.”

“It will soon enough.” Alicia sighed “Tom already knew.”

Mikey nodded, “Yeah but that’s because Lindsey’s lawyer is a friend of his. Tom agreed with me that nothing should be said about the divorce until Gerard has a chance to say something.”

“So Tom understands Gerard doesn’t know about the divorce?” She knew Mikey had talked to him the morning right before the duffle bag had been delivered.

“I’ve told him Gerard needed to get away and that I’ve had no contact with him.”

“But you made it sound like you knew he was leaving?”

Mikey nodded, “I don’t want him to know Gerard just fuckin’ took off without telling anyone. I don’t want him to know about this.” He pointed to the bag.

“Go right now and give McCray a call.” Alicia urged.

Once Mikey had left the room Alicia sat staring at the bag and it’s contents. She prayed that Gerard was fine but at the same time she was filled with anger. It wasn’t right Gerard had taken off leaving Mikey to deal with this. She loved her husband and hated seeing him so upset. “Where the fuck are you?” She whispered reaching out to touch Gerard’s bag.

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“Okay now there’s noting to worry about. These bags will be fine.” Gerard said taking a step away from the long air conditioning unit. He turned to see Lucy had gotten up and was sitting on the foot of the bed, gloriously naked.

“Good.” She took a deep breath. “Undress.”

Desire shot through him. “As you wish.” He said with a smile. If Lucy wanted to be in control he was definitely going to play along.

Lucy sat quietly watching his every move as he removed his clothes.

“Now what?” He asked.

She took a deep breath. “Now you remain silent unless I ask you a question, do you understand?”

He grinned, “Yes.”

“Good.” She held out her hand. “Come here.”

He walked over to the foot of the bed.

“Turn around.”

When he’d turned she spoke in a low, seductive voice. “Hands behind your back.”

Gerard couldn’t keep from grinning. When he felt the cuffs being placed around his wrists his heart rate soared.

“Turn and take a step back.”

He did as she commanded, still smiling.

Lucy stared at him. “Why are you smiling?”

“Just imagining what you might have in store for me.” He answered.

“Really?” She loved the feeling of power. “On your knees.”

It wasn’t an easy thing to do, handcuffed, but he accomplished it. Lucy smiled, licking her lips while gazing at the handcuffed man now kneeling before her.

“Now what?” Gerard asked.

Lucy frowned, “Did I just ask you to speak?”

“Uh, no.” He realized by the look in her eyes she was really enjoying this turn of events.

“Then I suggest you keep that pretty mouth of yours closed, for a minute.”

His eyes grew wide, “Pretty mouth? For a minute?”

“Gerard.” Lucy sighed, “Quiet.”

He grinned while nodding. However when he saw her scoot to the edge of the bed then slowly spread her legs his eyes filled with desire.

Lucy smiled, “Now be a good boy and scoot closer.”

Quickly he followed her command.

“Good.” She said, he was right where she wanted him. Grabbing the pillow she’d moved to the end of the bed she positioned it behind her so she could lean back while still having the perfect view. “I want that pretty mouth right here.” Her fingers trailed across her exposed sex.

“As you wish.” He ground out leaning forward.

“Lick and suck.” Lucy’s voice was heavy with desire. “Make me wet.”

“You’re already wet.”

“Gerard.” She forced herself to remain in character. “Less talky, more licky.”

He was only too happy to oblige. As his tongue began to lick her exposed slit he heard her moan softly. When his lips closed around her swollen nub to suck he heard her moan even louder. Suddenly he felt her hands on his shoulders pushing him back.

“Enough for now.” She said staring into this eyes. “Now be a good boy and watch.”

“Oh” He couldn’t remain silent when he saw her flip back the blanket to reveal the beads.

“Quiet or I won’t let you watch.” She said with a smile, “You do want to watch, don’t you.”

“Hell yes.” He whispered. “I want to watch.”

Taking the beads in her hand she ran the first one down her wet slit making sure to do it slowly, making sure his eyes were following its movement. “Feels good” She purred, “Should I slide it inside?”

“Fuck you’re gonna torture me, aren’t you?”

Lucy sighed, “Gerard I asked you a direct question. Failure to answer once more will mean I’ll have to turn you around while I do this. You won’t be able to watch, only listen.”

“I’m sorry.” He whispered, “Yes, you should definitely slide the bead inside.”

Lucy smiled, “I would if I was sure it was wet enough.”

It took every ounce of willpower he had not to point out he knew she was very wet already.

“Think you could make sure it’s wet for me?”

He nodded. “I’d be happy to.” He believed he was going to get the chance to bury his face between her legs again but was surprised when she sat up and placed the bead against his lips.

“Open that pretty mouth, make this nice and wet.”

Deciding that two could play at this game he opened his mouth but instead of simply sucking the bead in his tongue came out to swirl around it first, then he sucked it in his mouth.

“Oh” Lucy’s eyes grew wide. “Nice.”

His eyes were on her face loving the reaction he saw.

“Enough” Lucy said pulling the bead out of his mouth. She settled back on the bed. “Good job, it’s very hot and wet now.” Again she placed it between her legs and this time she slipped it inside. “How does that look?” She whispered.

“Fuckin’ hot.” Gerard answered honestly. “And beautiful.”

Lucy wiggled slightly and sighed, “It’s much better knowing your mouth was just on it.” Her fingers found the next bead, “Should I slip another in?”

“Yeah” he nodded his eyes glued to the bead, to her pussy.

She slipped it in quickly followed by another. “Oh” She closed her eyes “So good.” She heard Gerard’s breathing becoming quicker, rougher. “You know” She smiled opening her eyes. “I’m going to slip all of these inside me.”

“Yes, do it.” He urged loving this show she was performing for him.

Lucy slipped another bead in, “And then what do you think I’m going to do?”

He forced himself to look into her eyes, “I don’t know.”

She smiled, “I’ve learned very recently that anticipation is a wonderful thing.”

“Really?”

“Yes, really? Any idea who taught me that?”

Gerard smiled, “Me?”

“Yeah, you. So since I now realize how wonderful anticipation can be I want to share it with you.” Her back involuntary arched as she slipped the remaining bead inside rapidly.

“Fuck” Gerard ground out.

Lucy laughed, “Gerard please keep all comments to yourself. Now about anticipation…I’m going to tell you what I’m going to do next so you can think about it a while.”

His body was on fire, he wanted to touch her so badly it hurt.

Lucy giggled, “I’m going to lead you over that that chair.”

His eyes darted to the chair.

She smiled, “Then I’m going to have you sit while I kneel in front of you.”

“Yeah” He nodded, his eyes on fire.

Lucy ignored his comment. “Then I’m going to take your dick in my mouth.” She could feel desire pooling in her belly, “How does that sound?”

“Fuckin’ good.” His voice was shaky.

“But you’ll have to promise not to come.” Lucy warned.

He nodded, “Yeah, okay.”

She leaned back against the pillow then pulled her legs together allowing her to feel the beads inside her more intensely. “Oh” She leaned back her head, her hands finding her nipples. Knowing he was watching urged her on. She tweaked each nipple as she squirmed.

Gerard couldn’t remain silent. “Come, Lucy. Let me see it.”

Her eyes flew open. “No, not yet.”

He could see how close she was, “Lucy, it’s okay. You can do it again, just let go.”

Slowly she lowered one hand to tease her clitoris. “Oh” She cried out as her fingers rubbed. It was good, but it wasn’t enough.

“Let me.” Gerard whispered leaning forward. When she removed her fingers his tongue assaulted the spot.

“Yes’ Lucy cried out as the desire continued to build. “Oh yes.” Her back arched as the orgasm ripped through her body.

Gerard leaned back on his heels smiling devilishly.

Lucy took a few moments to regain her control then sat up. “Nice but that wasn’t part of the plan.” She lowered her hand to remove the beads.

“Don’t.” Gerard shook his head, “Leave them, Lucy. Let it build again.”

She smiled, “Good idea, Mr. Way.” Slowly she crawled off the bed then walked around him. “Up” She said grabbing his arms to help him stand.

“Now to give you a little attention,” She led him to the chair then carefully helped him take a seat, his arms still handcuffed fit perfectly behind the low back of the chair. “Can’t move” She whispered in his ear. “You’re at my mercy.”

Gerard growled.

Lucy nipped his earlobe. “I can do whatever I want to you.”

She was right, in this position it was almost impossible for him to move without help. “What do you want to do to me?” He asked.

Lucy laughed, “Oh, lots of things but first..” She crossed the room to grab the blindfold. Placing it over his eyes she whispered, “I don’t want you to see now, only feel.”

He inhaled sharply a moment later when he felt her hands now wet with oil run down his chest. Her fingers teased his nipples. “Nice” She leaned down to gently nip the right one, then the left.

“Of fuck” He could feel her body brushing against his leg.

Lucy giggled, “Hush, Gerard.” She moved around the chair to stand in front of him, using her leg she pushed his apart. “Now then” She whispered leaning down so that her lips hovered over his. “Time for you to feel pleasure, it’s only fair.” Her lips moved against his, her tongue teased his bottom lip until his mouth opened. Soon Lucy found herself lost as the kiss deepened.

Gerard wanted desperately to put his arms around her, he struggled trying to free his hands.
Lucy broke off the kiss, “No struggling.”

“I want to touch you.” He whispered brokenly.

“Too bad” She purred as she left a trail of wet kisses down the side of his neck. The kissed continued down as Lucy lowered herself to her knees. She ran her hands over his thighs, “How does that feel?” She whispered.

“I love it when you touch me.” He said softly, “But I love it more when you kiss me.”

For a moment he was afraid he shouldn’t have admitted that truth but when he suddenly felt her lips on his again he felt overwhelming happiness.

Lucy pushed all fear and doubts aside as she deepened the kiss, her feeling for him finally, truly released. She only stopped when they were both breathless. Lowering herself to the floor again she spoke as her slick hands gently ran down his length. “What did I say I was going to do?”

He moaned, “Take me in your mouth.”

“I did say that.” Lucy said as she continued to caress him. “Do you like that idea?”

“Oh woman, you know the answer to that.”

She giggled, “I’ll take that as a yes.” Slowly she lowered her head taking him in deeply.

“Oh fuck” Gerard tried to lift his hips to plunge in and out of her hot mouth.

While she continued to suck she ran her hands over his thighs moving them so that she could gently cup his balls. While she massaged them her mouth continued to slide him in and out.

“Shit, that’s too good.”

He almost cried out when she removed her mouth.

"You’re right, I don’t want you to come yet. I should stop.” She smiled watching his chest as he tried to catch his breath. “But not yet.” Again she took him in.

Gerard’s head fell back, “So fuckin’ good” He moaned.

Lucy continued her sweet torment a few more minutes until she knew he was almost there then she stopped.

Gerard moaned.

Standing between his legs she removed the blindfold. “I’m not finished with you yet but I’m going to remove the handcuffs. Promise to stay still? No touching?”

He nodded, “Anything you say.”

Lucy walked around the chair and freed his hands. She threw the handcuffs on the bed then smiled, “Okay, now I want you to stand.” When he did she gently pushed him out of the way so she could move the chair. Gerard watched in fascination as she positioned both chairs by the table. When she lifted her body up onto the table placing one foot on each chair, spreading herself open to him he smiled.

“I’m going to lay back and I want you to slowly remove the beads.” She whispered, her body demanding release again. “Only touch the beads, understand?”

He nodded, “Yeah, I understand.”He moved to stand between her legs then gently grabbed the small ring. Out popped the first bead. Lucy’s back arched.

“Oh” She cried out. “Another.”

The second bead made her body quiver.The third made her muscles start to tighten, release was seconds away.

“Of fuck” She cried out, “Now, the rest.”

Gerard tugged pulling the remaining beads out watching as her body withered, she was so beautiful when she came it took his breath away.

Lucy closed her eyes a minute as the feeling slowly faded. He felt Gerard move closer. “NO” She said suddenly sitting up. “I told you, no touching.”

He frowned but took a step back.

She scooted off the table. Moving to the bed she grabbed the handcuffs. Gerard wasn’t sure how much more of this he could take. However when she handed them to him and spoke he smiled.

“Handcuff me.”

His hands shook as he secured them on her wrists.

“Now what?” He asked looking into her eyes. “What do you want?”

Instead of answering she walked to the bed. She crawled up on the mattress and while still on her knees she lowered the top portion of her body down. Gerard’s fingers twitched wanting to touch her beautiful ass now in the air.

“Fuck me.” She ground out, “Now”

She was so wet he slid in easily while his hands caress her cheeks.

“Harder” Lucy cried out as he began to thrust.

Just the scene was almost enough to drive him over the edge. Beautiful Lucy, handcuffed, ass in the air, begging him to fuck her. “Yeah” He ground out as he trust hard. “I’m almost there. I want to pull out and come all over your ass.”

“Yes” Lucy hissed, “Do it.”

He grabbed her hips to steady her then trust again, deeper, harder. The feeling was building, When he trust once more he knew he was there. Pulling out quickly he rubbed his dick down her crack then exploded. He heard Lucy moaning begging him for more. Running his finger through the sticky wetness he coated one then placed it at her back entrance. Slowly he pushed in.

“Yesss” She hissed, “Oh yes.”

He slid his finger in a little further and Lucy’s body convulsed with pleasure. When she was finally spent she scooted up so she could lay her whole body down. She felt Gerard removing the cuffs. However when he laid down beside her she turned her face away.

“Lucy” He whispered caressing her hair, “Honey, look at me.”

She turned her head, her eyes full of uncertainty, “I’m sorry.”

“Sorry?” He tried to understand, “Why?”

She looked away, “I…uh…”

Now he understood, “Lucy, don’t be embarrassed, Honey.”

“It’s just I don’t know what came over me. I’ve never…”

“Never had anyone touch your ass like that?”

She closed her eyes, “Never dreamed I want that.”

“But you did, right? I didn’t hurt you?”

“Oh no” She frowned, “No, it was a little uncomfortable at first but then…”

He stroked her cheek, “Honey, I wanted you give you pleasure. You gotta know that.”

She nodded slightly. “So you were okay with it?”

His heart was filled with love for this woman. “I’m okay with anything that makes you feel good.”

She lifted her eyes to stare into his. As he watched her mouth opened then closed quickly. He understood she wanted to say something but couldn’t.

“Wanna take a nap together before we head home?”

Her emotions were so raw she could only nod.

“Don’t move.” He said quickly scooting off the bed. A moment later he returned with a wet washcloth. Gently he wiped her back and behind.

Lucy closed her eyes as he cleaned her blinking back tears.

He’d expected her to move so they could lay in the bed but when he returned she was still in the same place, her eyes closed.

He sat down on the bed, reaching out to brush the hair away from her face, “Lucy, are you okay?”

He was shocked when she opened her eyes and he saw they were full of tears.

“What’s wrong?” He whispered.

Again she opened her mouth but this time she forced the words to be spoken. “Nothing is wrong except…I love you.”