As Gerard pulled on a fresh shirt he tried to block out the hurt he felt over what had just happened. He’d been so sure she was finally going to let down her defenses, admit that what was happening between them was more than just sex, but it hadn’t happened. By once more denying him a kiss she was making her feelings clear.

“Yeah, I’m fine to fuck as long as that’s all it is.” He muttered as the hurt turned to anger. He tried to remind himself why she was acting that way, he did on one level understand but because his own feeling for her were deepening with each passing day it was hard to accept. He was still trying to control his anger when he and Lucy met up in the kitchen. The fact that she was wearing the yellow sundress only served to make him angrier.

Lucy saw the anger on his face. “What’s wrong?”

“Nothing at all.” He shrugged. “Why would anything be wrong after the great fuckfest we just had?”

She inhaled sharply, hurt by his words. “Gerard…”

“Hey, don’t bother.” He said brushing past her to head for the door. “I’m on board with all of this. We agreed we’re just having a good time.” He pushed open the screen door so hard the hinges rattled.

Lucy blinked rapidly still stinging from his words. She considered not going, telling him she’d changed her mind. Not just about tonight but about their agreement. She knew she’d hurt him, something she had never wanted to happen and that fact was weighing heavily on her mind.

Gerard started the truck then sat back regretting his words. He truly wanted to help her, he understood her actions and yet he’d let his own anger and hurt lash out at her. Several moments passed but there was no sign of Lucy. “Come on, Lucy” He whispered staring at the back door. “Don’t be afraid to live.”

She exited the door intent on telling him she’d changed her mind but as she got closer to the truck she saw the smile on his face. It took her breath away. Swallowing a lump of emotion in her throat, she pulled open the passenger side door then climbed in.

Neither spoke until they were on the highway.

“Sorry.” Gerard said softly not taking his eyes off the road.

“Me too,” Lucy whispered. “I wish I could explain…”

“Why you act like you do?”

She turned to face him. “Yeah”

“I understand much more than you give me credit for.” He said softly. “Much more.”

Slowly she reached over to touch his arm, “Yeah, I think you probably do.”

After a few more minutes of silence between them Gerard knew now was not the time to push her. “Wonder what’s showing?”

She was grateful he was trying to ease the tension between them. “Actually two movies show each night. Maybe both of them will be good.”

“I haven’t been to a drive-in in years.”

“Me either” Lucy said fighting the memories that suddenly filled her mind. The last time she’d been to the drive-in she and Rafe… She clinched her fists in anger, no she didn’t want to remember.

Gerard saw her body tense from the corner of his eye. “Glad it’s cooling down.” He said knowing the past was pulling at her.

Lucy took a deep breath. She just wanted to have a good time tonight not let the past overwhelm her. “Yeah, it is.”

He tried to concentrate on the road not the woman sitting next to him and what her nearness was doing to him. It wasn’t easy. But after what had happened he believed it would be best to simply enjoy her company tonight, nothing more.

Lucy just wanted things between them to get back to the way they were. At least that was what she was trying to convince herself. She needed to get things back to the way they were. “Uh, so I followed your instructions.”

He was so lost in thought he didn’t quite hear her. “What?”

Lucy was staring at him. “Your plan? I wore the dress like you wanted.”

“Yeah, I can see that.” Here he was trying not to give in to the desire and she was pointing out she’d worn the sundress.

She folded her arms not liking that he seemed to be uninterested. “Yeah, the dress sans the panties.”

His hands tightened on the steering wheel.

A deep feeling of hurt suddenly overwhelmed her. Her actions had pushed him away and while she reminded herself she should be happy about that, it hurt a lot.

Gerard glanced over at her face and saw the sadness in her eyes. His voice was low and full of emotion, “You know I want you, Lucy. That hasn’t changed.”

She blinked rapidly, “I want you too but…”

“I’ll take what you can give.” He said turning his attention back to the road.
Again silence filled the truck until they reached the drive-in. Neither had any desire to stop for dinner.
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It turned out the two movies that were to be shown tonight were ones Gerard had already seen back in LA. Of course there was no way he was going to admit that to Lucy. He pulled up to the window, paid the admission fee then slowly eased the truck into the parking area.

“So where is the best spot?”

Lucy noticed sadly that there weren’t a lot of cars. “You were right.”

“What?”

“About drive-ins struggling to stay in business. It’s sad there are not more people here.”

He continued to drive slowly towards the screen. “Hey, we’re doing our part and we’ll definitely hit the snack bar and spend some more money. Now, where should I park this beast?” He smiled hoping to see her smile.

Lucy sat up scanning the area. “How about a couple more rows towards the front?”

When he turned off the truck he believed they’d found the perfect spot.

“Gotta make sure the speaker works.” She reminded him.

He leaned out, grabbed the speaker then switched it on. Immediately music filled the truck. “Sounds good.” He put his window up slightly so he could attach the speaker. Then turned the volume down.He looked over at Lucy but what he saw disturbed him, her posture was ridged, eyes straight ahead, hands clinched together.

“Lucy, it’s gonna be a good night.” He said softly, “Just relax.”

“I’m going to the restroom before the movie starts.” She said opening her door then climbing out quickly.

He watched her walk back towards the cinderblock building through his rear view mirror a frown on his face. What was he going to do? He realized he needed to make her believe what he’d said was true, he could take whatever she could offer, at least for now. But some way, some how, he was determined to break through the walls she built around her heart. His head was leaning back, his eyes closed when she returned.

“Are you tired?” She asked as she closed her door.

He sat back up. “Nope, just thinking.”

“About?”

“You” He said softly.

Lucy stared into his eyes. “What about me?”

He saw the fear in her eyes, “Just how much I enjoy being with you.” There, he thought, that was a nice, safe answer. However when he saw her once more clinch her hands together he knew he’d been wrong.

She turned to stare out the windshield.

Gerard sighed, “Lucy, what’s wrong? What are you thinking?”

“This was a mistake.” She whispered.

Fear struck his heart, she was going to completely pull away. He couldn’t let that happen. “About coming tonight, or about our agreement?”

“Both.” She sighed.

He leaned back racking his brain for something to stay.

“I don’t want to hurt you.” She said softly.

A small glimmer of hope filled him. She was worried about him, that was why she was considering pushing him away, out of her life. It wasn’t that she was afraid of being hurt. She might not let herself realize it, but the woman who told him her heart was dead, she couldn’t feel, was indeed feeling something.

“You’re not gonna hurt me, Lucy.” He said softly. “I meant what I said, I’ll take whatever you can give me.” When she looked over at him he smiled, “We both know this is just temporary.” The lie stuck in his throat but it would give him time, time that he needed.

She nodded slowly, “Right.”

“So let’s enjoy the evening.”

Just then the previews for coming attractions started to fill the screen. He was pleased to see she seemed to relax a bit. However, when the opening credits for the first movie started she turned to him once more looking very upset.

“What is it?” He asked.

She twisted her hands in her lap. “I…”

“Tell me what you need?” He coaxed.

She took a deep breath, “I need things to be like they were…I just want them to be that way.”

He understood perfectly. She wanted things between them to go back to how they’d been before the ‘almost’ kiss, before she’d realized she’d hurt him.

“Okay.” He smiled, “How about this? We’ll rewind time. A do over, sort of. The shower didn’t even happen.”

“You do understand.” She whispered softly.

“Told you I did.”

“Can we really?”

The emotion in her eyes and voice touched him deeply. “Yes, the shower never happened.”

Lucy smiled slightly, “Well I’d hate for all of it not to have happened.”

His smile was huge, “Yeah, me too.” He patted the seat between them. “Now, woman slide over here.”

She paused only a moment then moved closer to him. Gerard settled his arm around her.

The movie was a welcome distraction for both of them. It gave them time to get their emotions under control. When the ending credits rolled Gerard shifted in his seat to pull out his wallet.

“Now you head up to the snack bar and get us some treats.” He said handing her a twenty dollar bill.

“You don’t want to come?”

As much as he wanted to be with her every minute he was afraid someone would recognize him. “I’m pretty comfortable besides I want to be surprised.”

“Surprised?”

He laughed, “Yeah, I want to see what kind of treats you pick out for us.”

Her smile was genuine. “Okay. I’ll be back in a minute.”

Pure happiness filled him when she brushed her lips against his cheek before sliding out of the truck.

While she was gone Gerard used the time to think. While he understood he was slowly breaking down the barriers she’d created, he was worried. He couldn’t stop thinking about what Rafe had said about time running out, about the storm that was coming.
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“What a fuckin’ shit storm.” Ray muttered, his eyes on the computer screen.

His cell rang. Glancing down he sighed. “Hey, Frank.” He answered.

“What the fuck is going on?” Frank asked getting directly to the point.

“Guess you’re back from vacation?”

“Yeah, we just got back this morning. It was nice getting away but hell, I wasn’t expecting to come back to this.”

Ray of course knew what he was talking about.

“I’ve tried calling Gerard like a million times but he’s not answering.”

“No one knows where he is.” Ray admitted.

“What? Are you fuckin’ kidding me?”

“Wish I was. He took off over a week ago without his cell. Hasn’t been in contact with anyone.”

Frank walked over and closed the study door needing privacy. “Are you serious? Even Mikey doesn’t know where he is?”

“Mikey is freaking big time about it.”

Sitting back down behind the deck Frank’s eyes went back to the computer screen. “So what’s the truth?”

“I’m guessing you’re on the Net?”

“Yeah, what the fuck? It ain’t true is it? He and Lindsey aren’t really broken up, are they?”

“Afraid that is true. Before Gerard left LA Lindsey took Bandit and Karli with her to New York. Far as I know Lindsey is still there.”

“She took Karli with her?” Frank sputtered.

“Yeah and before you ask, I guess it was there she fired the woman.”

“Fuck” Frank muttered. “So it’s true then? Gerard and Karli?”

“Not according to Joe Conners. He saw Gerard right before he left.” He quickly told Frank what he’d learned about that from Mikey.

Frank sat back in his chair letting the information sink in. “So she’s lying.”

Ray sighed, “Well not about everything.”

“I can’t believe he fucked her.” Frank said shaking his head, “What was he thinking?”

“Don’t think he was thinking.” Ray said sadly, “Think he was drinking, way too much to think.”

“So what the hell is the band supposed to do about this shit?”

Ray truly wasn’t sure. “I don’t know. For now I guess we just try to ignore this shit. I mean what can we do until Gerard resurfaces? This is his mess."

“Yeah but his mess is ours too.” Frank worried. “The official fan site is going nuts with speculations and some of those are pretty fuckin’ vile.”

“I know.” Ray said softly. “But what can we do? People are always gonna make assumptions. We can’t change that.”

“Obviously she didn’t sign a confidentiality clause?”

“Lindsey hired her and didn’t make her sign.”

Frank ran his hand through his long dark hair, “Nothing like having dirty laundry on display.”

Ray agreed but remained silent.

“I just can’t believe Mikey doesn’t know where he is.”

“Believe me he doesn’t and he’s fuckin’ worried.”

Angrily Frank closed the lid of the lap top. “Wish I’d stayed on vacation.”

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When he heard the gravel crunching under her feet Gerard sat up opening his eyes to find Lucy standing at his window with a large cardboard tray of food. He laughed, “Woman, I see you did your part to help them stay in business.” He was glancing down at her selection.

Lucy laughed, “Sorry but there’s no change. Hell, I didn’t even have enough for sodas so I got us a big glass of ice water.”

He took the tray from her hands so she could walk around and get in the truck. Carefully he settled the food on the seat. She’d gotten a large popcorn, the ice water, two hot dogs, and two boxes of candy.

“Things were kinda expensive” She said as she pulled her door shut.

“Hey, looks good.” He tossed a piece of pop corn in his mouth happy to notice she was looking much more relaxed.

Lucy also tossed several pieces of popcorn in her mouth. “Just in time.” She giggled as the lots lights went down and the second movie began.

Gerard realized he was hungry. Since they hadn’t stopped on the way for dinner the sandwich at lunchtime was when he’d eaten last. He looked down at the tray. “Uh, which hot dog is mine?”

Lucy smiled, “The one with the mustard and relish, hope that’s okay.”

He nodded, “Yeah, perfect. But how come you didn’t put anything on yours?”

She kept her eyes on the screen. “I have my reasons.” Turning to look at him she laughed at his confused look, “Eat your hot dog Gerard.”

“Yes ma’am.”

Lucy ate pop corn not touching her hot dog.

Once he was finished with his dog he too dug into the bucket of popcorn. It was nice and buttery. After a while he noticed Lucy had stopped eating. “Want anymore?” He hoped she said no because he really wanted to move the food tray from its spot between them on the bench seat.

She understood. Lifting her hot dog she also moved the cup of water to sit it on the dash. “No more popcorn for me.”

He smiled, placed the candy boxes next to the water then picked up the tray.

“Just throw it in the back.” To illustrate her point she turned and slid the window to the bed of the truck open.

“Oh” He threw the tray into the bed of the truck.

“Most of the people left after the first movie.” Lucy said softly.

Gerard had noticed this too. The remaining cars in the lot were few and far between. Matter of fact as he squinted into the darkness they were pretty much alone near their spot. “Yeah.” He said smiling. It was then he noticed Lucy removed her hot dog from the bun. She held it in her hand then tossed the bun into the back of the truck bed.

“Uh….” He was about to ask her what she was going when he saw her mouth open slightly and as he watched in fascination she slid the hot dog in her mouth, then slowly slid it back out.

“Fuck” He muttered watching closely as she repeated the action. “That’s why you had a bare hot dog.”

“We all have our plans” She giggled but kept her eyes on the screen. Again she slowly slid the hot dog in her mouth this time a little further then slowly slid it back out.

“Do you have any idea how hot that is?” He whispered.

“Why don’t you tell me?”

“Oh woman.” He reached over and pulled her closer. She allowed it but still refused to look at him. “Do it again.”

Slowly the hot dog almost completely disappeared between her lips. She smiled when she was sliding it back out his hand settled on her knee.

“Again.” He whispered watching as his hand slowly inched up her bare leg. He’d never dreamed a hot dog could prove to be so erotic.

Lucy slightly parted her legs allowing his hand to travel even higher.

When his fingers touched her soft curls his breathing picked up speed. “So glad you followed my plan.” He murmured.

Slowly her head turned, “Still hungry?”

Oh he was definitely hungry, very hungry. He nodded slightly unable to take his eyes off her mouth. He was only slightly surprised when she lifted the hot dog to his mouth. Slowly his lips parted allowing her to slide the cylinder of meat between them.

“Nice” She whispered smiling, “But it’s mine.” She slid it back out of his mouth then immediately placed it between her lips.

“You have no idea what you’re doing to me.” He ground out.

Her hand lightly settled on his crotch. “Think I do.”

She was surprised when he sat up reaching for the glass of water on the dash but instead of lifting it he simply placed his fingers in the cup to pull out a piece of ice.

“Haven’t seen ice like this in a long time.” He murmured holding up the inch long cylindrical piece. “Nice shape.”

Her eyes grew wide, her mind began racing, wondering what he was thinking. A moment later she knew as his hand ran the ice up her inner thigh under her dress.

“Oh” She whispered.

His smile was devilish. “Again with the hot dog.” He whispered as the ice moved further up her thigh.

Lucy opened her mouth slowly pushing the hot dog in. Their eyes were locked. When the ice reached her slit she automatically parted her legs even further.

“Put your leg over mine.” It wasn’t a request.

Her bare leg went over his denim clad leg.

“Perfect” he whispered. She was spread wide now.

Lucy slid the hot dog out then as the ice pressed against her tingling nub she pushed it all the way in her mouth successfully fighting her reflex gag. She was reward for her efforts when he moved the ice down then slid it completely inside her hot, wet hole. Her whole body trembled from the sensation, so cold yet so very, very hot.

Gerard’s eyes were glazed, his body on fire. His finger in place holding the ice inside her, his eyes on her mouth as the hot dog was slid in and out, slowly.

“Oh fuck.” He whispered. They continued the sweet torment on each other until he felt the water from the dissolved ice running down his fingers. He removed them intent on getting another piece but Lucy quickly removed her leg from its spot over his.

“Lucy?” Was she rethinking the game? Did she want to stop? He was afraid he was right when she moved slightly further from him.

Lucy looked down at the hot dog then back into his eyes. “It’s okay but I want something bigger.” His breath caught as she turned to throw the hot dog out the window into the bed of the truck. He moaned softly as he watched her lower her body onto the seat, her head hovering above his lap.

“Need a little help here.” She giggled.

He instinctively lifted his hip allow her to easily lower his zipper. He remained that way until she’d pushed the denim down enough.

“Is this a good idea?” He whispered making his mind work.

“No one can see.” She laughed, “Just looks like you’re watching the movie alone.” She ran her tongue down his length then blew on the moisture. His fingers gripped her dress pulling it up so he could see her bare ass.

“Gerard, watch the movie.” When she spoke her lips vibrated against his dick. “Or I’ll stop.”

“No” He ground out. “Don’t stop.”

She laughed using her fingers to reach under and cup his balls. “Then do as I say.” She glanced up briefly long enough to see he was staring out the windshield. “Good, boy.” Her tongue ran along his length again.

“This is torture.” He whispered brokenly, “Sweet torture.”

Her fingers lifted his dick so that her mouth could slowly suck on his balls. She felt his body shake.

“What exactly is your plan?” He asked letting his hand that now rested on her shoulder gently caress her exposed skin.

She lifted her head, “Do you really want to know?”

“Yeah, I really want to know.”

For a minute he didn’t think she’d tell him. Her mouth had gone back to his dick. Her tongue flicked over its tip. “Well” She said making sure her lips were moving against the tip. “I told you I wanted something bigger.” To illustrate her point she opened her mouth then slid his length deep inside.

“Oh fuck.” He moaned.

She giggled, “Thinking about the hot dog?”

Yeah in his mind he was picturing that exactly. He snuck a quick glance down at her head in his lap then moaned again.

Lucy loved his feeling of power she had over him. Slowly she moved his dick in and out of her mouth feeling it harden.

He was trying hard to hold back. “You do know what’s gonna happen if you don’t stop?”

“Gerard, look at me.”

When he looked down she smiled.

“I know what’s gonna happen.” Her own body was on fire, “You’re gonna fill my mouth, I’m gonna suck until you do.” She was trembling with anticipation of something she’d never done before. “Then I’m gonna swallow every last drop.”

“Oh fuck,” He couldn’t breathe, couldn’t think anymore.

Lucy smiled “Would you like that?”

“Fuck yeah.” He nodded, “Yeah, do it.”

Once more her mouth took him in. At first she slowly took in his length but as his breathing became rougher she quickened the pace while taking him in deeper each time.

“Of shit.” He leaned back against the seat closing his eyes letting his imagination recreate what was happening. “That’s it, faster.” He panted.

Lucy gently squeezed his balls pushing him over the edge. When the salty warm release hit the back of her throat she paused then stared sucking, she continued until there was no more.

Gerard’s tense body slowly relaxed as she slowly scooted over then sat back up. He watched her lick her lips.

“Much better than the hot dog.” She whispered.

He was still trying to catch his breath.

“So” Lucy said pretending nothing had happened, “What did I miss?” She asked looking out the windshield at the screen.

He shifted his hips then refastened his jeans. “Uh, you missed a lot.”

“That’s too bad.” She sighed.

“Your turn.” He said moving to pull her close but she scooted out of his reach.

She shook her head, “What I want we can’t do here but I do have a plan.”

“I love your plans.” He smiled.

She nodded, “Good, well if you don’t mind missing the last of the movie we could leave now.”

“Fuck the movie.”

Lucy laughed, “No, it’s me you’re gonna fuck. Let’s go.”

He quickly replaced the speaker on the stand then started the engine. Turning on just the parking lights he eased the truck towards the exit. As he pulled out onto the road he ground the gears.

“Shit”

Lucy giggled, “Someone seems distracted.”

“You could say that.” He answered.

“Go back the way we came.” She said softly, “I’ll tell you when to turn.”

Now he understood she was leading them someplace private.

About five miles out of town she told him to slow down and make the turn. For several minutes they continued down the bumpy, gravel road.

“This is fine.”

He glanced over at her.

“Just pull off to the side and stop. This is a dead end. No one lives on this road.”

He eased the truck off to the side of the road then cut the engine and lights. The darkness around them was lit only by the moon.

“Now then.” Lucy said sitting up. He watched as she untied the straps of her sundress while she spoke. “About what I want.”

His eyes drank in the sight of her breasts as she pulled the top of the sundress down. “Tell me.” He begged.

Lucy patted the seat so he knew she wanted him to slide over from behind the wheel. Once he had she smiled, “Uh, the jeans?”

Gerard frowned, “Lucy, I don’t think so. Uh, you pretty much sucked me dry.”

She giggled, “We’ll see. Now the jeans?”

When he lifted his hips and she helped him pull them down his legs along with his boxers he was amazed he wasn’t limp, matter of fact his dick was twitching.

“See?” Lucy said softy taking him in her hands.

He still wasn’t sure he could get hard enough for her. “I can…”

She shook her head knowing what he was thinking, “You can be quiet and let me have my way with you.”

Gerard laughed, loving her smile and words. “Okay, have your way with me.”

For several minutes she simply stroked him. Then she leaned down to swirl her tongue around his tip.

“Lucy…”

“Gerard, be quiet.” She said lifting her head, “I’m just getting him ready.”

His heart was pounding, “Ready?”

She sat back up running her tongue over her lips. “Yes ready.” She watched his eyes grow wide as she reached up to caress her nipples.

“Ready for what?”

She smiled looking down at his now hard dick. “Ready for this.” Before he realized what was happening she was kneeling on the seat straddling him. Her hand reached down to guide him to her wet entrance. “This.” She whispered lowering herself onto his length. “Oh” She moaned, “That’s what I want.”

His hands slid under the bottom of the dress to cup her ass. His fingers caressed as she lifted herself slightly then let her weight lower, burying him deeper inside. “Oh yes.” She moaned.

He leaned back scooting his body down slightly allowing her to have better control of her movements. “Oh fuck, Lucy” He ground out, his hands helping her lift her body so she could continue to ride him.

Lucy leaned back slightly, the feeling was building. “It’s heavenly” She whispered.

Gerard had never heard anyone say his dick was heavenly. She continued to ride him feeling her release coming closer.

“That’s it.” He coaxed as his fingers traveled down the crack of her ass.

Lucy was going wild but when she felt the pressure of his finger applied gently to her other hole she went crazy. The orgasm tore through her, making her cry out. Gerard was shocked when he realized she made him come again.

Slowly she leaned foreword burying her head against his neck. They held each other until their bodies stopped shaking.

“That was nice.” Lucy whispered into his ear, “Just want I wanted.”

He tightened his arms around her. “Yeah, definitely nice.”

She lifted her head to look into his eyes. “Sorry you missed the end of the movie?"

He was so relieved to see her smiling. “I’m sure this was a much better ending.”

Lucy giggled, “Yeah, me too. Slowly she lifted her body off his then crawled over near the window. He noticed by the time he’d refastened his jeans she had retied the top of her sundress.

“There is a turn around just up the road.” She said softly.

It was hard to hide his disappointment. The intimacy they just shared was gone. He started the truck then headed down the road. Lucy sat over near the window silently. Once they were back on the highway heading towards the farm his spirits were lifted when she slowly scooted over. When she let her head lean against his shoulder his heart soared.

Please let me have enough time with her, he prayed silently as they drove through the night. Let me have enough time to make her want to love and live again.