Lucy awoke the next morning just as the sun was just coming over the horizon. She slipped from bed but as she dressed it was hard not to flinch from the pain, both of her writs were rubbed raw. “Shit” she muttered sitting back down on the bed while staring at the angry, red skin. Suddenly her head fell to her chest and tears threatened. What am I doing, she asked herself as memories filled her mind. But with those memories she felt a stirring in her body. What she and Gerard had done filled her with guilt because she couldn’t deny how much she’d enjoyed it.

“I have no reason to feel guilty.” She whispered. “He’s gone” And while part of her understood the fact that her husband was dead another part couldn’t stop the feeling she was tarnishing his memory by what she’d been doing. She and her husband had been together since they were kids. They had learned about sex together but it had never been like what she’d been experiencing with Gerard. The lovemaking she’s shared with her husband had been gentle, and sweet.

“But that’s because it was love.” She whispered wiping her eyes. “This is just sex, just pleasure.” She turned her wrists over in her lap as the memory of being suspended from the rope flashed through her mind. Again her body responded making her angry. Her mind was telling her she should put a stop to his, make him leave but even as that thought filtered through her mind she knew it wouldn’t happen. “I need this.” She said standing up. “It’s not wrong to want this. He’ll leave soon enough anyway.”

By the time she reached the kitchen she’d put all thoughts of the past behind her. She was still on this earth, still alive even after she’d prayed for death. So as long as she was she would continue on, move through each day, and heaven help her she’d enjoy her time with the man sleeping upstairs.

Gerard awoke and immediately his thoughts went to last night and what had happened in the barn. As he sat up trying to shake off sleep he remembered Lucy’s wrists when he’d released them from the rope. Were they as injured as he’d thought? It had been hard to see them clearly because she’d turned off the lantern before he could get a good look at them. “Shit” He muttered moving down the hall towards the bathroom. He hoped he’s been wrong, that they’d just been red, not injured.

As he stared at himself in the mirror just as it did every morning, guilt tore through him. He should be back in LA making decisions about his failed marriage that he knew. And yet he was here, with a woman who was so mentally damaged he was afraid he’d never be able to help her and that made him feel worse than anything else because he did want to help her. “Why?” He whispered to his reflection. Was it just because of the circumstance that had brought him here? He wished that was the only reason but in his heart he knew it wasn’t. He was falling for Lucy. “Shit” he muttered turning on the facets. He was falling for a woman who had no idea he was married, had no idea who he really was. “What the hell am I going to do?” He muttered as he splashed water over his face. He knew of course he should tell her but at his point he was sure that if he did she’d throw him out and he couldn’t let that happen. He felt deep in his heart he needed to be here not just for Lucy but for himself. Since arriving he felt a peace he’d never known before and he couldn’t loose that, not yet.

“Morning” Lucy said seeing Gerard pouring a cup of coffee. She’d just been out collecting eggs.

He turned, “Morning.” He spotted the basket in her hand. “So you have to collect those every morning?”

She smiled, “Yep and it’s not always easy. One of my girls is a sitter.”

“A sitter?”

“Yeah, she doesn’t want to give up her eggs, she wants to sit on them so they’ll hatch. She and I argue every morning.”

Gerard smiled, Lucy looked so happy this morning. However a moment later that smile faded when he spotted her wrists. “Shit” He took one of her hands to get a better look.

Quickly she grabbed it away. “I’m fine.”

“No, you’re not. That has to hurt.”

She looked into his eyes, “You told me sometimes pain and pleasure go together.”

“Lucy, I didn’t mean for that to happen.”

She brushed past him to start breakfast, “I know that. But really it’s okay. I’ll put some suave on them.” Seeing he was still frowning she added turning away, “Guess you’ll just have to tie me up some other way for a while.”

“Lucy…” He whispered moving to stand behind her as she pulling items out of the fridge.

She didn’t want to discuss this, she didn’t want to see the tenderness in his eyes. “Told you I’m fine. What happened, I wanted.”

When she turned around he’d stepped back. However when she placed the items on the counter he grabbed both of her hands.

“Would you stop it?” There was annoyance in her voice.

Gently he lifted her hand and while she watched he placed a kiss on each wrist. Her breath caught when she saw his tongue dart out to lick the tender skin.

“Oh” She whispered.

He lifted is head to look into her eyes, “Just a little pleasure for your pain.”

Her body trembled, “Uh, yeah.”

Releasing her hands he nodded towards the table. “Get a cup of coffee and take a seat. I’m gonna make breakfast.”

“You are?”

“Well we didn’t have dinner last night and since I was suppose to make it I figure I should do breakfast.”

Lucy smiled, “Okay, sounds good to me.”

They chatted while Gerard made breakfast and it was decided after they were through eating Lucy would teach him how to drive the truck. While their banter was light both felt an underlining sexual tension, one that neither had ever felt before.
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“Got your message.”

Mikey mouthed to Alicia that the caller was Lindsey.

“Uh yeah.” He responded. “We were wondering what’s going on with Karli.”

Lindsey sighed, “I fired the bitch.”

“Yeah, we know that, saw it on her Facebook.”

“I’ve seen it, Mikey.” Lindsey said suddenly sounding very tired. “My bad, didn’t make her sign a confidentiality agreement. That’s coming back to bite me in the ass.”

“So what happened?”

“I don’t want to discuss it.” Her tone was sharp but a moment later it softened, “Sorry, I’m not trying to take this out on you.”

“I know you’re under a lot of stress.” Mikey responded.

“You have no idea. So any word from your brother?”

Mikey sighed, “I was hoping you’d heard from him.”

“Not a word but I’m not surprised.”

There was something about her answer that confused him. “You’re not surprised?”

“Hey, if I was him I’d try to stay clear of this shit storm but he won’t be able to hide forever.”

“You think he’s hiding?”

Her laugh was hollow, “Yeah, that’s exactly what I think.”

“But why?”

She ignored the question, “Hey I gotta go. I’ll give you a call if I hear from him.” With that she disconnected.

“What did she say?”

Mikey looked over at his wife. “Just that she fired Karli, she knows about what the woman has been putting on her Facebook and that she thinks Gerard is hiding out.”

“Hiding out?”

“She said to avoid the shit storm.”

“That doesn’t sound good. Sounds like the shit storm has something to do with Karli.”

Mikey nodded as he took a seat at the table.

“I checked, there isn’t anything new on her page this morning.”

“Something is happening.” Mikey said slowly. “I just wish Gee would call me.”

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For the past hour after grinding the gears multiple times Gerard was finally starting to get the hang of driving a truck with three on the tree.

“Much better.” Lucy said with a smile.

He eased the truck back up the gravel road then turned into the driveway. “Yeah, I got this now.” He glanced over at her. “Hey how about we celebrate? Let’s drive into town and have lunch.”

His suggestion was met with surprise. “Oh, well…”

He grinned, “Hey, I learned to drive this beast, I need to celebrate.”

“Sure” She smiled, “Let me run in and get my purse.”

Gerard found himself humming happily when she returned.

“Okay, we’re off.” He said grimacing a moment later when he ground the gears.

“Hey, it happens.” Lucy said kindly.

He glanced over at her. “Uh, you know maybe you should move over here just incase I have a problem.” He patted the spot on the bench seat right beside him.

For a minute she was going to decline the offer but suddenly she nodded, “Suppose I should.” She said scooting over to sit beside him. “Gotta keep you out of trouble.”

Gerard laughed, “Yeah, well that is a full time job.”

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Ray hated the call he was about to make. He sat down heavily as he waited for Mikey to connect.

“What’s up?”

Taking a deep breath Ray asked, “Uh, you checked out Karli’s Facebook lately?”

“Alicia looked at it this morning.” He glanced over at her. “Pull it up.”

She nodded then moved to the laptop.

“Oh fuck.” Mikey whispered once the page was loaded.

“Yeah” Ray said softly, “That was my response too.”

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“The food must be good in this place.” Gerard muttered as he and Lucy stood in the long line waiting to order.

“It is. Best ribs in town but we can go some place else.” She offered wondering why he looked so upset.

Gerard was glancing around the crowded restaurant nervously. There were a lot of young kids here and for the first time since arriving in Kansas he was worried about being recognized. Still he knew Lucy had her heart set on the ribs. “Hey got an idea.” He said pulling out his wallet then handing her some money. “You order for us and I’ll be right back.”

She frowned, “Really, let’s just go. Besides there isn’t even a place for us to sit down.” She said noticing that several people who had their orders were milling around trying to find an empty table.

“I got this covered.” Gerard said smiling, “Trust me. Just get our order to go.”

Lucy was about to say more but he turned and quickly left the restaurant. What did he have in mind, she wondered. It was brutally hot outside so they couldn’t take their food to the park. And while they could eat in the truck she was afraid that if they ran the air that long it would over heat.

By the time she had their order it was twenty minutes later. Grabbing the bag she walked out to see her truck pulling into the lot.

“Smells good.” Gerard said as she crawled into the truck. He started out of the lot.

“Where are we going?”

“Told you I got this covered. Found us a nice cool place to enjoy our meal.”

She was shocked when he only drove a short distance then turned into the motel parking lot.

He put the truck in park then turned off the engine. Holding up a key he smiled, “Got us a room, it has a nice table and more importantly the air works great.”

Lucy didn’t know what to say.

“Come on.” He said reaching down and grabbing the bag of food.

Once he pushed open the door and allowed her to enter first she spoke. “Wow, this does feel good.” She’d felt like she was going to melt just walking from the truck.

“Yeah, saw the thermometer on the back. It’s 102.” He sat the bag down on the small table.

Lucy pulled out a chair. “Okay this is nice.” She admitted as she watched him start to pull out their food. “But isn’t it a little expensive to rent a room just to eat?”

He spoke without looking at her. “Well maybe after lunch we could find another use for his room.”

Lucy’s eyes went to the queen sized bed. “Oh”

Gerard laughed, “Damn you look so cute sometimes.”

She frowned, “I do not.”

“Oh yeah, you do.” He opened his Styrofoam box. “Wow, this looks great.”

Soon they were both eating, enjoying the food and the air. Finally Gerard grabbed a napkin to wipe the barbeque sauce off his hand.

“I’m stuffed.” He said sitting back in his chair.

“You didn’t even finish all your ribs.”

He grinned, “Well thought I should maybe take one back to Rex.”

Lucy smiled, “Think he’ll appreciate that.” Suddenly she looked down nervously.

“Lucy” he said softly, “We don’t have to do anything. If you want we can head home.”

Hearing him call her house, home made her frown deepen.

Gerard didn’t understand. “So you want to go?”

She took a deep breath, “No.”

“Wanna watch TV?”

She glanced over at the set. “No”

“So what do you want to do?” He asked looking into her eyes.

Lucy surprised him by standing abruptly. “I’ll be back.” She grabbed the keys he’d laid on the table.

“Where are you going?”

She smiled, “Got to get some stuff.” At the door she stopped. “Why don’t you take a shower while I’m gone?”

He nodded, “Yeah, okay.” His body was already humming in anticipation. However as she opened the door he called out. “Lucy?”

“Yeah?”

“You are gonna come back, right?”

The simple question, the emotion in his voice made her pause. “Yeah, I’m coming back.” She whispered then turned to make a hasty retreat.

When she returned forty five minutes later he had showered and was lying on the bed in just his boxers.

Lucy set down her bags. “Shit, it’s so hot out there.”

“How hot is it?” He teased.

She laughed, “Funny. So you look comfortable.” She glanced away. The whole time she’d been gone she was feeling so good but now her nervousness was returning.

“Nice cool shower is the ticket.” He said muting the TV he’d been watching. “You should take one.”

“That’s my plan.” She said while slipping off her sandals. “So anything good on?”

He grinned, “Well they have HBO and an adult channel.”

Her eyes grew wide. “Seriously?”

He used the remote to flip to the channel. “Yep, costs $9.99 per movie. Got some great titles to chose from.”

She had moved closer to the set to take a look. “Holy shit.” She muttered, “Those are really movie titles?”

“Yep” He grinned loving her reaction. “Wanna watch one?”

She was about to say no when suddenly she realized that maybe, just maybe, once in her lifetime she should see one. “Yeah, okay. But...” She turned to look at him. “I’m in charge of this afternoon’s entertainment.”

He sat up. “I like the sound of that.” His eyes went to the bags she’d left by the door. “Uh, so where did you go?”

Lucy tired to keep her nerves under control. “Just picked up a few things.” She walked over and lifted the largest bag so he could see the logo.

Gerard’s eyes grew wide. He recognized that logo. “Shit, they have one of those stores here?”

Lucy laughed, “Gerard, people in Kansas do have sex, you know. You’re really surprised we have an adult store?”

“Well kind of.” He admitted. “I mean there are lots of them in LA but here?’

“Yep we keep it on the edge of town.” She giggled. “Shit, I couldn’t believe it when I walked in.”

“You’ve never been in there before?”

Her smile faded, “No, of course not.”

“So what did you think?” He asked softly trying to gauge her feelings.

She shook her head, “Okay gotta admit I was sorta shocked. Crap, some of that stuff I’m not even sure what it’s for or what it does for that matter.”

“Oh really? So what did you get? Hopefully it’s something I can help you figure out.” His voice had suddenly turned husky with desire.

“I’m in charge.” She reminded him walking towards the bathroom with one of the bags. However she was back a moment later. “So while I shower I want you to start watching the movie.”

He frowned, “But I want us to watch it together.”

“Gerard” She said placing her hands on her hips. “You have to do what I say. Now order the movie.”

Anticipation was racing through him now. “Okay.”

Lucy stood by the bed until the movie started. At first she just stared at the screen. “Wow they really get down to business quick.” She muttered.

He looked over at her. “Yeah.”

“Eyes on the screen, Gerard.” She said taking a deep breath.

If she wanted to be in charge he was only too glad to go along.

Lucy forced herself to try to remember her plan. “Okay I’m gonna go shower now. Be a good boy and watch the movie while I’m gone.”

“Whatever you say.” He grinned.

She started towards the bathroom but halfway there turned to return to the side of the bed. “Lose the boxers.”

He looked down feeling slightly embarrassed.

Lucy laughed, “I see he likes the movie.” She nodded towards the growing bulge. “Give him some room.”

Gerard quickly pulled the boxers off.

“That’s better.” Lucy said letting her gaze travel over his entire body. “Much better.”

She started to turn but stopped. “I’ll be right back.”

He looked over at her. “Okay, hurry.”

“Eyes on the TV. I’m not going to tell you that again.” She said trying to sound stern.

“Sorry.” He grinned returning his gaze to the screen. He was shocked when she leaned down, grabbed his hand then placed it on his dick. “What the…”

Now she was truly enjoying this. “When I come back I want to see your eyes on the screen and you hand on you dick. Understand?”

“But…”

“Gerard, do as I say.”

His dick was growing harder by the minute. “As you wish” He whispered.

She took one final look then fled to the bathroom.

Ten minutes later he heard the bathroom door open but he kept his eyes on the screen.

Lucy walked towards the bed. As she neared he couldn’t help but look over at her. “Wow”

She pretended to be angry, “You’re not following my instructions.”

“How the fuck do you expect me not to look at you?” He asked eyeing her outfit.

Lucy looked down at the faux leather bustier. “I assume you like?”

“Fuck yeah.”

She placed her hands on his hips. “Now about you not following my instructions.”

He was loving this game. “Sorry.” His eyes returned to the TV.

Lucy glanced over. “Holy shit, is that thing real?”

Gerard couldn’t help it, he laughed. “He’s pretty well endowed, isn’t he?”

She shook her head, “I get hung like a horse now.” She muttered. Tearing her gaze from the screen she forced herself back into character. “Why aren’t you doing what I told you?’

“I am” He said not taking his eyes off the screen.

“I told you I wanted to see you stroking your dick.”

Her words caused the member in question to twitch. “Honey, I can only do that so long before…”

“Fine” Lucy said noticing it was throbbing. “Do it just a bit more while I watch.”

He’d never been with a woman who liked watching him pleasure himself and he liked it. Slowly he began to stoke himself.

Lucy pulled over a chair. “Very nice.” She said sitting down. Her eyes grew wide as she watched him stroke to the top then run his finger over the very top. “How does that feel?” She whispered.

“Fuckin’ good.” He whispered.

Lucy’s body was on fire just watching him. Slowly she reached her hand down between her legs.

“Tell me how wet you are.”

“You’re not suppose to be watching me.”

“I can see you out of the corner of my eye. Now tell me.” He begged.

“Hot and very wet.” She whispered in a husky voice.

“Oh fuck, Lucy.” He turned to look at her while removing his hand.

Lucy stood up. “Okay that’s it. You can’t follow directions, you’re being bad.”

“Not nearly as bad as I’m gonna be.” He started to sit up but Lucy spoke quickly.

“Don’t you dare move.” She walked over to the bag she’d left by the door. “Now I have to punish you.”

Gerard’s breathing was heavy. “Yeah, punish me.”

She moved to the side of the bed. “Close your eyes.”

When he did he felt her lifting his arm. A moment later he felt something around his wrist, then a click. “What the hell…”

“Again you’re not following instructions.” She said shaking her head.

He was looking up to see his hand was cuffed to the bed but the cuff was lined with feathers. “Wish I’d had that last night.” He muttered.

Lucy didn’t want him thinking about that. She pulled something else out of the bag. “Since you won’t keep your eyes closed I’ll have to use this.” She placed the satin blindfold over his eyes. “There.”

“But I want to see.” He wined.

“Shut up Gerard.” She scolded. She went around to the other side of the bed and soon his other hand was cuffed to the headboard.

By this time his dick was throbbing like mad. “What are you gonna do it me?” He needed to hear details.

Lucy stood back to survey her work. “Anything I want.”

“Yeah, anything.” He whispered in a shaky voice. “Do it.”

“Oh I will.” She giggled. She went to the bag and pulled out something else. He gasped in surprise as he felt something wet being poured onto his dick.

“Nice and slick.” Lucy said softly.

“Hard and hot.”

“Gerard, speak only when spoken to.”

He nodded slightly.

For a minute Lucy simply stared at his rock hard member. Then slowly she slipped the rubber sleeve down its length. “How’s that feel?”

“Fuckin’ good.”

“It’s got little tiny nubs inside, can you feel them?”

He was trying so hard not to come. “Yeah, I feel them.”

Slowly she began moving the sleeve up and down, up and down. Gerard started to moan. “Lucy, if you don’t stop that this will be over too soon.”

“Just a bit more.” She laughed seductively. “And don’t you dare come yet.”

“Fuck, that’s not an easy thing to control.”

“Control it” She answered while still slowly moving the device up and down his dick.

“Lucy…” He panted a few minutes later.

She quickly pulled the rubber sleeve off his dick. “Good, that’s enough for now.”

Gerard moaned in frustration, “Tease.”

“Yep.” She laughed, “I am.”

He strained his ears trying to figure out what she was doing. While she’d been enjoying teasing him her own body was starting to make demands.

“I want you to lay there and try to picture what I’m doing.” She whispered lying down next to him. When he heard a buzzing sound he realized she had a vibrator.

“I want to watch.” He begged.

“Nope” Lucy’s heart was starting to race. “But if you’d like I’ll describe it to you.”

“Yeah baby, tell me.”

She took a deep breath then spread her legs. “I have this pink vibrator. I’m running between my thighs.” She moaned slightly, “It feels good.”

Gerard struggled against the cuffs but they held tight.

“Oh” Lucy moaned, “It’s on my…”

“Shit, Lucy. Let me see” He begged, “Please.”

She ignored him as she worked the vibrator over her swollen nub. “So good.” She panted.

“Lucy”

“Wonder what it would feel like if I slipped in inside?” She was now breathless.

“Do it” He urged. “Slide it inside you.”

A moment later when she moaned he knew she’d followed his instructions.

Placing the vibrator in her other hand she reached over and began stroking his dick. It was still wet and slick as she stroked.

“I’m gonna come” He warned.

She removed her hand. “Not yet.”

“Damn it woman.” He roared.

Lucy slowly removed the vibrator then sat up. She knew what she wanted.

Gerard felt her straddle his body. She pulled off the blindfold. “You’ve been good so you can watch.”

“Watch while you fuck me?” he ground out.

Lucy’s eyes were glazed over by desire. “Yeah, that’s what I’m gonna do now. She reached down, positioned his dick in place then quickly lowered herself on to it.

“Of fuck” Gerard moaned as he watched her slowly lift herself up then down again. “That’s it”

Lucy threw back her head as she began riding him quicker, harder.

“Play with your tits for me.”

She pushed the bustier down just far enough for her nipples to escape the fabric. Then as he watched she tweaked them while continuing to ride his dick.

“Oh” She was so close.

“That’s so beautiful.” He said urging her on. “So hot.”

When the orgasm hit she screamed. At the same moment she felt Gerard’s release filling her. He waited until her head fell to her chest to speak.

“Lucy move up.”

“What?” She lifted her head to look into his eyes.

“Come here. Move up, straddle my face so I can taste your pussy.”

Her eyes grew wide and she started to shake her head.

“Do it.” He demanded.

She couldn’t deny her body. Slowly she crawled up, when she reached the spot she grabbed the headboard. Immediately Gerard lifted his head to lick her wet slit over and over.

“Oh” Lucy could feel it building again. “Oh yes.” When the second orgasm hit she couldn’t breathe. Slowly she moved back down his body. “Oh shit.” She whispered.

Gerard was smiling wickedly. “And just think we have this room all night.”