It's Not a Fashion Statement

The house is awfully quiet. I wander downstairs, but all the lights are switched off. I’m angry at what he did, but I can’t stay angry. He’s given me a home and a job, and fed me for Christ’s sake! I shouldn’t be angry because he got a bit turned on and acted on it. It happens to everyone.

“Gerard?” I shouted. I heard my own voice echo around me, and still no reply.
“Gerard, I’m not mad. Or upset, well not anymore… I think. I am kind of hungry though-“ really, the main reason I came downstairs was for food, but at the same time, I would have to face Gerard so I might as well make up with him. Plus, he looked really sorry earlier, like before I slammed the door in his face.
Though, the thought of ‘is he doing all this just to get in my pants’ still lingers in my head. Even if he is… thinking about it, it’s not even that bad. Well, maybe… but not if we were in an actual relationship…

God frank! He’s like twenty-five or something! You’re 16!

I brush the thought to the side, shouting Gerard again. Looks like he is out. I peer out of the window, and his car isn’t there.

I turn the lights on and help myself to food. If Gerard were here, I would not be doing this, I’d feel awkward, I hate helping myself to stuff. But I’m hungry and clearly he isn’t here. I switch the TV on and crash on the sofa. I bite into the choc-ice and lean back. I’ve really made myself at home here.
I flick through the channels and decide on a movie. I look for horror, but the only decent enough one I can find is saw. Saw just makes me laugh to be honest.
It’s been about two hours and Gerard still isn’t back. I can’t find anymore actually bearable movies and decide to play a game on the Xbox. Man, I haven’t played this for ages. Like since I have been… 14 or something? That’s a long time.

Black ops. Nice. I remember when I always used to play multiplayer on zombies with my friends when they came round to mine. We’d sit on bean bags and eat popcorn and takeaway pizza all night. Even if I didn’t like half of them, some of them were actually nice. I liked bob and ray. I miss them. They weren’t that bothered about popularity; it just turned out they got along with the popular friend group including myself.

I get up to round 21 and I’m kind of worried about Gerard. I mean, I know he’s a grown man, but it's way past midnight and he has been gone hours. I don’t have a phone, so I can't call him. Even if I did I probably wouldn’t have his number.

I remember I can use the house phone, surely that will have his mobile somewhere on it. I don’t know… house phones usually do.

I pick it up and click through the contacts. Finally, at the near bottom of the list is ‘my mobile’.

I dial the mobile number and wait for an answer. It carries on ringing. I try again, no answer. I wait half an hour and try again, then another half an hour and try. Four times in the last… hour, and he still hasn’t picked up. I haven’t known him long, but he always answers his phone whenever I’ve been around.

Oh well. He isn’t my responsibility.
But what is he actually isn’t okay? What if he went out and got run over? Or mugged? Or shot? Who knows?
Why should I care though?
The thought of Gerard in trouble makes me feel a bit sick. I know he is a good person, I’m not stupid, and I’m not oblivious to it. He has gone to so much effort for me, and I still remember the way he held me a few nights ago. Even if he does want to get in my pants, I know he also cares about me at the same time, well after the good solid few hours of contemplating it anyway.

But now I do; now I know he cares. And I can’t help but feel a bit worried about him.

I’ll just go to bed. He’ll be back in the morning, i hope.

Notes

Hey guys, soOoO i know it's only short, so i decided 2 updates in one day :))))
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ive just written the next 4 chapters too, so i'll probably update a few times tomorrow as well. i know i've been shit with updates but i've been super busy. But i have them written in advance now :) so expect at least one every day. Sorry, once again.
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