Mute

Gerard's pov*

I woke up in a darkened room, with arms wrapped firmly around me.
My memories/dreams, whatever they were, suddenly sent me into a panic. I screamed and thrashed around, trying to break the arm's hold on me. They just gripped tighter, and whoever it was was trying to calm me down, but I wasn't having it.
I was trapped and scared and all I could think was that it was my foster brother, Robert.
I was throwing myself around and kicking out, but he wouldn't let me go.
I was starting to hyperventilate, and I felt like I was gonna die.
I couldn't give in. If I did, Robert would hurt me again.
Everything was getting a bit hazy, and my world suddenly went upside down, back to front, and inside out. I bucked one last time, then everything went black.

The next time I awoke, sunlight was filtering in through the curtains, and I was alone in Frank's room.
Frank!.. It had been Frank holding me before.. What have I done?
Feeling tears on my face, I buried myself under my pillow and sobbed dejectedly. Frank would hate me now.. Like every foster brother or sister I'd ever had..
Wait!.. I remember them!.. Not just Robert, but all of them!..
And I remember everything else too!
Oh God!.. I spoke!.. I told Frankie about those men!.. They said they'd come get me if I ever told!.. How could I be so stupid?.. Why didn't I keep my dumb mouth shut?..
I'm dead!.. They're gonna come find me, and they're gonna rip me apart; that's what they told me, and I believe it.
That's it!.. No more talking.. Ever!

I wiped my eyes with the corner of my blanket, and shuffled up into a sitting position. Then I grabbed my sketch pad and pencil, turned to the back page, and took a deep breath, before starting to write.

Dear Frankie,
I know you probably hate me now, and I'm used to that, so don't worry, but I just wanted to say-
You protected me and listened to me and you didn't judge me. So Thank You!
I know you won't understand this, but I should never have spoken, and now it's only a matter of time before they come for me. So I wanted to say goodbye, the only way I can. I won't be here for much longer, cos either they'll get me, or you and your mum will send me back, and either way, I'll be dead within the month.
So please, have a good life and be happy.. I love you!.. and I'm sorry for invading your perfect world.
G!x

I pulled the paper out of the back of my book and folded it in half, then got up and walked on shaky legs to Frank's bed.
I placed the paper on his pillow, then turned and climbed back in my bed. What was the point in doing anything anymore?.. Why can't I just go to sleep, and never wake up again?!...

Notes

Hi there chipmunks.. GeesCLUELESSgirl here..

Sorry I've kept you waiting for this chapter, but writing's been kinda hard for me lately.. But here it is, a new chapter, and I'm sorry also that it's quite depressing, and I hope those of you who get triggered easily take precautions and stay safe.

Anyway.. Please comment, and peace out babies!
<3 Love ya all!.. Stay safe!!! X