Mute

Gerard's pov*

I was enjoying what was happening between Frank and me, until I got this like, memory, or flashback, or something.
Just as Frank started to undo my pants, I got this sudden and crippling feeling of terror, and images flashed through my mind, ones that must have reflected in my eyes. And I bolted!.. I just up and ran for the bathroom, slamming the door and collapsing against it.
Then those memories came flooding back...

"We're off out boys!.. There's money for pizza in the kitchen!.. Play nice!.. We'll be back about midnight!" Then my foster parents at the time, Judith and Malcolm, left for their anniversary dinner.
I was sat on the couch, cross legged in my Batman pjs, watching some crappy sci-fi movie, when my stepbrother, Robert, came into the room.
Robert was 17, and I was only 11 at the time, so we hadn't really got much in common.. Plus, y'know, there's the whole "me not talking" thing!
He came over and sat next to me. Too close!.. I don't like people too close!
I shifted a little away, but suddenly he was on top of me.. Pinning me down.. Touching me.. Kissing me.. And despite how hard I struggled, he was just so much fucking stronger than I was.
I lost my virginity that night, to that sick, perverted rapist son of a bitch!.. And for the next two months that I stayed there.. Before I finally did something bad enough for them to send me packing.. Robert continued to visit me most nights, using my own socks to gag me from making a sound. He also took every opportunity to "babysit" me!

I remember now!.. But oh!.. how I wish I didn't!
I can hear Frank through the door. He's trying to talk to me.. Trying to get me to open up.. But all I can do is sit here and gasp for breath that I don't seem able to get..
I'm headed into a major panic attack, and I don't think there's anything I can do to stop it.
There's black spots invading my vision now, and I know I'm gonna pass out very soon "Frankie!" I whisper, as everything turns to black.

Notes

Hi there chipmunks.. GeesCLUELESSgirl here!..

Sorry it's been a while, and I could give excuses about the weather being too hot.. (Which it was).. or about me being ill.. (Which I was!).. but the thing that really stopped me from writing this, or anything else for that matter, was that I'm lazy!.. Simple as that!.. But I got my thumb out of my ass now, and I'm back to it!.. So expect updates on most of my fics within the next few days.. It might take a while to update them all, (as I'm writing 18 right now) but I WILL get there.. Eventually.

Anyway.. Please comment, stay safe, and peace out babies!
<3 Love ya all!