Sing It Out

I awoke the next morning after the best night of my life. My eyes half opened as I breathed in a deep breath and a tight feeling formed in my chest as I remembered the previous night. An all new experience, my first time, and I spent it with the most miraculous boy I have ever known. 
"Baby-" came a voice from beside me as an arm snaked around my hips. I turned and came face to face with the man I love. 
"Oh good morning my darling." I replied as I placed a kiss on his forehead. 
"So, how was my baby's night?" he asked with a grin as he pressed his body further into mine. I smiled widely and let out a deep breath, one I thought I wasn't holding. 
"Oh how can I put this? Marvellous? Amazing? Incredible? Extraordinary? Thank you Gee." I said. "But I guess I should get dressed now." I said before I slowly unraveled myself from the tangle of bodies and sheets. Eventually, I managed to make it to my scattered clothes and pants and began to put them on. 
"Yanno, I liked the clothes that you were wearing last night," Gerard said, which made me rather confused. 
"But, I wasn't wearing any clothes?" 
"Exactly, you should wear that more often." he said before wolf whistling me. I rolled my eyes at him as I began to put my pants on, making it seem like I was having a hard time putting them on and wiggling my ass a little bit more than what I needed to. I could hear Gerard giggle behind me as I pulled the waistline over my butt. I turned and remembered something. 
"Oh yeah! I remember now, I made up a bunch of chords and they sound fucking amazing output together. You need to hear it." 
"Yeah! Go ahead, play it!" he said rather enthusiastically. I then grabbed Pansy and played the chords. They all came naturally as I looked up at Gerard who was grinning from ear to ear. To my surprise, he began to sing.

'Without a sound I took her down
and dressed in red and blue I squeezed
Imaginary wedding gown
That you can't wear in front of me
A kiss goodbye, your twisted shell
As rice grains and roses fall at your feet
Lets say goodbye, the hundredth time
And then tomorrow we'll do it again
Tomorrow we'll do it again'

*Later that day*

"Mom, I'm going back with Gerard to his house to talk to his mom and brother." I called out. I heard a faint 'okay!' in the distance and we went out the front door. Gerard immediately linked his hands with mine and we walked down the street, hand in hand. We did get the occasional look, some disgust and some in just genuine interest. I guess it isn't normal to do this? Why is it okay with a woman and a man but not okay with a man and a man? Or even a woman and a woman? It's the same isn't it? We're all the same under the skin, it's just the way we choose to live our lives. Sometimes you don't even know it. I never thought I was gay until I met Gerard and nothing incredibly bad has happened due to that. The only bad things that have happened is due to other people and their own views of this whole topic.
Within ten minutes we arrived at Gerards house. As we walked up to the door, Gerard hesitated slightly and pulled me to the side. 
"Frankie, thank you so much for everything you've done." he said. I didn't reply, I only pulled at him so his body collided with mine and I embraced him. He buried his head into the crook of my neck and breathed deeply. Eventually, I pulled away and indicated that we should go inside. As soon as the door opened, we was met by shouts, stomping and an unbelievable amount of profanities. 
"Gerard! Frank?! What the fuck, where was you?! We've been worried sick!" came Mikey's voice soon followed by Mrs Ways voice. 
"Wait, let me explain for one second!" I called out. To my surprise, they actually stopped and were listening to me. 

I explained everything. From the cafe, trying to find him, eventually finding him, his panic attack and even how my mom helped him and possibly saved his life. I decided to leave out the- activities- that unfolded that night, but they didn't need to know that. Gerard sat on the windowsill for the whole time that I was talking with his head buried in his hands, as if he was disappointed or embarrassed. I walked over to him and placed my arm around his shoulder in comfort. 
I'd finally finished explaining and Mikey and Mrs Way had both seemed to be calmer. Mrs Way actually began crying and rushed over to her elder son. 
"Oh Gosh Gerard, I'm so sorry. I'm such a terrible fucking mother." 
"No! You're not! I wasn't thinking straight, Frank was the only person there. I'm so sorry." he apologised. 

Later that night, we all retreated to our rooms for the night. And there was Gerard and I, both laid on his bed face to face. 
"Do you think you can go to school tomorrow? We've missed quite a lot of lessons." I asked. 
"Yeah, I guess I can."
"I'm so sorry about Ray. I don't know what's going on with him at all."
"It's okay. Don't worry, I've got eyes for you and you only. You're my all." Gerard admitted. I replied only with a smile and a shuffle closer to him. He smiled and wrapped his arm around me. 
"Now let's get some sleep. Still tired from the other night." Gerard winked. I sighed and leaned into him. Within minutes I had drifted into a blissful sleep. 

*The next day, at school.*

For the first time, I didnt walk with Gerard around school this time. I didn't want him with me as I went on the lookout for a certain someone. I know I got called some words, some names probably something to do with being emo or a fucking faggot again. But I do t give a fuck, I need to get some things sorted out. I weaved through corridors, classrooms, even the fucking toilets to find him. I eventually found him for some reason in a Maths classroom. He never fucking Goes in here, not even when it's timetabled. 
"Ray!" I shouted at him as he raised his head from the table. 
"What do you want?" he asked rather rudely. 
"Please tell me you're over the other day. That was not called for at all." I told him. He sighed and eventually looked at me. 
"Yeah, I don't know what went on but, god, I'm so sorry I'm such a fuck up." 
"No, no, I guess anyone would fall for him." I said in a rather cliche tone. Even Ray noticed as he Pulled a face at me. 
"Oh sorry, its just I really don't want things to mess with him, he doesn't deserve it."
"Yeah, I know. I'm sorry." he apologised. For the first time in a few days, he actually sounded genuine. 
"So I guess I'll see you at practice?" I asked rather enthusiastically. 
"Yeah. In a bit." he finalized before I exited the room. The school bell went off and signalled the start of my first lesson. English, great. Studying Of Mice and Men for the millionth time, fucking themes of loneliness. Hey, just look at me before Gerard happened, I know everything about fucking loneliness. I guess I should get there before our teacher bollocks us again for being a minute late. 

*Later that day at band practice.*

"Alright ladies, bring it in I have some news!" Mr Bryar announced. We all naturally put down our instruments and walked towards our teacher. Gerard wiped his forehead and was breathing heavily, he had tried really hard today. 
"Right, I've talked to the head teacher and he's agreed to have us in assembly in front of all the students in this school this afternoon performing our new song." he said with a smile. We all just stared at him, half in bewilderment and half in panic. We couldn't do this! We'd just learnt the song and we still haven't performed it! 
"But we haven't finished it!" Mikey objected of which Mr Bryar raised his hand.
"Shut up, be grateful you guys all have incredible talent and you need to realize this and show it the the whole fucking world." he explained. All of a sudden, we all had this moment, as if we could actually have a future, this could be our future, all of us together making music. The dream was quickly in our grasp. We can do it. I smiled broadly as I could see that everyone had the same realization. Mikey made a sound of remembrance as he ran to his bag and pulled something out. It looked like a book as Mikey smiled from ear to ear. I walked closer to him so I could read the title.
It read 'Ecstasy:Three Tales of Chemical Romance'. 
"I saw the title in the book store I work in and it really grabbed my attention. I have been thinking about the name of this- band." Mikey suggested. 
"My Chemical Romance." Gerard breathed. A wave of fresh air brushed over us as we all looked at each other again. 
"Yes! Thats perfect!" I cheered as the others cheered and whooped. 
"Right guys, let's get a few practices in before the big 'show!" Bob announced. We all agreed and went to practice our song. 

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