Broken but perfect

‘’But, people touching you?’’ Frank said looking up at me

‘’Frank, you have no idea how much I missed you. I don’t care if you touch me.’’ I said and returned to hugging him. I heard the door shut behind us and I assumed Pete left.

‘’Can you tell me what in the fuck happened, Gerard?’’ I sat down on a chair and Frank sat on my lap. I didn’t mind, it was better than him sitting in a chair across from me or next to me. He laid his head on my shoulder and intertwined my fingers with his. If this was anybody else, I would be freaking out, but I trusted Frank and trusted that he wouldn’t hurt me.

‘’It was Misha.’’ I said quietly and ran my fingers through his hair

‘’Oh no. Gerard, what did he do?’’ I didn’t answer, I didn’t want to. I didn’t want Frank to do anything, I could handle it. If I ever got out of here. ‘’Gerard, what did Misha do?’’ he said looking at me worriedly. ‘’Gerard.’’ he said emphasizing my name to get my attention. I didn’t know what to say. I mean, how am I supposed to tell the person I love most in this world I was raped by my ex boyfriend who I shouldn’t have even been talking to?

‘’He-’’ I stuttered, knowing how to put it, just not wanting to say it. I leaned down, and whispered it in his ear like there were other people in the room. He stood up, and looked at me with tears in his eyes.

‘’Oh my god, Gerard. Are you okay?’’ he said and wiped the tears in his eyes away

‘’I was raped by my ex boyfriend, do you think I’m okay?’’

‘’Why did you not tell me, Gerard?’’ I stood up and walked towards him. I pulled him into a hug in attempt to make him feel better and he he buried his head in my chest.

‘’I’m sorry, Frank. I should’ve told you.’’ I said and kissed the top of his head

‘Yeah, you should’ve.’’ he said backing up so he could look at me

‘’I’m sorry. Just promise me that you’re not going to go see MIsha and do something.’’

‘’Why shouldn’t I?’’

‘’Because he’s twenty-six and you’re only seventeen.’’

‘’He’s twenty-six?’’ he said surprised and raised an eyebrow

‘’Yeah.’’
‘’And you’re how old?’’

‘’Eightteen.’’

‘’Eightteen? Gerard that’s a six year fucking difference.’’

‘’Yeah, I know.’’

‘’How old were you when you dated him?’’

‘’Sixteen. I mostly just dated him because I thought he was cool and he bought me alcohol and cigarettes.’’

‘’And that makes it okay?’’ he said getting angry

‘’No, but I was really fucked up at the time and he had Jensen as a friend and Jensen thought I was cool so he gave me drugs and shit. Then shortly after me and Misha broke up, I got into a huge fight with my mom and she kicked me out and Misha said I could live with him so I did.’’

‘’He still raped you, Gerard. I have to do something about it.’’

‘’No Frank. You’re not going to tell anyone, and you’re not going to talk to Misha. Okay? Don’t do anything, Frank.’’

‘’Gerard-’’

‘’No,Frank.’’ I said sternly

‘’O-’’

‘’Gerard.’’ I heard a voice say, cutting of Frank. I looked at the door, where the voice came from and saw Pete standing there.

‘’Hi, Pete.’’ I said annoyed from Frank

‘’Gerard, Ms.Talbo wants to see you.’’ Ms.Talbo. Who was that?

‘’Who’s that?’’ I asked raising an eyebrow at Pete

‘’The woman you were talking to yesterday.’’ Oh thank god. I needed to find out why the hell I was in here. I’m not crazy, I know I’m not.

‘’Oh, okay.’’ I said and turned to Frank. I moved the hair out of his face and kissed his forehead.

‘’Frank, someone’ll come and escort you out.’’ Pete said

‘’Okay.’’ Frank said and hugged me ‘’Bye, Gerard.’’ he said and sat down

‘’Bye.’’ I said and followed Pete to Ms.Talbo’s office. I walked through the door and she was sitting at her desk waiting for me.

‘’Hello, Gerard.’’ I didn’t say anything, just sat down in a chair. ‘’Thank you, Pete.’’ she said and he nodded and walked out. ‘’So, Gerard, how are you doing today.’’

‘’I’m in a mental hospital and I’m pretty sure my boyfriend’s pissed at me. How do you think I’m doing?’’

‘’I’m sorry, Gerard.’’

‘’No you’re not. Can you just tell me what I’m here?’’ I asked sinking down in my chair

‘’Gerard, do you have any memory of what happened early yesterday?’’

‘’No.’’ I said hesitantly

‘’And that’s happened more than once hasn’t it?’’

I nodded slowly ‘’H-how’d you know that?’’

‘’I know a lot about you, Gerard.’’

‘’How?’’ I asked picking at my fingers, taking off bit of the skin.

‘’I just do.’’ Yeah, that answered my question. I rolled my eyes and sunk down in my chair. She grabbed a file from the corner of her desk and opened it. I assume it’s a file about me. Great. I didn’t see much because she was hiding it. Suddenly, the first thing I saw made me sick. My breath caught in my throat and I gasped loudly. ’’Gerard? What’s wrong.’’

‘’M-my brother.’’ I stuttered out, staring at the file

‘’What about him?’’ she asked and moved forward a little. I backed up and stumbled out of the chair. I fell to the floor with a loud thump. I quickly and nervously stumbled to my feet and ran out the door, slamming it behind me. I didn’t get far before collapsing to the floor in pain.

Notes

Sorry it took so long to update, but here ya go ^.^ xX