A Little's Enough

Weeks later
Gerard’s POV
I ran around trying to get the last of my things packed for the morning. In an hour I was supposed to be at Teigann’s house and if I didn’t hurry up, I’d be late. I didn’t want that though. It would be hard being away from her for the time I’d be gone. In a month we’d become really close. She was my best friend, probably the best I’d ever had. What no one knew was that I planned to make a phone call once a day, every day that I was gone. I was attached, and there was nothing that would detach me. It was to the point where I couldn’t go to sleep at the end of the day without talking to her first, even if it was only for a minute.
Packing the last few objects into my bag, I threw on a clean shirt, and grabbed my keys from the bedside table. Mikey was out with Toby, so I didn’t have to deal with him bugging me on my way out.

In no time, I was at Teigann’s. I parked the car and strode up to her door fairly slow. I knocked on the door twice, and waited patiently, an anxious smile on my face. I never remembered smiling so much before I met her. I had always been distant from the world. When I got out of the hospital after my uh… accident, Mikey coaxed me into starting the band with him and the other guys. And then when I met Teigann, it was like I’d never felt happiness before, until that night at my house.
It all sounded so lame, which made it impossible for me to explain to her. But more than anything else in the world, I wanted her to know. We had decided to exclude the rest of the group from our hang out before I left for vacation. I was being selfish, and I wanted her all to myself. That way I could hold her, and be with her like always when it was just the two of us. I’d thought by now that she’d be sick of my random kisses on the cheek, my sudden need to hold her hand. But when I felt like I’d never be able to be anything more than her friend, I’d take advantage of the fact she’d let me be close to her.

Breaking me free of my thoughts that were never ending, Teigann’s mother answered the door, dressed and ready for work.
“Good morning Gerard.” she welcomed me.
“Good morning, is she up and moving?” I smiled.

Teigann’s mom wasn’t a bad person, she was actually a really great person, a trait her daughter inherited. But just like I’d been told the first night Teigann and I met, her mom’s boyfriend was sketchy. The first time I met him, I understood why Teigann didn’t like him, and I stayed protective of her the entire time he was around.
“She’s just in her room.” She turned towards the hall, yelling out Teigann’s name.
Moments later, Teigann walked around the corner into the living room, looking beautiful as she always did.
“I’ll leave you kids be. I have to head out for work anyways.”
“Bye mom.” Teigann smiled, walking over to giver her a hug.
I stood to the side patiently as Teigann spoke to her mom quickly before she left for work. She sent me quick smiles over her mom’s shoulder, and I in return sent her lopsided smiles. When her mom said goodbye, I returned that politely as well. And then, it was just Teigann and I.

“Good morning beautiful.” I greeted her, opening my arms to her for a hug.
She smiled big, and blushed a little too before she found her way to my arms.
“Good morning Mr.” she breathed into my chest.
“Get a good sleep?” I asked, looking down to her face. Sometimes it was nerve racking to be so close to her. I was always afraid I’d lose my restraint and I’d end up going and kissing her instead of just kissing her cheek or something. Then there was the fact that my heart was thudding so fast in my chest, which her ear was usually pressed up against.
“Mhmm… mostly. Had some problems in the middle of the night, but I eventually got back to sleep.” she smiled up at me. “How about you Gerard, sleep well?”
“The sleep I got was good. But I ended up leaving all my packing to the last minute, so I had to get up extra early today to finish packing in time.”
“You must be tired then. Why don’t we sit?” She pulled out of the hug, took my hand in hers and led me around to sit on the couch.

I ended up sitting slouched, with my feet up across the couch. Teigann situated herself so that her head was rested on my chest and the rest of her body was curled up beside my legs.
“Thanks for coming to spend the day with me before you leave.” I heard her say quietly.
“Wouldn’t have it any other way sugar.” I replied, rubbing my hand on her shoulder.
And I wouldn’t have it any other way. There was something about Teigann that just brought out the good in me, the parts I didn’t think had survived all the bad shit. Which sounded even more lame, giving me even more fear against ever telling her what she meant to me.
“I’m glad.” And then she cuddled into me more, if that was even possible, creating a calm comfortable silence.

This same behaviour lasted for a few hours, with small talk every now and then. Eventually I felt Teigann’s stomach make a gurgling sensation against my leg so I made her get up so we could have lunch. I made us grilled cheese, and we continued our day by watching movies. Even though we barely spoke for most of the day, we somehow still managed to communicate a great deal. It was amazing not having to really say much but still knowing the silence was perfect and not awkward.

Just after the start of our second movie, the phone rang, startling us both. Teigann answered right away, finding her mom on the other end. It turned out that she was going to stay the night at her boyfriend’s again, and so Teigann would be alone for the night when I left. I was a bit concerned by the expression on her face when she hung up, and I quickly decided I’d stay until she was ready for bed, even if I had to be up at 3 am. Hoping she’d be okay for the rest of the night when I left, I snuggled her a little more.

I believe it was halfway through our third movie when we fell asleep. I knew it was after Elizabethtown, because we I remembered wiping away Teigh’s tears during Drew’s father’s funeral when Free Bird by Lynard Skynard played.

After the movie was over, I also remember her apologizing to me for crying when she remembered her uncle’s funeral. They had played Free Bird as well, in his memory because it was his favorite song. I told her never to be sorry for a tear shed. I had no problem with her crying, other than the fact it made worlds shatter seeing someone so special break down and cry.

When we woke up though, it was around 8. When we were both more alert, I suggested that we go out to get a bite to eat. We ended up going to some little hole in the wall restaurant and ordering fries. The only thing we weren’t sharing was our drinks, I had iced tea, and she was drinking Sprite. In about an hours time, we were back at her house, and yet again, watching another movie. This time I was sitting normally on the couch, with my feet up resting on the black pleather chair. Teigann, was leaning into me, head rested against my chest near my shoulder, legs sprawled over the rest of the couch. I had my left arm gently draped over her shoulder, and my head slightly rested on hers.

Instead of really paying attention to the movie though, we talked, nearly the whole way through. When we clued back into the movie, Marc was in the middle of his speech about saving Empire. Empire Records was one of her favorite movies of all time, and she knew the script off by heart. We’d watched it a few times, and that was why it didn’t matter that we weren’t paying attention to it. Just like in the movie, I had to somehow get up the guts to tell Teigann that I cared about her, as more than my friend, just as A.J had to confess to Corey that he loved her.