chemical death

Me and robert wait and wait and wait
and wait
aaaaaaanndd wait
but she doesnt come.
robert starts switching through the chanells
"wait go back!" I tell him
"a girls dead body was found just an hour ago near the market. She seemed to be shot and stabbed multiple times. Inspectors are asking around and seeing if anyone knew the girl. If you do please call us immediately." The woman on the t.v said
"oh my god my sisters dead!" Robert yells and then bursts out crying.
i try to calm him down but he wont.
"im gonna call them." I say after a while.
i grab their phone and call
"hello 666 news how may i help you?"
"yeah im calling about the girl you guys found near the market."
"oh yes that one" she says
"im her cousin and im here right now with her brother. "
"oh alright would you guys mind coming over to the scene?"
"ill come but her brother probably wont he cant really handle it."
"we'll take what we can get."
and that was the end of the call
"robert im leaving now okay? Are you going to be fine?"
he hums in response still crying.
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at the scene
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"shut that damn camera off!" I yell as i get near the body
yep its her.
"whats your name little girl?" One of the pice men ask
"first off im not a little girl. Bandit lee way daughter of gerard way and lindsey ballato. " i say
"wait gerard way? The one who committed suicide?"
i give him a death stare and he backs up a little
"yes"
"must be a pretty harsh week for you." He says coldly
" do you think you're helping withall this shit of asking about my family deaths? Shouldnt you be trying to figure out who killed my cousin?"
my voice doesn't crack it doesnt sound sad it sounds anger filled as though im gonna rip him apart and feed him to satan.
it stays quite for a minute. Its probably uncomfortable silence for him but for me it feels like if i dont have this silence im going to murder everyone.
"so his brother and her...?"
"daughter and son of mikey and alicia way." I countinue because i know he's going to ask. "Alicia way is dead got murdered at the pot of gold festival in 2016. Killer was never found." I sound like i have no soul.
well i don't.
im pretty much dead inside
he writes this stuff down
then i continue. "The girl is Michele way. Brother: Robert way. They're twins."
"thank you for your time ms.bandit"
i leave and go home finally.
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home
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"mom?" I ask as i enter the house.
"heloo!!!how are you sweety?"
why isshe so cheerful? I look around and there i see them a bottle of antidepressants and a shot glass.

Notes

hi
im sad