What are you doing to me?

I woke up drenched in sweat and tears. My hands violently shaking as I wiped away the currently falling tears. I really hope I just dreamed everything that happened last night; but the soreness of my jaw and the bruise on my knees tell me other wise....
I only just realized I wasn't in my bed and immediately started panicking. Where am I? I looked around, it was too dark for me to see and then I felt someone stir next to me, Gerard was okay... Right? Then the memories of the rest of the night flooded in. My breathing clamed down considerably, but I was still breathing shakily.
I felt Gerard pull me closer to him and start playing with my hair. He began singing yet another unfamiliar tune:

" move your body when the sunlight dies
Everybody hide your body from the scarecrow
Everybody hide

Make a wish when your childhood dies
Hear the knock, knock, knock when she cries
We're all alone tonight
Hold your breath when a black bird flies
Count to seventeen and close your eyes
I'll keep you safe inside

He burns my skin
Never mind about the shape I'm in
I'll keep you safe tonight yeah, yeah

Move your body when the sunlight dies
Everybody hide your body from the scarecrow
Everybody hide

Blow a kiss at the methane skies
See the rust through your play ground eyes
We're all in love tonight
Leave a dream where the fallout lies Watch it grow where the tearstain dries
To keep you safe tonight

He burns my skin
Never mind about the shape I'm in
I'll keep you safe tonight yeah, yeah

Move your body when the sunlight dies
Everybody hide your body from the scarecrow
Everybody hide

Love, love
Love won't stop this bomb, bomb
Love won't stop this bomb, bomb
Love won't stop this bomb

Run, run, bunny, run
Run, run, bunny, run

Move your body when the sunlight dies
Everybody hide your body from the scarecrow
Everybody hide "

it had a rhythm that was hypnotic enough to make you want to hear it again and again, but, was soothing enough to fall asleep to....

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When I woke up I checked the clock, it was 11 in the morning, and my jaw was sore. What happened last night...? I couldn't remember a thing. Did I get drunk? Did I give Gee violent head? Whatever it was, I was sore and sticky
I looked over at Gerard and kissed his forehead, he looked so peaceful when he slept, usually, but he looked disturbed. His pink lips pressed into a thin line, his forehead a little crinkled- almost as if he was having a nightmare. I know what will make him feel better when he wakes up.
' Pancakes' I said to myself. But first a shower, so I set off to find my clothes and jumped in the shower

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I got out of the shower and saw Gerard was still passed out. Good, it'd be better that way- he always ate the batter.
I made my way up stairs and gathered everything to make pancakes and turned on the radio
" Black Love" by Black Flag was on so I turned it up and started singing and dancing to it all whilst making pancakes, only wearing underwear and one of the random shirts I found on the floor- which, I'm asuming, is Gerard's. Oh well

About 8 songs later and halfway through the pancake batter, the radio was turned down. I looked over to see Gerard looking at me with nothing but utter love and admiration in his eyes. He kissed my forehead 'morning, is there any coffee?' I nodded at served him a cup. He took it gratefully and sat at the table ' is that my shirt?' I looked down to find my assumptions were correct
'yes, it is. How many pancakes do you want?' he held up 3 fingers as he took a drink of his coffee. I served him and put the condiments out in front of him so he can put what he wants on them.
When I sat down next to him at the table he was looking at me with a gleam in his eyes and said 'what are you doing to me, Iero? I've never felt this way and am , I'll admit, a little scared. But at the same time I feel so powerful.' he looked at his pancakes and then back at me 'all of this for me, after all that happened yesterday I-'
I cut him off ' what happened yesterday? I don't remember a thing at all' his eyes got big and then they returned back to normal.
'you don't remember anything?' I shook my head ' never mind that right now. After this we'll go and talk to Dr. Maria, okay?' I nodded. What happened...? Why can't I remember anything?
He took my hand in his 'its nothing to worry about, just something that needs to be checked on. Don't worry. Eat up'
What was going on?

Notes

Love, as always

Xo s-omeone-els-e