What are you doing to me?

From the time Mikey and I got to my parent's house to now, we've been smothered in compliment after compliment. Everyone was being strangely nice to us, even my grandma- who has disliked Mikey since I first brought him over. We've been here for about three hours now, and no one will let us leave to go to the hospital.
"I don't see why we can go and see Julian today, ma. Is he having surgery now?"
"Mi hijo, there's something that we all need to tell you. Take a seat." she motioned for us to follow her to the living room, everyone stood up and followed. Mikey and I exchanged a nervous glance as we both walked in and found everyone has turned sullen.
"What's going on?" my voice was shaky, I was starting to get really scared now. Mikey placed his hand in mine and intertwined our fingers.
"Sit down and we'll tell you." my Tio's sharp voice came from the other side of the room. I looked around at all of my cousins, tia's, tio's, grandparents and parents. they all looked heart broken and near tears.
I sat farthest from anyone, Mikey in tow. He knew something was up too, because he wrapped his arm around my shoulders and held me tightly, bracing me for the storm that was sure to hit.

"As you know, Julian was extremely ill and we didn't know what it was until six months ago. And after we found out what illness he had, we were told that his time with us was limited" my tia Linda took a shaky breath, tears falling from her eyes. I looked at everyone else and saw that they were all crying too. Wait, she used pass tense when she was talking about Julian.

"Julian passed away?" my voice was tiny, my eyes were prickled with tears. Mikey's arms tightened themselves around me.
Nobody looked me in the eyes, answering my question silently. I started sobbing hard into Mikey's shirt.
"I'm sorry mijo, we should've told you sooner." my dad said, squeezing my bawling mom.
"Yeah you should have. Why wasn't I called? Why am I always the last one to find things out in this family?!" my voice was getting louder and louder the angrier I got.
"Ray, calm down, I'm sure there's a resonable explanation." Mikey attempted to soothe me.
"We didn't know how to tell you, this isn't something that can be said over the phone." I stood up and was already walking out of the living room. "We didn't mean for it to be like this. I couldn't bring myself to saw it over the phone, or at all. Please, Michael, please make sure he know that." I didn't hear Mikey's reply , I just heard his footsteps leading to my room door.
I have been trying not to let myself cry in front of my family, but as soon as I crawled into my old bed, I lost control. The tears I've been holding back poured out of my eyes without a sign of stopping anytime soon. Mikey locked my room door and laid down next to me, instantly taking me into his arms.

"Shh, shh baby. Breathe." I took two deep breaths. "I love you, Raymond. So much." I cried harder and harder into his shirt, curling my fists into it as well.

Why me? Why Julian? Why anything?

Notes

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