Zombie Movie

*Franks POV*

Don’t fuck this up. Frank kept repeating to himself over and over again while pacing around his apartment. It had been three months since he started dating Gerard. He stopped going to his therapist and stopped taking his pills. Although the meds worked, they dulled his senses down. He wanted to be alive and fully there with Gee. Why did he need them anymore anyways? He was happy. He couldn’t even remember the last time he was naturally happy.

Frank thought back to the last day he saw his family. Today was the anniversary of when everything finally went to shit and he left home. He had just outed himself as gay to his parents and siblings at dinner, or has he liked to call it, finally been true. The awful words that were thrown his way still echoed throughout his head. You fuck up. Fag. You stupid bitch. He tried to hold back tears as he remembered his families disgusted faces. He remembered his mothers ice face when she told him to leave, when she told him that he would never find happiness. That he was worthless. It’s all true.
My own family doesn't love me. I’m just a stupid piece of shit. He knew that these were irrational thoughts, if anything, Gee had shown him that he could find love and happiness, but this sudden wave of depression was coming with such a force that he couldn’t get out of the deep hole of dark thoughts that was clouding his reality.

Frank had always been second best, if that, compared to his brother and sister. They were twins and Franks opposite in every way. They got straight A’s, just completed Med school and both were engaged to wealthy equals. Frank was a gay, struggling tattoo artist. Last month he had finally gotten a gig at Tattoo Society down the street. He absolutely loved it, and all of his friends and Gerard celebrated his achievement. He thought he was doing well, really making something of himself. He called his parents to tell them the good news, maybe start anew. Unfortunately, that wasn’t what happened.
*Flashback*

“So you want us to be proud of you....? Frank I don’t even know what to say. We’re not proud. You went against everything we wanted you to be. All you’re doing is scarring peoples skin.”
Frank rolled his eyes, trying to not let his parents ruin his good news.
“I’m not just “scarring” peoples skin. I’m creating art. Art that means a lot to people.” Even Frank could hear the shakiness in his voice. He heard his dad mumble to his mother through the phone
“He hasn’t changed, think of how easy things would be if his overdose took.”

Frank was stunned. When he turned 18 he finally decided to end his pain. He was tired of being ignored and if not ignored, bullied to no end. There was no safe place for him. So he tried to overdose. A stranger found him in the parking lot and brought him to the hospital. His family only showed up to discharge him afterwards.
“ You know what? Nevermind, fuck you.” Frank said, thankful that they couldn’t see the tears welling up in his eyes over the phone.
“Whatever Frank, don’t call us again unless you’re ready to admit that you are in the wrong. Why can’t you be more like your brother and sister?” With a sigh, his mother hung up the phone.

*End of Flashback*
He was so confused, how could he be so happy and sad at the same time? He can’t let Gerard see him like this. He can’t pull Gee into the shitstorm that is his life. But he didn’t want to break up with him either. Maybe it would be better if he just...tried again. Ended himself.
Now Frank was sitting on his old sofa, trying to ignore the memories that he and Gee had shared on it. The laughs, the quiet talks...the sex. Was it all worth leaving? Yes. He thought to himself. He’s being selfish. He didn’t want Gerard to worry about him. And he couldn’t pretend anymore.

Frank walked to his bathroom cupboard and pulled out his pills. He turned on his tub, took off his clothes and got in. He quickly swallowed the pills and let the darkness take him over. Through the fog he thought he could hear a crash from outside of the bathroom...too late now. He sighed to himself while his body shut down.

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