Risky And Complicated, Confused And New
You get used to it
Frank's POV
I felt kind of bad when Gerard walked in late for English but I've done this so many times to other kids I get used to it. There is something special about Gerard though, I really kind of like him but I can never show that.. Well.. I don't exactly know how. Aslong as I keep on bullying him though, I can be close to him. It's not just about filling the whole in my heart my Father put there anymore I really like being near Gerard, this is so selfish of me but I am going to keep on hurting him, just so I can touch him and be in his mind, whether it's bad or good. Well, it's not like he's ever going to like me now anyway after the way I treat him, I might as well carry on.
At lunch I meet Ray in the Refec and meet his other friends, they are all really nice, total meatheads though. I gotta dumb things down for them to be accepted, as I usually do.
I am secretly very clever though and get great grades! But if I ever told anyone that then of course I'd be bullied, I am already tiny for my age anyway so.. I have to be so careful.
At lunch I see Gerard sat at a table on his own, flipping through his notebook whilst half-eating his tuna sandwich. He looks really cute to be honest, I'd love to just go sit with him and talk to him and get to know him, but as I said before, I have to be careful.
After lunch I pertend not to see Gerard, he does the same with me. I don't want to cause more trouble and hurt him anymore, of course I will again in the future, afterall it helps me feel bigger and I kinda like being with him too even if it does mean hurting him alot, I will never hurt this boy too much though, I never do to any one. I care about people, like my Father cares about me.
Soon it's the end of the day and I can go home. I walk home on my own, dreading every step.
As soon as I get home my Dad is out. "Phew" I sigh. Thank goodness he isn't here so. He must be out at the pub with his idiot mates.
I decide to order pizza for dinner, who could go wrong with that?
When it comes, I eat my pizza alone in the dining room, feeling depressed at the silence and lonliness, as usual.
After I head upstairs and get ready to go to bed.
I felt kind of bad when Gerard walked in late for English but I've done this so many times to other kids I get used to it. There is something special about Gerard though, I really kind of like him but I can never show that.. Well.. I don't exactly know how. Aslong as I keep on bullying him though, I can be close to him. It's not just about filling the whole in my heart my Father put there anymore I really like being near Gerard, this is so selfish of me but I am going to keep on hurting him, just so I can touch him and be in his mind, whether it's bad or good. Well, it's not like he's ever going to like me now anyway after the way I treat him, I might as well carry on.
At lunch I meet Ray in the Refec and meet his other friends, they are all really nice, total meatheads though. I gotta dumb things down for them to be accepted, as I usually do.
I am secretly very clever though and get great grades! But if I ever told anyone that then of course I'd be bullied, I am already tiny for my age anyway so.. I have to be so careful.
At lunch I see Gerard sat at a table on his own, flipping through his notebook whilst half-eating his tuna sandwich. He looks really cute to be honest, I'd love to just go sit with him and talk to him and get to know him, but as I said before, I have to be careful.
After lunch I pertend not to see Gerard, he does the same with me. I don't want to cause more trouble and hurt him anymore, of course I will again in the future, afterall it helps me feel bigger and I kinda like being with him too even if it does mean hurting him alot, I will never hurt this boy too much though, I never do to any one. I care about people, like my Father cares about me.
Soon it's the end of the day and I can go home. I walk home on my own, dreading every step.
As soon as I get home my Dad is out. "Phew" I sigh. Thank goodness he isn't here so. He must be out at the pub with his idiot mates.
I decide to order pizza for dinner, who could go wrong with that?
When it comes, I eat my pizza alone in the dining room, feeling depressed at the silence and lonliness, as usual.
After I head upstairs and get ready to go to bed.
I NEEEEEEEED MOOOOOAAAAAAAARRRRRR DON'T BE A SPERM GURGLING GUTTER SLUT
9/17/15