The Ghost Of You
Cancer
Every breath hurts. The room smelled of the flowers that had been brought in from family members, the sweet scent burning with my breaths. In the end, I couldn't be strong enough. My family was crying and I couldn't tell them not to be upset. My breathing was labored and words could barely be spoken. The pain was filling up my lungs and I felt like I was drowning. The docter's went by in a blur. My parents were sobbing next to me. "Mom, Dad... Am I going to Heaven?" I choked. My mom cried more. "No sweetie, you'll be just fine." My dad whispered the tears engulfing him. I knew this was a lie. I had been expecting death. I knew from the moment the docter's had walked mom and dad into the other room to give them important news. The darkness around my eyes was closing in until I could barely see. My heart rate monitor was wavering. The docter's were worried. I could here singing in my ears. But... It wasn't the angels.
"Turn away,
If you could get me a drink
Of water 'cause my lips are chapped and faded
Call my aunt Marie......"
The music faded. Nurses were all standing around me. My parents were gone. My eyesight wavered again and I was back in the room with my parents. My lungs were overflowing with fluid. That's it... The cancer was killing me now. The illness that made the kids at school step away from me. The reason I had to quit swimming and stop playing guitar. "Al--Alex." I sputtered. I wanted to see my little brother one more time before I died.
The nurses ran to bring him in. "Are you alright sissy?" He asked pained. He could tell I wasn't okay. I nodded, not able to speak anymore. I heard the beeps on the monitor go on as I was about to take my final breath. This was it. The end. Who would know what would happen. But maybe I'd see my aunt. She told me to be brave. I was faintly aware of my parents' heart wrenching sobs. My little brother asking what was happening as the heart line was leaving. The ring of darkness around my eyes was getting bigger. The darkness enveloped me and I was back in the other room. Nurses surrounded my bed. I couldn't feel a beating in my chest. The walls fell down as I got out of the bed. My hospital gown the same. I looked around as I saw a familiar scene unravel before my eyes.
I had joined The Black Parade.
Notes
I'm sorry if it's really bad.
Stay beautiful.
XOXO
