My Hell is Your Heaven

It's been a few months.
everyone is really nice to me. In the group at least. Gerard kinda flirts with me, I try not to blush because he's so fucking adorable and I can't stand it. Mikey says I need to bewear of his older brother, but I want to learn more about him. Let me update you, I get beat the shit out of me everyday. Mostly by Pete, fucking jackass, funny thing is Mikey has the hugest crush on him. Only I know about it. That's right, Fuck the other guys, I'm special. I just hope if they start fucking the beatings will be gone. Highly unlikely yet likely. Fuck if I know. I'm just glad I have friends. Ray is a really cool guy, we hang around after school. I do anything not to be home anymore. My parents don't really mind it anymore. They could care less if I died. They told me that when I came home at midnight on a school night ( I passed out at Ray's after a gamer marthon). I just stopped caring if I ate or if I was cold or hot, even if I even took a shower or not. Nothing seemed to matter. I was just floating away into nothingness and no one really noticed. I hid it pretty well. No one knew about the beatings about my parents, I was just the new kid everyone didn't like. Did Gerard like me? He told me to start calling him Gee, so adorable. He still calls me Frankie and I have a wall up still. I really didn't want to lose them after I open my heart to them, I knew one day I would be ready but today wasn't that day. I knew Gerard is I think pansexual, Mikey is bi, Ray is straight (we all knew that). They all knew about me and I swear I could feel Gee staring at me smirking. It has been really fun with everyone, school isn't just a hell but a safe place now. I'm going over to the Way's house to sleep over, Ray's gonna be there too, No parents just us. This will be fun.

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