Don't ever think I'll make you try to stay

- - - time lapse, next week

Frank's sitting in class, peering at Gerard in the corner of his eye. It's been a week. And Gerard won't even turn around to look at frank. He's made the mistake of looking at frank once and the second he caught his gaze he glared back daggers and crossed his arms. This really sucks. Frank looks down and watches his shaking hands under the desk.

I'm such a failure. Why did I ever try?

Would anyone notice
Would anyone care
would anything matter
If you're already dead

I remember him saying: "Frank Iero, you are dead to me. Dead."

- - -

The bell rang at the end of class, making both boys jump. Frank covered a laugh with his hand - wouldn't want Gerard to see Frank laughing.

He hates me.

For the rest of class Frank did not look at Gerard again.

- - -

It was the end of class.

Frank felt fingers curling around his, they were warm and comforting. Who? What?Slowly frank dragged his eyes up from the ground. And up the beautiful, painstakingly beautiful body that was Gerard Way's.

Oh no.

What's he gonna do, punch me? Probably.

"Come with me." Gerard whispered. Dumbfounded, frank trudged behind Gerard. He led him outside the classroom, then outside the building, down a path and behind a building where there was nobody else. The older boy was pulling his hand almost aggressively, Frank did not have a good feeling about this.

Shit.

Gerard wasn't showing it, but he was nervous as fuck. Really nervous. Nervous. Very very nervous. And he knew it too. Gerard guided Frank outside and continued walking. He felt a shiver going through Frank's whole body, and he didn't know what to do.

Suddenly Gerard squeezed back reassuringly and felt frank cringing away from him. Well obviously Frankie wouldn't be that happy to see him after the way he'd been acting for days. Maybe. Or maybe be was secretly hoping Gerard had changed his mind. Whatever.

I'm doing this whether my Frankie still cares or not.

Gerard pulled Frank against a corner in the wall. They both stood for a second, both panting, both breathing heavily, both hearts fluttering in their chests. Frank was focusing hard on the ground with both terror and pain in his hazel eyes, the older boy took one look at Frank and put his back against the wall, pulling Frank several steps closer to him.

Then they were face to face and suddenly their noses were inches away from each others. "Gerard, please, tell me what the fuck you think you are doing?" Frank asked. "Please, just don't hurt me." Hurt him?

Gerard looked confused for a second and lowered his eyes in a look of pure concern. Frank continued talking. "I know... I... y'know, fucked up. I know that. I can't forgive myself," frank was blurting out. "I-I..." He looked into Gee's eyes. Whatever his friend wanted to do to him, he deserved it. But the other boy did not hurt him. He did not punch him, yell at him, push him away...

he crushed his lips to frank's and completely caught him off guard.

Gerard Way was kissing Frank Iero.
Frank Iero was kissingGerard Way.
Gerard Way and Frank Iero were kissing.
This was not happening.

Frank quickly started kissing back and deepened the kiss. It was frantic and rushed and he wasn't even sure what the fuck was happening but I was great. Frank shivered and let out a deep moan, making Gerard whimper and fist his hand in frank's hair. It was a slow kiss and Gerard was gentle not to get too fast.

Frankie opened his eyes and slowly pulled away, brushing his nose along Gee's jaw in the process. "Agh," Gerard sighed.

"Why?" said Frank. "Just why?" He didn't even know what to say. Gerard had changed his mind so quickly. "Gerard, what did I do that caused you to change your mind like this?"
"Oh, Frankie..." he sighed. "Look, things happened kind of fast for me... and I kind of thought about it... and I r-realized... I love you too."

The other boy narrowed his eyes. "But four days ago you said I was dead to you. That's... not something I take lightly, Gee..."
"At least you're still calling me Gee and not Gerard, or something worse?" Gerard said, but it sounded more like a hopeful question, a plea. He was losing the fight and he knew it. They held each other's gazes.

"I am really. Fucking. Confused." said Frank. "Okay, I can't believe you think you can ignore me for a whole week and then come back to me as if nothing happened. This is crazy. You can't take a whole week to decide whether you love someone or not. Look, okay, if this relationship is based on pity or whatever you feel for me, then I don't want to be in it. Saying 'I love you' and saying 'I care about you' are utterly different things!"

Frank took a long breath after his long outburst. It was quiet.

"I'm pushing people away again."

"You're not pushing me away. I'm not gonna let you push me away,frank."

"Shit, said that out loud."

"You said that out loud too." Gerard laughed. Frank blushed and looked away. "You're so cute when you blush... Frank." he added on softly. Frank orientated himself and his face went dead serious again.

"Gerard. Until you can prove yourself properly to me, that you really completely defantly love me and you don't just feel sorry for me, then you are dead to me." Frank gently put his lips to his crush's forehead and turned around, leaving him stunned without a second look.

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Notes

hi georgia. if your name's georgia, hi. If you are not georgia, then ignore his. X