Hearts Will Sacrifice
And I think about you all the time
Frank’s Pov:
Today was the start of a new tour for our new album Three Cheers For Sweet Revenge… I was really looking forward to this tour, we were going to be traveling and stopping in 30 different states and the two bands that were opening for us seemed pretty cool. As of right now, I was driving to Gerard and Mikey’s parents house to meet up with the rest of the band so we could head to Ohio where our tour would kick off at. The sound of Save Tonight by Eagle Eye Cherry played softly in the background as I grabbed a cigarette out of the small box and lit it with a swift flick of my thumb, inhaling the sweet toxins and blowing out the grey smoke, filling the air with its bittersweet smell. I rolled my window down just a crack and blew the smoke out into the polluted air, polluting it more. I needed to give up smoking, it sometimes caused difficulties while playing on stage because of the shortage breathing I would suffer but it was easier said than done.
I pulled into the small drive way of the Way’s house and got out, flicking the cigarette butt into the street. The guys were already outside, talking on the porch and I walked up the short brick path to the porch. “Hey short stuff” Gerard greeted smirking and I flipped him off, sitting on the small chair that was located in the corner. “Awe leave the shorty alone, he can’t help it he is vertically challenged” Bob joked and I playfully glared at them, I never had a problem with them making fun of my size but if someone else did it, let’s just say I didn’t react too kindly. The front door creaked up and I looked over to see Mikey walk out, his glasses slipping off his nose and that damn beanie situated on his head, covering most of his dirty blonde hair. He was wearing semi tight jeans and a Night Of The Living Dead green t-shirt, I couldn’t stop myself from letting a few drips of saliva slip out of the corner of my mouth as I stared at the beautiful male. I quickly wiped the liquid away and hid behind my hair, blushing slightly. Though he didn’t catch me, Gerard did and the smirk on his face was clear that he knew I was hiding something.
“Frank, can I talk to you for a second?” Gerard asked standing up. I stared at him, confused, and stood up as well, following him around the corner to the side of the house. He just stared at me, his hazel eyes staring right into my own hazel eyes, and I was starting to become slightly uncomfortable as the seconds passed. “Do you have feelings for my brother?” He finally broke the silence and I stared at him with wide eyes. I was hoping he wouldn’t ask that question… How was I supposed to tell my best friend I was gay, let alone in love with his brother? He raised an eyebrow and that same smirk slowly started to return on his face.
“Judging by the silence and the look on your face, I would take that as a yes. I don’t mind if you are gay, or if you have feelings for my brother. I can’t say Mikey returns them, because I honestly don’t know if he does, or if he is even gay but I do know that you need to tell him” I shook my head quickly. “I am not telling him! Are you crazy?! I rather keep the friendship I have with him, thank you very much. So please, just keep it to yourself. One day I will tell him but for now, please just keep your mouth shut” I stared at him with pleading eyes and he looked at me with a blank expression for a few moments before finally sighing and nodding his head. I let out a sigh of relief and pulled him in for a brief hug, muttering “thank you”. He smiled and patted my back then went back to the front of the house. I stayed planted where I was at and stared at the chipped paint on the house. It felt good to finally tell someone my secret, keeping it locked up in a box for so long can be hard, and I hoped Gerard stayed true to his word.
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Again we were on the road, heading towards our first destination, and I could barely contain my excitement. We haven’t been off that long but I missed playing, it was a great feeling being up there on the stage, playing music for the world. I was doing what I always wanted to do, make music for people who enjoyed music just as much as I did. The only thing I wasn’t looking forward to was Mikey bringing girls on to the bus, he tended to do that from time to time, it was like a stab to the chest each time I had to hear him and some slut go at it. I mean yeah he was drunk most of the time, but that didn’t help the pain in my heart.
I lied in my designated bunk, looking up at the wooden bars that kept the mattress from crushing me, and thought about what it would be like to call Mikey mine. The same thoughts that were running through my head were the same ones I have been thinking about since our last tour we did before this one. That tour was when my feelings really became difficult to remain a secret… I was able to handle it though and ever since then, it’s been hell…I just hope this tour will be a lot easier.
“Frank come on, we are here! Let’s go walk around!” I heard Gerard yell from the front of the bus and I sighed, running a hand through my hair before climbing out of the tiny bunk space and slipping on my raggedy shoes. “Frank seriously-“He was cut off by me making an appearance in front of him. He smiled and grabbed my arm, dragging me off the bus. Bob, Ray and Mikey were already waiting outside and Mikey smiled when he saw me, walking over and draping his arm over my shoulder. I swallowed nervously and looked at his hand that was mere inches away from my face then back at his face but he wasn’t paying attention, he was talking to Bob. I was thinking about shrugging his arm off but one that would be rude and two it would make him suspicious, so I just left there as we walked around.
Thankfully there wasn’t many fans who recognized us and we were able to wonder around in peace, I love my fans, they could just really annoying at times. We arrived back to the venue safely and we were late for our sound check by 10 minutes, Brian wasn’t very happy.
Sound check went by marvelously as usual and before we knew it, we had 15 minutes until it was time to go on stage and make hundreds of fans happy. Adrenaline was pumping through my veins and I could barely sit still as I waited for them to continue setting up the stage. Finally when they were finished, the lights went off and the cheers of the fans got extremely louder as Bob walked out on to the stage first followed by Ray then Mikey. With a grin painted onto my face, I walked out onto the stage and the cheers were pretty much deafening by the time Gerard made his appearance. I stared out into the large crowd arena and the grin on my face widened. This tour was definitely going to be a good one, I just knew it.
Today was the start of a new tour for our new album Three Cheers For Sweet Revenge… I was really looking forward to this tour, we were going to be traveling and stopping in 30 different states and the two bands that were opening for us seemed pretty cool. As of right now, I was driving to Gerard and Mikey’s parents house to meet up with the rest of the band so we could head to Ohio where our tour would kick off at. The sound of Save Tonight by Eagle Eye Cherry played softly in the background as I grabbed a cigarette out of the small box and lit it with a swift flick of my thumb, inhaling the sweet toxins and blowing out the grey smoke, filling the air with its bittersweet smell. I rolled my window down just a crack and blew the smoke out into the polluted air, polluting it more. I needed to give up smoking, it sometimes caused difficulties while playing on stage because of the shortage breathing I would suffer but it was easier said than done.
I pulled into the small drive way of the Way’s house and got out, flicking the cigarette butt into the street. The guys were already outside, talking on the porch and I walked up the short brick path to the porch. “Hey short stuff” Gerard greeted smirking and I flipped him off, sitting on the small chair that was located in the corner. “Awe leave the shorty alone, he can’t help it he is vertically challenged” Bob joked and I playfully glared at them, I never had a problem with them making fun of my size but if someone else did it, let’s just say I didn’t react too kindly. The front door creaked up and I looked over to see Mikey walk out, his glasses slipping off his nose and that damn beanie situated on his head, covering most of his dirty blonde hair. He was wearing semi tight jeans and a Night Of The Living Dead green t-shirt, I couldn’t stop myself from letting a few drips of saliva slip out of the corner of my mouth as I stared at the beautiful male. I quickly wiped the liquid away and hid behind my hair, blushing slightly. Though he didn’t catch me, Gerard did and the smirk on his face was clear that he knew I was hiding something.
“Frank, can I talk to you for a second?” Gerard asked standing up. I stared at him, confused, and stood up as well, following him around the corner to the side of the house. He just stared at me, his hazel eyes staring right into my own hazel eyes, and I was starting to become slightly uncomfortable as the seconds passed. “Do you have feelings for my brother?” He finally broke the silence and I stared at him with wide eyes. I was hoping he wouldn’t ask that question… How was I supposed to tell my best friend I was gay, let alone in love with his brother? He raised an eyebrow and that same smirk slowly started to return on his face.
“Judging by the silence and the look on your face, I would take that as a yes. I don’t mind if you are gay, or if you have feelings for my brother. I can’t say Mikey returns them, because I honestly don’t know if he does, or if he is even gay but I do know that you need to tell him” I shook my head quickly. “I am not telling him! Are you crazy?! I rather keep the friendship I have with him, thank you very much. So please, just keep it to yourself. One day I will tell him but for now, please just keep your mouth shut” I stared at him with pleading eyes and he looked at me with a blank expression for a few moments before finally sighing and nodding his head. I let out a sigh of relief and pulled him in for a brief hug, muttering “thank you”. He smiled and patted my back then went back to the front of the house. I stayed planted where I was at and stared at the chipped paint on the house. It felt good to finally tell someone my secret, keeping it locked up in a box for so long can be hard, and I hoped Gerard stayed true to his word.
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Again we were on the road, heading towards our first destination, and I could barely contain my excitement. We haven’t been off that long but I missed playing, it was a great feeling being up there on the stage, playing music for the world. I was doing what I always wanted to do, make music for people who enjoyed music just as much as I did. The only thing I wasn’t looking forward to was Mikey bringing girls on to the bus, he tended to do that from time to time, it was like a stab to the chest each time I had to hear him and some slut go at it. I mean yeah he was drunk most of the time, but that didn’t help the pain in my heart.
I lied in my designated bunk, looking up at the wooden bars that kept the mattress from crushing me, and thought about what it would be like to call Mikey mine. The same thoughts that were running through my head were the same ones I have been thinking about since our last tour we did before this one. That tour was when my feelings really became difficult to remain a secret… I was able to handle it though and ever since then, it’s been hell…I just hope this tour will be a lot easier.
“Frank come on, we are here! Let’s go walk around!” I heard Gerard yell from the front of the bus and I sighed, running a hand through my hair before climbing out of the tiny bunk space and slipping on my raggedy shoes. “Frank seriously-“He was cut off by me making an appearance in front of him. He smiled and grabbed my arm, dragging me off the bus. Bob, Ray and Mikey were already waiting outside and Mikey smiled when he saw me, walking over and draping his arm over my shoulder. I swallowed nervously and looked at his hand that was mere inches away from my face then back at his face but he wasn’t paying attention, he was talking to Bob. I was thinking about shrugging his arm off but one that would be rude and two it would make him suspicious, so I just left there as we walked around.
Thankfully there wasn’t many fans who recognized us and we were able to wonder around in peace, I love my fans, they could just really annoying at times. We arrived back to the venue safely and we were late for our sound check by 10 minutes, Brian wasn’t very happy.
Sound check went by marvelously as usual and before we knew it, we had 15 minutes until it was time to go on stage and make hundreds of fans happy. Adrenaline was pumping through my veins and I could barely sit still as I waited for them to continue setting up the stage. Finally when they were finished, the lights went off and the cheers of the fans got extremely louder as Bob walked out on to the stage first followed by Ray then Mikey. With a grin painted onto my face, I walked out onto the stage and the cheers were pretty much deafening by the time Gerard made his appearance. I stared out into the large crowd arena and the grin on my face widened. This tour was definitely going to be a good one, I just knew it.
Notes
Another story I am currently posting on Mibba that will be posting on here.This is the only chapter I have done so far.
Once I post another chapter on Mibba, I will post it here.
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I'm sorry for any fuck ups.
10/1/13